Orajel, on 09 April 2012 - 09:38 AM, said:
joelski28, on 09 April 2012 - 04:20 AM, said:
Raise your Consciousness Spiritually and Happiness will come much more easier. This can be done through simply looking at yourself and working on yourself. Taking responsibility and owning that you created your reality. Then there are techniques to help such as meditation, practice unconditional love, contemplation, surrounding yourself with higher energy. Everyone wants to take the magic pill. Make the right choices and do postive things and You will become much more happy. Inner Joy exists no matter what the condition of the Brain
That right there!
In addition to that, ask your doctor about getting blood work done. You could have low testosterone or DHEA levels, or have a vitamin deficiency. Bloodwork is wonderful because it takes the guesswork out of things. Its a shame you didn't respond to wellbutrin, that sounds like the perfect med for you. But there are other good options. Look into rhodiola or sulbutiamine, it sounds like you need something stimulating. But the fact that you said you dont have any goals in life indicates you need a lifestyle overhaul. No pill is going to fix that. Good thoughts will follow good actions, its seldom the other way around.
Edit: If you're young (under 35) they will rarely test your hormone levels unless you specifically request it
Also, vinpocetine can help with ringing in the ears.
ALSO, beware of people telling you to take piracetam and choline. There is substantial evidence that an overexpression of acetylcholine in ones' brain can result in depressive symptoms. It sounds like you've already figured that out yourself.
One thing you might want to look into is a combination of acetylcarnetine and alpha lipoic acid (R-lipoic-acid) the combination has been studied in application to psychological fatigue and cognitive deficiency with success. I've personally found it helpful.
I did respond to Wellbutrin, but only somewhat. It helped increase my motivation, my energy levels. It also somewhat helped with my inability to laugh. Also, I only took it for 4 weeks so I didn't really give it much time to take full effect. Maybe I should try it again, but this time stay on 150 mg for more than 4 weeks.
Also, I'm beginning to think that my hormones are imbalanced because mostly all of my symptoms started or got significantly worse at the start of my puberty. And the fact that my sex drive is dead at the age of 18 further reinforces that hypothesis.
Can you please tell me what I should request for when I'm getting my blood work? Anything specific? Or should I just ask for all my hormones, vitamins and minerals to be tested?
Junk Master, on 09 April 2012 - 02:38 PM, said:
You are young and have your whole life ahead of you. DON'T look for a magic supplement to cure depression. Get help from doctors and mental health professionals. That doesn't mean you should accept advice blindly, study, and educate yourself.
A simple suggestion would be to start each day with a gratitude list. If you do that for six weeks and monitor your mood, you will see an improvement. Meditation is also a fantastic suggestion.
Don't fall into the shotgun, magic supplement trap. You'll just waste a lot of money and time.
I am getting help from doctors and mental health professionals, but I'm also looking for advice elsewhere. I'm obviously not looking for anything to cure my depression, I'm looking for something to help me cure it. I have a major problem with motivation and I'm just looking for something to help me with that part as I'm sure my motivation deficit stems from a lack of motivational neurotransmitters. I've tested this hypothesis before where I would force myself to do something that would be rewarding, like exercising, or working hard on a project, or even just playing games. None of the aforementioned activities stimulated my brain. The state of my brain before doing those activities and after was exactly the same. Nothing changed. I didn't feel anything from doing them.
Now, on 09 April 2012 - 02:45 PM, said:
Do you exercise? I think that physical exercise is the 'miracle therapy' for depression, but I also know that it is very difficult to begin with when you don't have motivation and energy. Just try to start slow without expectations. Choose an activity (walking, running, skipping rope etc.) and start with 15-30 minutes/day. The benefit of exercise is that you will be rewarded (increase dopamine, glutamate, norepinephrine, serotonin and endorphins) almost immediately.
Actually, I used to exercise about 8 months ago where I would go to my 1 hour and 30 minute taekwondo classes. I used to go 2-3 times a week. Eventually, my depression got worse and I could not get myself to go outside anymore. Also, I don't get any reward from exercise. I never feel any different before exercising and after.