Hey everyone,
Really appreciate this community !
My story, this is kind of lengthy, I appreciate your help, I am a 33 year old Male.
Long history of generalised anxiety / panic attacks, off and on since I was 17.
I've done a fairly good job of managing my symptoms my entire life, usually my episodes are just an increased heart rate and general feeling of anxiousness.
I've never taken prescription drugs and dealt with my issue 100% mentally.
I've been in and out of the gym with long bouts of dedication followed by short stints of not working out during relationships.
I've taken topical DHEA before just to get some extra motivation while being in the gym.
I've never had depression, I've never had any mental issues other than the anxiety.
I started taking topical DHEA on April 11th ( 27 days ago ) The formula included ( 144 mg DHEA, 72 mg 7,8-Benzoflavone, 72 mg Resveratrol, 36 mg Pregnenolone, 18 mg Chrysin )
Roughly around April 25th ( 13 days ago ) I started feeling odd, it started off with me laying around my apartment, feeling very bored / apathetic, I usually have alot of motivation to clean, re-organize things, occupy myself when I'm feeling bored - but this time was different... I started to re-organise a drawer and I caught myself thinking, what's the point of this, thought about eating, had the same thought, thought about going out, had the same feeling.... this is where it progressively morphed into DP.
I attributed these feelings to the DHEA and stopped completely on April 28th.
As the weekend went on, I forced myself to do things, go out with friends etc. still had a general "depressed" feeling, or that's what I imagine depression to feel like.
During the week I started to feel odd, looking in the mirror felt weird, I facetime'd with my Mom she looked unfamiliar, reflecting on memories, they are there, but its as if I'm watching them while looking into a mirror, I generally do not feel like myself.
From comparing my case to others on the internet posting about DP, I have come to the conclusion my scenario is slightly different...If I focus on living in the present, and constantly ignore the DP thoughts and sensations I can function fine, it's as if I'm me... My long term memory is fine, my short term memory is fine, I can remember what I did yesterday, conversations that I had. I have a fairly technical job, my skills are still there, I am still funny, can laugh, hold good conversation - but - alas, I don't feel like me, if I started to fixate on the DP feelings it spirals out of control very quickly and I start to panic.
Currently I'm just trying to live day to day with ignoring the thoughts...the feelings of depression have lifted, I have an appetite, I want to live, I feel emotion.
My question to the community is this :
Is it possible DHEA has done this to me? Where do I start my remediation? I don't want to go straight to a psychiatrist and start on drugs.
I've been taking : L-theanine, Rhodiola, Zinc, B-Complex, Magnesium - I think it may help a small amount.
I appreciate your insight and am indebted to anyone that can help.
Edited by newdp, 08 May 2018 - 01:42 PM.
