I have been having low T ever since. I believe I always had low T. My issue is low LH. My LH has always been borderline low in all tests I ever took. I got a piuitary MRI with dye last year and they found nothing.
As teenager I didn't grow any facial hair until 20. I also noticed how damn weak I was in sports. It was embarassing.
I could never even do 1 regular pushup and still can't!
I used to workout straight for 1,5 years and my best weight on the bench ever was 50 kilos, bar included! Most males press this weight without ever being in a gym.
At age 21 I first had my T measured and it was already borderline low. I then went to an endocrinology professor who made fun of my symptoms and acted like I only wanted to juice.
He measured and my T was again borderline and he said that this is okay and that I won't get anything even if my T was below normal I'd not get anything.
I went to second professor. Same story. He also told me it's all fine.
I also did a test where you're injected with something which makes your LH and FSH go up to see if it can be stimulated. This test was also normal which means that these hormones
could be stimulated. But this doesn't change the fact the I simply produce too little LH. My testicles are also okay they are not the issue. The issue is simply that my body obviously thinks that
I only need borderline levels of testosterone.
Then for a few years I did nothing. I was simply discouraged.
Then I went to a urologist, he had no damn clue about hormones. He told me that he would do a T gel cycle with me this would increase my own production lol!
I'm 30 now. And I look totally sick. I'm skinny fat and store fat on the outer thighs and the butt just like women.
I thought maybe my E2 is totally high but I had it checked many times during the years and it was always in the normal range between 20-30.
My hands and forearms are totally thin. If I wasn't skinny fat but only skinny I'd pretty much
look like the machinist in the movie the machinist.
I really don't know what to do anymore. The problem is that outside of the US it's much different. Here in Europe (except Hertoghe who's too expensive and too far away from me) there are no male doctors open to hormone therapy and those which are know nothing about it. Last year I gave it another try and went to another endocrinologist. He once again ran expensive labs and my T was below normal this time.
He said I should go on TRT. He put me on testosterone gel. But the gel didn't really work. I mean my testicles shrank a lot in short time. But my T levels were still too low and I was already on the max dose of the gel.
Then the doc said I need testosterone shots. But where I live there is ONLY testoviron 250mg which is injected every 2-3 weeks or Nebido which is injected every 10 weeks.
Both injections suck. Testoviron makes your T levels go through the roof at first and then after 2 weeks you're already below normal. And Nebido is a gigantic 1000mg injection which probably hurts a lot and I also
read stories online about Nebido being dangerous because it can cause a lung embolism. I asked my endo if it's not possible to inject smaller doses like 100mg every 5 days and he said no. He doesn't allow self-injections
because he fears getting in trouble if something happens. The only choice I had was basically going on Testoviron and then getting the shots from my GP every 2-3 weeks. Which means I'd have had to drive to my GP
for shots all the time.
I wasn't really sure if I should try out Testoviron. I was scared of side effects like hair loss and getting acne.
And I also don't want this rollercoaster. I don't want abnormally high T levels after the injection. I bet this is also not really healthy. I just want normal high levels.
In all the years where I had my T measured multiple times my best level which I ever had one time was 15ng/ml. Usually I had levels between 8-12ng/ml.
And what happened now is that I had to go to the endocrinologist again because of something different and he drew blood and also measured testosterone and now my level was 13ng/ml and he was like "Your T looks good, you don't need TRT".
This means that I'm not back at zero again. He was basically the only endocrinologist in my whole region who I had not already been to. I'm not once again out of a doctor who would even be willing to put me on TRT.
I don't know what to do now. I know that low T is bad. I feel bad. I look so shitty. I don't know how I'd look with more T, though. Maybe more T would change nothing?
But now I don't even have hope in trying TRT.
Back when I saw the endocrinologist and discussed TRT with him I also asked if it's not possible to take HCG instead of injecting T. He said no, way to expensive and also not paid by insurances.
I asked him about aromatase inhibitors in case E2 goes up. He also doesn't use that.
This was also one reason why I didn't want to try the injections cause I worried that in case there are complications and my E2 goes up then I couldn't have done anything about it.
I mean would it even have made sense to go on TRT when you know that your doctor does not use AIs?
I think that the use of AIs in men is not very common at all among orthodox doctors. And also low T isn't really taken very seriously.
Edited by dunbar, 01 December 2013 - 04:51 AM.
