I've been trying getting off the Mirtazapine and I did for 4 days. Those 4 days were great, finally my mental energy rose, I could function properly in social situations after years and came to the conclusion that I'm not depressed at all anymore but it is the Mirtazapine that makes me feel depressed and down.
Anyway, what I forgot was that without Mirtazapine I have those annoying pop-up thoughts that keep coming up when trying to sleep which eventually causes sleep deprivation which in turn makes me prone to have my positive symptoms triggered. Not only the pop-up thoughts causes the sleep deprivation but also, without Mirtazapine I'm so energetic (and that feels awesome), however mentally and physically I don't get tired at all. Well, at least, going without sleep makes me mentally tired but not to the point I can have a good night sleep.
I really want to go without the Mirtazapine, any thoughts on how to overcome my issues is appreciated.