I could tell you my full history of problems that i have but i will try to make tl;dr
Everything started 2 and half years ago:
-had some problems with porn abuse(yeah i was always having high from it like from cocaine)
-i noticed that i experience demotivation toward learning in school(was in final class- studying afterwards etc)
-realized it was a real problem (delta fosb etc look at yourbrainonporn.com), and it was strange to me, having no motivation even though i had always best grades at my class-4,5,6;
-got an idea to stop using porn as my coping mechanism of stress (made it 2 months before final exams)
-started feeling so stressfull that i was detached in school- no feelings, no focus, total depression, crying spells
-came back to my porn watching habbit because i wanted to die so much that i couldnt pass my exams(if i didnt do this i wouldnt pass my exams)
-after passing my exams (yeah i did it somehow) i wanted to try noporn/nofap thing again
-got muscle tension that i couldnt get rid of even with full time meditation
-tried ssri which makes me demotivated - actually oposite effect that i wanted to get through no fap/porn
-stoped ssri- full blown withdrawal - no inner thoughts (depersonalisation)? anxiety without reason, heart palpitation, seizures?(pulsating white light even when i close my eyes from time to time) etc
-muscle tension-rigidity stays with me to this day(sometime its get better, sometimes worse but meditation definitely help where exercise and working do the opposite)
-i have tension in my stomach, heartburn, bowel movements, low libido (
-at this point i even have episodes of numbness in both of my legs (so i cant even rest in my bed when i want to)
-depersonalisation and "seizures?" somehow improved but i still have other problems which i have written
-at this point im not using any drugs/porn even though i have used some through my life
So the question is, is there solution for those symptoms? Is it only anxiety induced by withdrawal and kindling ?Are kappa opioids receptors involved in my condition? Is it curable?(maybe not -kindling etc)
Right now im trying i'm trying sodium butyrate which is HDACi and I have seen studies which says that it decrease amount of deltafosb involved in addiction.
http://www.nature.co...bs/nn.3354.html
Should i try kappa receptor antagonist? Or maybe mianserin which is nri and kappa agonist with great potency?
Edited by xatu01, 11 January 2017 - 12:29 PM.