Greetings Friends,
I was hoping that you fine people of Longecity could share some insight with me. Ive been a satisfied member of this community for some time now and it has given me a wealth of information. That being said, I still would appreciate some more specific opinions and advice, if possible please. I will try to cover the basics about me below.
- I have had a troubled past dealing with drug and alcohol addictions
- I was on a SSRI and advian combo for 4+ years
- I have been clean and sober for 3+ years now, including being off all medications
- I eat well, sleep well, exercise, and maintain a healthy diet
- I have had blood tests done a variety of times over the past years with nothing unusual
- I have tried the basic supplements and nootropics with limited results
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Now for my symptoms (I apologize for the descriptions, It is hard to explain) After years of talking to my Doctor, I am unsatisfied that I am dealing with anxiety and Depression. My life is going better than ever and I have zero anxiety...
- Depersonalization, not the anxiety kind, I used to deal with that years ago, now it is more of a dreamlike/brain-fog 24/7 state of reality. No fear or much emotion, just flat and exhausted most days, even with vigorous exercise and healthy diet.
-Memory feels shot, I constantly forget what I was just about to do, time feels so different, instead of a stream it is more like a haze. Days, months and years feel cloudy and not connected to me. I cannot read a page of a book and remember what I just read afterwards... makes my life extremely unsatisfying.
-Sense of self feels "off". Little motivation, pleasure, emotion, or life left in me, even through a variety of life circumstances. I feel like I am just burnt out. I feel like I am not fully awake all day, like I am trapped in an in-between dream state which I cannot awaken from. I feel like I have been chemically and mentally castrated by drugs, medications, and alcohol abuse and I want my life back.
I appreciate any help whatsoever. I have overcome a lot over the past few years and I have done a 180 degree change in my lifestyles, but no matter what Ive done, I still feel the same.
A big Thank you to anyone who has taken the time to read this and share their input,
Michael