As I emphasized, abstinence is painful and sure I can abstain for a whole week but God how painful and counter-productive that is, as I get depressed and can't get those annoying sexual thoughts out of my head, even if I meditate or focus my mind on whatever subject.
It just doesn't make sense to go through hell just to have a sperm build-up that will eventually come out anyway - that's obviously why I want to find a chemical to suppress my libido without destroying my testosterone production or causing suffering.
I actually went ahead and bought aromasin and tried it in the smallest dosages imaginable. I tried a very, very tiny amount and it produced hardly any effect besides a minimal reduction in libido. The next day I tried a very slightly bigger amount and I got the typical menopausal effects that women get, such as a warm sensation in the body as if I am in a sauna, insomnia (ironic, isn't it?) and overslept (but I do like this effect), as well as pain in muscles, especially around the neck, anxiety (and I don't think it's just a placebo) but loss of libido? No, though sexual thoughts are suppressed for a very short while, after which they're still ever so slightly suppressed but masturbation is not a problem.
Lithium orotate is more useful for libido busting than aromasin, that's for sure.
I don't understand why people complain of a destroyed libido on aromatase inhibitors as I got the severer side-effects without a significant reduction in libido. Then there was the mentioned study of dht being able to increase libido in spite reduced estradiol levels - well, I don't think my dht is high, I think it might be very low, even, as I don't feel "calm and collected, " masculine or anything you'd expect from dht, and I certainly don't have a hairy body - quite the opposite.
My "libido" is a fantasy-like one, the same with women. It's not that I have a massive hard-on and just want to penetrate something with the force of a thousand titans. No, I just have sexual fantasies - sort of perversions - and I feel a desire to act on them, even if I can't get a hard-on. If I don't act on them and wait 3 days then I do wake up with hard-ons.
My point here being that my libido is not the masculine sort you'd expect to find in men. Wouldn't this suggest heightened estrogen? Yet, clearly that wouldn't make sense.
Does aromatase play any role other than just converting test. to est.? In other words, if a human was born with no aromatase enzyme in his body, yet his estrogen levels were completely healthy, would that have any effect at all on his health (besides increasing test., etc.)??
Why do I ask this? Well, since aromatase converts test. to est. couldn't I take a high dosage of an aromatase inhibitor while supplementing phytoestrogens, such that my total testosterone goes higher yet I suffer zero effects of low estrogen? That to me sounds completely possible, yet I suspect otherwise.
And why would aromasin give me low-estrogen side-effects when I take it later in the day? Does test. convert to est. 24/7 or what??
Keizo I don't think prolactin is the problem. When I increase prolactin I feel calm and collected, with no libido, but I don't feel socially anxious or fatigued in the sense of how I feel after I masturbate.
What's weird is that when I masturbate I might feel an even stronger desire to do so again, even if my penis hurts, even if I am tired, yada-yada.
How would this make sense if my prolactin was high?--which it probably is.
Pregnenolone helps my masturbation side-effects partially but not wholly.