I've recently been reflecting about a couple of things in my life and started to think about how my mind works.
I suspect something might be wrong. I don't really "feel" things the way others do, come to think of it I don't feel it all.
I'm never excited, happy, sad, melancholic, I never feel any of these emotions and can't for the life of me remember having done so.
I psysically enjoy eating, carbs mainly..and I can experience endorphins after working out, but I think there's something wrong about my dopaminergic system.
Everytime I've drunk alcohol, I only get the physical effects of impaired movement, speech and cognition - there's no real joy derived from it.
Come to think of it, none of the things I do in life are really volitional, they are based on momentum, and me considering them to be beneficial for me in the long-term(working out, studying at college, eating healthy).
During my teens I was always the one who just "came along", come to think of it, I've never ever been the one to initiate social events or suggest things to do, there's never been any motivation to.
A couple of years ago I tried an SSRI(Flouxetine) - it had zero effect on me.
From my research it seems like this could be a dopamine deficiency. If this were the case, how would one go about fixing this?
Edited by Superdudley, 20 January 2018 - 10:29 PM.