In high school I abused mdma and prescrip stimulants for like 2 years in pretty hard and have tried to get better for like 3 years since graduating. Now I have these intense cravings for pleasure, caffeine and sugar. I’ve tried dieting, exercising , and I have sleeping problems. I don’t know what to do anymore. . I can’t stick to anything. I can’t hold down a job. I’m unmotivated and can’t feel anything(anhedonia). I crave to binge eat sugar and caffeine till I’m sick but i try not to, and even if i does it just makes me feel shit. What do I need to do? See a psychiatrist, or just get on say like keto and stick to it? I just want to get better.. I feel like it has to do with either brain damage or down regulated serotonin and dopamine receptors. I’m slow and sluggish. I don’t react to anything, and I explode and get upset sometimes because I let things boil up. does anyone know of anything that might help? It’s like I just can’t get satisfied, and have no drive for anything. Is this even from the drug abuse or am I just fucked in the head? I over think things and worry yet feel so numb. I’m terrified of the effect of medication on my body from a psychiatrist. Its hard to make up my mind on decisions and i have a hard time remembering anything. has anyone experienced something similar and been able to recover? i do have low testosterone, but surely it wouldnt cause all of this right?
Edited by Andersen, 06 August 2019 - 11:18 PM.