For a long time now, I've always felt as if I lacked in the more linear focused line of thinking which I have often attributed me being more prone to a "right-brain" way of thinking. I know the whole left-brain vs right-brain debate is very misleading as we use both hemispheres for almost all tasks anyway. However, I still believe there is some truth to being more inclined to one way of thinking than the other. One day, a few weeks ago, I noticed my right face was more flat than the other (not abnormally so). I know I've slept on my right side for as long as I can remember, and I wondered if this also contributed to me being a more right-brain thinker. So I decided to give sleeping on the other side a shot. The first few days were hell, in fact, I know the first 2 nights I couldn't even fall asleep. Yet, I still forced myself to stay in that position night after night until, eventually, I could fall asleep comfortably on my left side.
What I've begin to notice is my severely reduced concentration in things like driving and playing games. This, however, pales in comparison to the amount of anger that can boil inside me. I can't recall the last time I've been so angry in general. Would you happen to know what is causing this? I have had a history of ADD but some doctors think it is more that I am depressed and cant focus as a result. I am doing well in good university right now if that matters.
Also, it may be important to note, I've always viewed myself as being very similar to my dad in mood and what not, except that he is an irrationally angry person a lot of the time. It bothers me so much that I've vowed to myself to never let my anger get to me as much as it does to him. More to the point though, I've always thought that he iss a very simple logical thinker compared to myself. He knows a lot of technical thinks and the many intricacies that are involved with managing one's own personal life. But, he isn't that into the things that I can lose myself in such as politics, philosophy, deep movies, etc. In some aspects I envy his ways (I have absolutely no common sense) but in others, I despise them.
Am I crazy or is there actually something to this? It's as if I've lost that hyper-focused state that I can find myself in when playing a game or browsing the web, and am now in a perpetual blurred lull. This is NOT because of a lack of sleep by the way. I can remember the dreams I had during the 10 hours of sleep I had last night.