I'm not good at creating short posts but I'll do my best to explain my situation in the shortest amount of words also while explaining an experience that happened to me which has led me here
I was diagnosed with Aspergers at a young age, I won't go into the details so as not to derail myself into a separate conversation but my parents did not agree with the diagnosis and took me to other doctors with mixed diagnosis. I think because I was considered to be on a higher functioning end of Aspergers the entire situation was swept under the rug, I suspect possibly due to egotistical influences on my parents part from not wanting to have a child with Aspergers.
Because of my young age the entire question of whether or not I had Aspergers (or even what it was) was ignored by me for years, it wasn't until I was in my Jr or Senior year in high school that I started questioning things. I actually came to my own conclusion that I may have something "wrong" with me, and when I brought it up to my parents this is when they mentioned that I was at one time diagnosed with Aspergers. To me this was too much of a coincidence, I had completely forgotten that this diagnosis had even occurred yet came to the same general conclusion on my own several years later.
I want to make it a point to explain that for me, Aspergers is very misunderstood. People mostly understand this by characters they have seen portrayed in television shows. I do not stand out in a glaring way that I have something wrong with me, and unless you are educated in this area you probably wouldn't notice anything particularly "wrong" with me; I drew these conclusions because of an experience I had where I literally felt like a different human for several days in a row.
I was on vacation on a cruise ship where we had multiple food options every day. I spent much of the day not eating anything because I didn't like the food, but at night when I became hungry I ate things that "looked interesting" , to try new things. Many of these were seafood types of foods. Many of them had spices and unique herbs on them. I ate these in large amounts each night, it made me feel light but sated, I enjoyed it more than the typical helping of large carbohydrates I was used to. This particular cruise had a smoothie bar, and while not free I visited this at least a couple of times a day. They mixed green drinks that had vegetables and fruits as well as some other ingredients I imagine. I didn't select these based on the ingredients, I selected them more on the name. For instance, I like strawberry so if it had strawberry in the name then I chose it, although it had multiple ingredients in it.
Fast forward: By the 5th and last day of the cruise I started feeling really different. I had a calmness over me that I never had before. I felt like stepping lightly wherever I went, I didn't want to make noise when I moved. Not because I was worried the noise would disturb someone, but just because "it felt right". For the first time in my life I understood the attractiveness of meditation. I actually felt like sitting and just being quiet with my thoughts. I didn't really think anything strange of this at the time, I just enjoyed it. I watched things and felt like I was looking at them completely different than I ever had before, like I understood clearly what I was seeing/observing. I won't go into many more of the other effects I felt so as to keep this from getting too long.
After I got home I remember feeling especially good. I told my parents about this and they explained that's what vacations are for, although I couldn't help but think that they didn't understand how good I felt. The next morning after I got home I woke up and felt an unusual buzz in the morning. It's hard to describe, it was like there was an energy about the room that I hadn't felt before. It was like I was actually realizing for the first time that I was alive, I don't know if that makes sense. Again, for some reason I didn't make much of it, I just noticed it and continued about my morning. As the day continued on I felt unusually happy and ambitious, and most of all I realized I could think more clearly. I say "more" because to me it was more, but I started wondering if this was just how normal people are all of the time. I didn't have trouble remembering things, in fact memories were jumping out at me, especially when I smelled things. It was like the smell or sensation triggered memories that pinballed into euphoric emotions/nostalgia. I had always had difficulty reading and understanding things but on these days it felt easy, things just made sense. I remember looking outside at the grass and the bushes and it looked really good...the outdoors, I wanted to be a part of it. I actually wanted to go outside just to be outside.
These feelings came and went back and forth over the next 3-4 days. I told my parents about it and they said they could notice a difference too, and that maybe it was all the sun I had while on the cruise. I immediately started getting a lot of sun, whenever I could, I wanted to enhance what I had, but I was actually losing it. I could literally feel it dwindling. By the 5th day (if I remember correctly) I had no buzzing feeling it was all gone. I spent that day thinking about what I had and how it felt and this is when I brought up the conversation about aspergers. I realized that when I felt like this that I finally understood more of why people acted the way they did, I could see clearly how different and "off" I was with my thinking, personality, energy, mood etc.
I started thinking it was the seafood and ate a bunch of seafood, I also went to smoothie establishments and drinking green drinks. I have bought my own, made my own, mixed them and drank large amounts trying to get back what I had. The more I read on the internet it seems the further away I get from an answer because of all the mixed information. I am trying to understand what nutrient, supplement, etc I consumed that (I believe) filled a missing gap that I have biologically. I have read threads from people claiming to have some success with Aspergers but can't get any real information from them. I have had success with some herbs where I felt like I was putting it into remission and then it fails, it's like my body learns to reject it.
I am sending this message hoping that someone has some information, or clues as to what supplements might help me get back what I had. I want to iterate that I do not believe I felt like an enhanced human, I felt like a "normal" human; I am judging this by my behavior compared to people around me, we were aligned, we were similar.
Sorry for the long post, I left many things out to try and keep it practical.
Edited by basicallyyes, 16 August 2017 - 05:33 PM.