Hey everyone. I've been having a constant state of inflammation radiating from my gut/liver area which has plagued me for months. I no longer have energy to exercise, focus, no interest in anything(dopamine system is shot), feel much much more isolated and cynical towards everyone, and my ability to memorize and retain information in the long term is practically gone.
All of this has plagued me throughout my past year in college and I've only ever been able to find relief from anti-inflammatories/antioxidants but never cure and reverse the condition.
I find the fact that my long term memory retention is gone to be quite alarming since this had happened following some traumatic stress over past memories. It's pretty unusual because while I can recall events from my past quite well, I don't have the ability to do that when it comes to retaining new info. I can be in a lecture one week and completely forget the information the next week if I didn't take notes. My entire college year has been a blur to me due to this and it simply terrifying since I'm not able to really remember or experience life fully.
The issue had started when I first began recollecting memories at an alarming rate from the past. This had happened after I had eaten large quantities of raw grapes from a farm. No idea what could of been in them(fungus/heavy metal/microbes) but after a week of eating them I started getting cold hands and cold feet and I was also getting tired every time I ate anything sugary. It had almost been as if I had turned diabetic. This effect had stopped after I quit eating them. Along with that effect, after about a week of eating them I had a massive unbelievable surge of memories come back to me from the past. It was unbelievable. At the same time I started getting diarhea from bowl movements. All of this had happened after I took a round of antibiotics which I feel may have created an impact on my gut in regards to the flora.
Anyways after this had happened the memories never stopped surging back to me, and this was very atypical since I was never someone who dwelled on the past. At the same time I had continued my diet which involved eating around 1 85% dark chocolate bar a day. The saturated fat and sugar was tolerable in the beginning but after about a few weeks after the memories began surging back to me the dark chocolate began giving me infammation and fatigue. It was more like a wired but tired feeling. I couldn't sleep simply because I didn't feel sleepy but at the same time I felt like I had no energy. What worries me about the dark chocolate is that i may have faciliated greater dysfunction in my liver. Not to mention that the cadmium and copper in it also is worth noting as a potentially dangerous aspect.
As the months went on I dangerously lost more weight, skin got worse almost if it had glycated at an accelerated rate, and not only did I lose interest in exercise but I also couldn't tolerate it. The loss of exercise tolerance wasn't because of not having the available energy but because every exertion, as little as it may have been, made me feel like I was burning up and losing my breath at a faster rate. All of this points to high oxidation and free radical generation DESPITE very little exertion levels. The free radical damage could be seen on my skin.
Today I managed to gain a bit more weight back but the lack of motivation and drive is destroying my life. My libido and arousal is nonexistant and I simply don't feel pleasure from anything anymore. let alone have interest in it. My other symptoms include high blood pressure, high heart rate, and a very directed feeling of tension towards my liver/gut area. These symptoms afflict me everyday and my body is taking a toll when dealing with them.
I'm worried about liver failure here as all of my symptoms and inflammation coming from my liver area point to it. At the same time I'm also quite worried that the daily dark chocolate could have given me copper, lead, and cadmium poisening seeing how many brands have been found with high levels of them.
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Another side note, I seem to have my sense of urgency and willpower come back to me every single time I go out for a night of drinking. Seems as though the NMDA/glutmamte receptors are being upregulated and now I get my energy to accomplish tasks. Unfortunately this is short lived and only lasts a few days.
I really hope I can get back my motivation, drive, and pleasure back in my daily activities.