You are clearly depressed. Depression in somewhere between 20-40% of cases doesn't present with low mood as a major problem, rather anhendonia (the inability to feel pleasure or reduced pleasure), early morning waking, amotavation and psychomotor retardation or agitation. So I will give you advice on how to do so with supplements and self help, if this doesn't at least start to cause some improvement its time to take a trip to see a doctor. Although I am sure we will have you right as rain within three to four months.
You treat depression in three ways each typically is about as important as the other (the rule of three), through medication (supps, pharms w/e), psychotherapy and behavioural activation. You can do this all by yourself with out the input of a doctor what-so-ever if you want, or you can do it with a doctor.
To start out I will make it clear. Noopept is a bad idea. It might mask the symptoms briefly but it won't make them go away and in the long term who knows what its going to do.
Nearly all depressions are linked to downregulation or depleation of serotonin. The first thing to do is correct that.
L--tryptophan 1000-2500 take this at night (it will make you sleepy) (start at 1000 and go up by 500 (after 4 weeks of non-response/partial response) to a maximum of 2500
DLPA 1000-2000mg this turns into dopamine and noradreanaline (very important in the type of depression I think you have), this will improve motivation, feeling happy, attention and help with the whole creativity thing. start with 500 in the morning and 500 later in the day 6 hours before bed at least.
Sulbutiamine works on dopamine and glutamate (implicate in motavation) 300-1500mg can be helpful. The first few days the effects of 600+ can be very pronouced this wont last, so some people like to cycle it 2-3 days 2-4 days off to preserve that boom factor others use in longer term and it will have more stuble continuous but still very positive effects.
A good multi vit, b complex vit and high dose vit C are also good ideas.
circadian rhythem problems are also implicated in depression. The use of low dose 0.5-3mg of melatonin 1-2 hours before bed time is a good idea.
Next behavioural activation and modification.
Exersise is massively important in reducing amotivation. It can be very hard to start and some people find themselves starting with something as small as 5-10 mins every other day. It doesn't matter how small it seems each step forwards is a step in the right direction and you should pat yourself on the back for it. Its best to start with mild-moderate cardio. Don't expect to achieve your goal everytime.
Socialising, going out to the pub or the park or whatever you would ususally do with your friends is going to move towards increasing neurogensis in the hypocampus again. Its a must, again if its once a week at the start, then thats were you start.
You want to be amazing at music...DO SOME! doesn't have to be much, doesn't have to be hardly any but do something.
maybe try and find something to volunteer doing as well
read up on and practice mindfulness (many people think its a load of crap but its one of the best evidenced treatments for chronic depressive illnesses)
read up on, AND STICK TO BECAUSE ITS HARD sleep hygine - the improvements off this alone can be enough to turn someone from a vegtable to super active.
psychotherapy - CBT
buy a book on it or find the free cbt courses on the internet. thats all that needs to be said about that really.
Edited by Tom_, 23 March 2013 - 01:10 AM.
Im unmotivated, none passionate, cant concentrate on anything meaningful (I can play simcity for hours, but anything constructive and im done after 10). Basically I feel like I just exist rather than live. I cant be bothered to socialise even though I might want to and im just generally withdrawn.
