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[nooguyz]

When I read the symptoms of ADHD, I could relate a lot, however after reading about bipolar, I could relate even more. When I'm focused, I'm focused (although very easily distracted), and when I'm not focused, then I can't do anything at all, I don't even feel like getting up in the morning. When I'm focused though, I don't even want to go to sleep because I just want to keep doing what I was doing.

 

I was wondering what are the differences between these two? My main problem though seems to be motivation and sustained attention. I oftentimes want to do something (whatever interests me or whatever goal I have), but I just can't do it. I can't focus, I can't pay attention to it, I don't even feel like doing it, even though I want to. And when I'm in a different state, I don't even think about it, I just do things and it feels great. Best example of that would be when I was on ADHD meds, a couple pills that I got from someone awhile back, and that was dexmeth, so it shot up my dopamine and inhibited MAO activity. Hell, I even felt pretty damn good the next day because the day before I got a lot done, it was kind of a dopamine kick from reward mechanism, I presume.

 

I'm currently looking at natural supplements since I can't get a prescription, and I'm trying to choose the best ones. Currently just making a list and investigating on the surface, later gonna investigate more in depth (read old posts in this forum, as it seems that it used to be a lot more active a few years back and has tons of great information on some things, like Hupenzia A not being a good choice).

 

Feel free to ask me anything, I'm an open book.

[hydrus]

not sure but if you are bipolar and get stimulants you will become manic and misbehave while an ADHD person will show improved behaviour without mania.

Edited by hydrus, 02 March 2018 - 12:43 PM.

[nooguyz]

not sure but if you are bipolar and get stimulants you will become manic and misbehave while an ADHD person will show improved behaviour without mania.

Hmm. What do you mean by "misbehaving?" Do you mean impulsivity and not thinking about consequences? Could you explain further with some examples?

 

When I had stimulants, I basically felt very productive, focused, clear-headed, my memory was working great, I was able to express myself properly, I was able to reply quickly, instead of either replying something that makes people think I don't have anything to say or I don't want to talk to them, I could make judgements very quickly, I felt like I am in connection with my myself in a way. I was also doing one thing after another, finishing it or even doing something else while I have to wait for something to be done, and everything worked out perfectly in sync rather than me forgetting something (like that I was cooking and something on the stove is about to catch fire, lol), walking slowly and sluggishly or quickly but aimlessly like it happens normally. This level of forgetfulness is not as present normally though, but it's there.

 

I also noticed that when I was talking to people, I was saying things that I wouldn't normally say, and the reason for it was because I felt much more confident and I felt like I can express myself, and my thoughts were coherent, so people didn't think that I said something stupid that I didn't wanna talk to them. I was also more able to pick up on social cues than usual. Like when someone wants to end the conversation. Or maybe I was less "desperate" to have company because I felt good being with myself. I'm not sure which one it was exactly.