Can anyone sum up what might be affecting my mood / personality. For some really weird reason I've found it really hard to make new friends and I have always felt really moody towards people without any known reason. I am very shy, and always feel the need to justify my personality with someone and if I get rejected by someone who doesn't like me it makes me even more moodier. I find it hard to know what to talk about with people. Starting new conversations and find it hard to think clearly.
I have some form of brain fog or as if I cannot think at all. My memory is really poor, my vision doesn't seem "sharp" as it should be and am always feeling spaced out. The only thing that seems to help with my vision is nicotine. I don't know if in general my vision is related to depression or what it could be.
When I was younger and I still do to an extent suffer from social anxiety. I couldn't eat food in public because I felt like I was being judged. Then I just managed to get over it by thinking that everyone has got to eat as it's part of life so that's fine but I do still have the feeling like I'm being judged.
I am not sure what to say about the ADHD; I haven't been diagnosed but I find it really hard to focus on some thing. For example, I find it difficult to do my job without getting distracted by trying to talk to people; only to just get rejected again. I find it hard to watch a movie where I'm learning something. (if it was a normal movie I'd watch it without getting distracted) but that depends on the day and what my mood is like as some days I cannot sit still without feeling restless.
Does anyone know what I can do? If there's any supplements or diet plan I can use. My diet is shocking so was looking to change this. Been looking into the bulletproof diet unless someone knows of anything more suited for mental health? Does anyone know what I've actually got and how I can regain my memory, vision, and personality back.
Oh, and I've noticed with me. I don't seem to have a sense of humor and I seem to repeat the same conversation topics. Not that I can think of many to begin with.
Thanks,
Kieran