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[medievil]

Hello,

 

I wanted to apologize for the time I claimed I could get every med possible, while my intentions where legit because I could get random meds by saying I came on holiday to differened docters they caught me out and then there was my cognitive impairment and drug addiction.

 

Id like to start posting on the forum again so apologies where in place, I plan to refund everyone but currently that's difficould as I need to order my stims as im refused getting them here atm.

[jaiho]

You should probably pay people back before buying more stims

[pro-v]

"I plan to refund everyone but currently that's difficould as I need to order my stims as im refused getting them here atm."

 

It's hard for people to take you seriously with comments like this. 

[blood]

"I plan to refund everyone but currently that's difficould as I need to order my stims as im refused getting them here atm."
 
It's hard for people to take you seriously with comments like this.

The honesty (expressed in his comment) is cute though.

Edited by blood, 19 December 2015 - 07:28 AM.

[medievil]

"I plan to refund everyone but currently that's difficould as I need to order my stims as im refused getting them here atm."

 

It's hard for people to take you seriously with comments like this. 

Well i can refund someone 20 pounds atm, whatever i can miss i will give back, the first one after this post that i own money will get it, shortly i will have more acces to funds, but atleast ill be showing i do what i can, even if i start small, its doing something atleast im not promosing i can pay back the money fast but i should be able to pay 50 pound at a time soon.

 

I have acces to 4 fluoromethylphenidate pellets now, which means i have more funds left if i take it in therapeutic doses.

You should probably pay people back before buying more stims

That simply isnt possible due to severity of my depression, its like brain torture, i recognize it as depression now tough as before my toughts and emotions seemed disconnected so i wasnt depressed, shizo really fucks with your emotions.

If anyone thinks it possible for me to stop stims then they dont know the severity of my anhedonia, i would never have been in any situation like this if i could function without stims like before i triggered shizophrenia (test cycle and diff factors on top, prob allways developped it tough as i had the genes, my mum is bipolar.

Edited by medievil, 23 December 2015 - 04:49 PM.

[medievil]

 

"I plan to refund everyone but currently that's difficould as I need to order my stims as im refused getting them here atm."
 
It's hard for people to take you seriously with comments like this.

The honesty (expressed in his comment) is cute though.

 

I have learned alot the last year and have loads of info to share, just wonna repay my debts before i felt like i could be part of the community again, if ppl dont apreciate me here then id leave, however i like this community and i especially have loads of information to share about anhedonia, its a horrible disorder if its as bad as mine, sure i can feel anhedonic on a low dose of ritalin, but that doesnt compare to the absolute brain torture i had to go trough, here in the UK i could not get my dex or ritalin so i had to self medicatie, i can do it cheaply and responsible too now with the pellets of the ritalin i was using before,  months ago my addiction was destroying me but that was the only thing i had in my life, my addiction was the best thing because of the cruelity i was dealing with without stims.

 

Im trying to stay on therapeutic doses, but im sure i can do it, otherwise i just keep on embarrassing myself or make mistakes like i did here, but i will get there.

Edited by medievil, 23 December 2015 - 04:57 PM.

[stefan_001]

I dont know you but for what its worth I wish you an easier and happier next year. I hope you have somebody around you that is willing to help you stay on track - in return though give them respect and be a friend when they need it.