I feel totally bad today. I have been lying in bed all day trying to distract me with TV but it doesn't work.
I feel so absolutely low. I wish I could just knock myself out somehow.
I don't know if stablon has anything to do with this. What if stablon actually makes my depression worse?
But it could as well have nothing to do with it.
However, a few hours ago I decided to take 30mg Ritalin LA, which I got for adhd, to see if it lifts my mood somehow. It did nothing at all!
This depresses me even more. I mean isn't dopamine supposed to make you feel better? Why doesn't it work for me?
I almost feel like there's nothing left to try now. I mean if ritalin doesn't give me a lift then which antidepressant could?
Wellbutrin also did nothing. And I doubt that a MAOI has a stronger dopaminergic effect than ritalin.
I read that in the past ritalin was first used as antidepressant. But then why doesn't it work for me? 30mg is a pretty high dose,
it's almost the max dose. I feel really bad now.