Does anyone know about pseudo-cushing's? Supposedly severe endogenous depression and alcoholism (both actually go hand in hand) can spike cortisol and ACTH so much you get cushing's without the overt psychical features (ie. with normal weight or even weight loss). Symptoms would be mostly glucose intolerance, fatigue, altered bowel habits, syncopia, etc.
My depression feels very much psychical. I can't say i'm mentally feeling overburdened or anything, it's like my body can't produce some endorphins to make me feel good. So i suppose i have consummatory anhedonia mostly, although i can't be bothered to do shit either. This could be going since forever, not sure because my memory is completely shot. I'm resistant to most euphoria inducing drugs, although i've never tried opiates. My time perception is also shot completely, sometimes 1 minute feels like eternity and sometimes whole years go by in an instant. Curiously, the only time my libido reawakened was when i was sober, not smoking and running 1 hour a day taking fish oil and lecithin.
Since my breakdown (circa 2010 - 2012) my libido got shot and my ibs went haywire, i'm also suffering from anorgasmia and genital anesthesia (since forever). Also my blood sugar are completely shit even though i'm neither type 1 nor type 2 diabetic (had tests). It's like i have some kind of functional insulin resistance / type 1 diabetes without actually being diabetic. Blood tests show high cortisol.
My current plan to combat this:
- low fodmap, no grain diet, no eggs and milk (tested allergic)
- eating buckwheat, lightweight meats and greens
- possibly LDN, opiates, buprenorphine?
- olive oil, fish oil and soy lecithin
- maybe some ssri, not sure, because i have ocd, although imho i think all my neurotransmitters are low
