I've taken a bunch of different things for them in the past and I think I might need to start taking something again. I'm looking for work and I'm having a lot of trouble coping with the anxiety from it. I've noticed my rumination is way up which I've read is a good predictor of depression relapse and my normal coping mechanisms aren't working. I know moclobemide is stimulating but I've seen it's used for social anxiety and I've read that in long-term use it downregulates beta-adrenoceptors. That would help with anxiety, wouldn't it? Has anyone here had experiences with taking it for a mix of depression and anxiety? How did you feel on it anxiety-wise? How was it for your guts, too? I've had major gut issues with psych meds in the past.
If you have any other recs for meds I could get on the NHS that might have better side-effect profiles than what I've tried, please let me know. The stuff I really want to minimise is weight gain, gut issues and tiredness.
If you want to know my history and what other meds and reactions I've had, here is a giant wall of TL;DR to tell you:
I have a history of atypical depression, sleep all the time, eat all the things, and anxiety (no panic attacks). I've had the depression ever since I can remember and I've always been kinda nervous as a kid but I didn't develop full-blown anxiety until my 20s. This is the stuff I've had for it in the past:
Prozac - I was just dumped on this and left to my own devices. It triggered an ED and some really strange behaviour, didn't help my mood at all.
Citalopram - helped my mood in that it made me stop caring about everything but I slept about 16hrs/day and always felt tired/brain foggy and killed all the sex drive I had, caused moderate weight gain
Sertraline - helped me not care like citalopram, and on a 150mg/day the dopamine effects kicked in and I felt a more normal amount of energy and positive mood, but not only killed my sex drive but made sex really painful, caused massive weight gain, and possibly triggered insane and disabling gut issues, which stuck around after discontinuation and still affect me some today.
Mirtazapine/Remeron - made me psychotic and constantly crave sugar when I was awake, but also made me sleep for 20hrs straight/day. Did not stick with this.
Duloxetine - I was on this in 2014-15. It solved my permanent tiredness/brainfog/hypersomnia issues completely. Even since coming off it I've been generally better for energy/clarity than I ever remember being in my life. Gained a little weight and minimal sexual side-effects. But it gave me such trouble going to the toilet it was seriously like giving birth to a brick every day. Still got issues with that but nowhere near as bad.
Prozac again - last half of 2015 I went back on this for 6 months in the hopes it would fix the duloxetine issues without making the sert issues as bad as they were originally (I'd been so ill with it I was paranoid of all SSRIs by then). All it did was give me heartburn that felt like I was John Hurt in the dinnertable scene in Alien and I gained some more weight.
Beta Blockers just a couple of doses to get through my PhD viva and that worked but I had about 6 weeks afterwards where I felt really down, tired and had no motivation. I don't know if it was the beta blockers or stress-hangover, but it's made me reluctant to take them regularly for anxiety while I'm looking for work.
Outside of meds, I run and lift weights, I try to eat as well as I can. I've had all the therapy the NHS is willing to give me and I can't afford to go private so I'm stuck with what drugs my GP and possibly pdoc, if I can get re-referred to the psych service, will prescribe me.
Thanks ever so much anyone making their way through that.