I'm going to explain what I feel and maybe someone will have had the same kind of experience. I want to apologise for any grammar or spelling mistake I make in the following wall of text, this is only my second language
I'll start with my childhood:
All was well, nothing special, I played outside, never really had any serious diseases or traumatising events etc ...
By the time I was 14 I had a really bad car accident together with my parents, 1 leg got shredded into 3 pieces, the other leg got torn on the backside, I was basically catapulted out of the side window when the car did a quadruple sideflip downhill ! Nothing else (apart from the leg that hit a concrete post) was broken, really strange!
I recovered!
When hitting puberty I developed an inherited feature:
My father has had a "pinkish" glow in the face all his life, he tried everything and nothing helped, doctors told him it was genetic. I inherited this feature and I run around with a healthy pinkish glow all day. On really relaxed days and mornings this glow is REALLY faint, almost invisible.
I am now 28 , healthy (or so my doctor tells me every time), I never drink soda/sugar, 95% of the time I drink water and on occasion I enjoy 1 pure whisky because I enjoy it. I eat a pretty healthy diet (I think I do), medium amount of meat a day, as little processed shit as possible, as little fast food as possible, I NEVER EVER take regular pills or medecine, I didn't need any untill this day. I only took antibiotics 1 time in my life and it wasn't even necessary because the doc thought I had an infection from a mosquito bite but the truth was that I had a severe allergic reaction which mimics the features of a bacterial infection (instead my reaction developed WAY QUICKER => they call it skeeter syndrome) So yeah, my body dislikes foreign substances and hates mosquitos. Then he put me on a very low dose (1/8th of a 10mg pill) of anti histamines for 6 months.
Now for my "problems" (I'm sure some people have it worse than me ):
I always feel "on edge", it is hard to explain this but let me try: I get a lot of unsubstantiated bodily reactions (fight/flight) in my life.
Examples:
-I can be perfectly relaxed and enjoying the most relaxed conversation with friends, friends who'm I love a lot and love spending time with and suddenly out of the blue I can get HOT AS FUCK and get terrible burning facial redness. Off course this brings with it a sense of embarrassment because then I'm sitting there thinking:"WHY THE FUCK IS THIS HAPPENING ?"
-I can be sitting here watching a movie and the same thing can happen with no one around so I don't think I suffer from terrible social anxiety or something
-I can be playing a stupid game with friends and get a racing heart, small trembling sensations in extremities by just getting nervous about this game we are playing
-I react really hard to heat, 19-20°C is my temperature, when I go to friends and we play boardgames or sit in the couch I always have to ask them to shut the damn heat down because I'm burning up.
-I'm really easily offended/irritated/annoyed by the slightest touch (ex: someone that decides to tickle me without my consent) , sound (ex: baby crying on a train where I was enjoying some music), annoyance (I explain something to someone and they don't immediately get it, I can rage so hard about this but believe me, I don't want it to be like this, its just a bodily reaction :-( which sucks because I like interaction, talking, friends, going out etc...)
-I always notice these things happening when I have to concentrate for a very long time on a hard mental task, I don't lose my concentration because of it, its like my brain working heats up my body
-When something important is coming up I can be laying in bed waiting to fall asleep but my mind stays fully concious and I start noticing my heartbeat increasing, my body heating up, as soon as I just remove the sheets I'll be able to fall asleep when I'm "colder"
Now, after hundreds of articles and experiences I am at a loss, what could be causing this ?
It seems to be somewhere between high cortisol levels and high norepinephrine levels, or could it be something else ?
sleepschedule:
I must admit, I'm a night owl, I get my 8 and a half hours a day of sleep but they always start at 2.30am in the morning. I wake up really slowly, I turn and turn and turn and turn a bit more and once I feel fully awakened I step out of bed and I feel just fine in 5-10mins and I don't feel tired ALL day, I never even yawn. When I have nothing special to do the next morning I fall asleep without a problem (max 5mins).
I feel like my sympathetic nervous system is causing my body to be hypervigilant all the time for no reason at all. Some people told me it could be a nerve in my neck because of my accident in the past and I should get it checked out by a chiropractor. The doctor says "relax, you are fine". Then I found /r/nootropics on reddit and I see lots of people with certain "problems" looking for a sollution.
Here I am, does anyone else feel like their nervous system is way too active for no reason ? Would you like to calm the FUCK down like me ?
Anyone have good advice ?
*sorry for the wall of text :-)