CMX001 looks like it's still under clinical trial, correct? What do you mean by group buy? Is it available in other countries? And would trying to eradicate EBV in my system also help mitigate the sleep issue, or has it permanently altered my biology?
A group buy is when we pool our resources to have a laboratory synthesize a compound that has not yet received full FDA approval. It can be manufactured and purchased "for research purposes only" without running afoul of the patent laws until it has fully passed all stages of clinical trials. I don't think you can buy it at the pharmacy anywhere yet. I'm hoping since it is a modification of an existing antiviral, the synthesis will not be cost-prohibitive.
I suspect-- though I have no way of knowing for sure-- that once the infectious insult is brought under control, your symptoms will improve. This optimism may be wishful thinking on my part: EBV changed me, too, and not for the better. It was in the middle of college and my GPA dropped from 3.8 for the 2 years before EBV to around 2.0 for the 3 years after. I also began struggling with attention and depression problems that have not yielded much to medical intervention. Now, 15 years later, I am finally willing to do something about it. But, those who say EBV is just some benign thing that doesn't have any effect long term are being disingenuous at best (or using the crazy medical definition of "benign" -- a benign tumor can still kill you!!). It has already been linked to various autoimmune diseases.
Epstein-Barr virus (EBV) has been a leading candidate trigger for several autoimmune diseases since the initial description of raised EBV-specific antibody titers in patients with SLE in 1971 (23). EBV is a biologically plausible candidate since it is ubiquitous in nature, establishes a lifelong dormant infection with continuous virus production due to reactivation, and modulates the human immune system. In its immune-modifying function, EBV rescues infected B cells via latent antigen expression and assists their differentiation into memory B cells, in which it persists. In addition, the virus continuously stimulates strong T-cell responses via chronic antigen presence, and this immune control is crucial to prevent EBV-associated malignancies.
By the way, stress can readily reactivate the infection.
"But I don't have an autoimmune disease, so I don't care about my latent EBV infection!" That's a bit like saying "I don't have lung cancer, so smoking is fine!"
Alright, anyway, I digress. But my optimism is also based on the responses of people who have healed after treating sometimes decades long infections such as Lyme. With EBV and other herpesviruses, though, it may take up to 7-10 years of antiviral treatment to fully eradicate the virus. This agent has an excellent safety record in clinical trials, but they don't typically run 7-10 years... Still, I'm personally willing to roll the dice for a chance to get my "true self" back.
Maybe I should spend less time posting lengthy, tangential responses online and more time raising the funds for this little operation.