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Semen Rention(SR) Benefits- Sexual Transmutation

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#31 DrewMichael21

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Posted 18 April 2019 - 11:18 PM

04-18-2019 81/90 

 

 

1. To whomever, is still interested in the art of sexual-transmutation(ST), I reccomend you follow these rules with a puristic fashion or intention. Otherwise, you will find yourself sorely disappointed. So, again I'm about to accomplish 90 days with ease and with medication it's been stupid easy being able to integrate semen retention as a way of life, whereas before I'd given to my impulsivity. As my new way of being, I've never really been this far into the game right now. As you might say,  In other news, Have I been transmuting my energy, that is ultimately Why I made this thread to begin with. The answer, seems to be a no. I haven't been detecting any net expenditure or net gain of energy by which that should improve my energy levels, relative to what was before? I don't know, maybe I've gotten normal to it, but apparently most of the so-called insane benefits happen after 90 days so, I'll probably do a whole year and see if I ascend to godhood. I doubt, that will happen or otherwise I'm simply in a flat-line. I'll probably have a GF long before then tbh.  So what else, do I have for you? Has it improved my thought process? Absolutely not, I'm still as neurotic as I ever was. Infact, my mind can still go into spins. I definietly notice that I have significantly more confidence to the point that it's almost overbearing at times.  Initially, speaking  the medication is annoying because it seems to be repelling attraction of women, so that's pretty irritating tbh. RITALIN=Girl repellant Lol.  Besides, that tangent, I still  implore those who seek the path to trust the process. Do Not look for the outcome and Do not look for the result. Trust, that as you master your own being and the being within you clears up that you begin to see the more holistically. I'm not going to lie and tell you that this is super fun. Being stuck in Moscow, Idaho with 25000 people in an apartment away from campus where it's perpetually cold with lack of female contact for hours on end, is NOT fun.  Not going to lie, you will start to go crazy especially sense, I've started practicing NOSURF AND SR. With these 2 together, your motivation will skyrocket or you will go crazy. Again, if your looking to do this because your expecting an x outcome for y gain. Go elsewhere, don't waste your time. Semen retention isn't for you. 

2.   Semen-retention within it's purest effects, is the path of enlightenment. It's the path of self-control and it can be MADE into a keystone habit by which you build the rest of your habits off. Recognize, that your libido is not you. Recognize, that your LIFE-FORCE is more valuable than anything else in the world. This is what helped me the most get past the barrier in my mind. My life-force is my being and to do anything againist that, is effective disrespect and IMMASCULATION of yourself. When YOU masterbate your basically defiling yourself.  No, ands, if's nor buts about it. Sometimes, your mind might play tricks on you and say MAYBE one more time, or say wow I'd do X,Y,Z. Those thoughts are arising from your subconcious. They are not your real thoughts and they are meant to SABATOGE you because your brain wants to be back the way it was. Rewiring your own brain and changing yourself requires effort and your brain is really fucking lazy. Accept this now. From all the ancedotes, I've seen and had most of the benefits are probably PLACEBO. 

3. The benefits of SR are probably placebo from what I can tell. Most of the nonsense, those SR nerds have talked about, I haven't seen anything that really indicated something substantially changed within me. Thus, does Sexual-transmutation as a process even exist? Yes & No depending upon  your view of excess expenditure of energy. Typically, when I get horny, I do alot of exercize with my medication and then I do alot of productive activities. This would be the purest x ====>y  example of transmutation. If your horny  go do X to achieve Y. However, their has been NO increase in baseline energy or focus within those other respects. Thus, from my inconclusive ancedotal data, transmutation probably only occurs when your horny or when you have the need to fuck.  Otherwise, I've only noticed a big increase in confidence and more natural relationships OFF medication. That is all I have for you. 

 

                         3A. If the reader has any questions: Feel Free to Ask.

 

 

                               /TLDR GOAL 81/90 ACCOMPLISHED VERY SOON TRUST THE PROCESS, CONTINUE ONWARDS, DISCIPLINE, ST exists only in bursts, Placebo, inconclusive etc.


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Posted 28 April 2019 - 08:48 PM

91/90 Days: 

 

                                   1. To whomever still is reading this thread and is a practitioner of the semen retention life-style,  I shall report to you, that I've successfully did it with no major slips or  nocturnal emission and I've successfully retained my life-force. Yet I asked the original question long ago of whether, I was successfully transmuting my energy? Was I doing so? Well judging based off my new numbers and information or feedback I've received from my grades it seems that medication have slightly worsened my writing abilities when I went over it, my writing was atrocious and I was surprised that I turned it such dogshit writing. So, next has SR given me these so-called amazing powers or abilities of perception within the respective forms, of focus, continuity, ability to plan for the future or any of the above? Nope, hasn't happened and my ability to be consistent is still largely inconsistent although I've made great strides in finally wake up at 6 am. I'm in the process of transitioning this to  a permanent 5 am wake up time, once I finish this semester so that I can  experiment more until I find the optimal level of performance that allows me to achieve my goals unhampered.  As the semester comes to a close, I'm still very proud of the fact that I've been able to get this far and I've surpassed all of my previous goals. Am I cured of the hardcore pornographic materials and what they've done to my mind? Absolutely not, I still get occassional cravings but deep down I simply won't give up my life-force or my internal being to simply waste it on degeneracy. If you really search within yourself, you immasculate and defile yourself on a perpetual basis towards immorality, so I implore you to look within yourself and realize this. Sure, I don't really have anything to really show you but a need found discipline and stronger resolve than ever before to reach 1 year of pure semen retention. I'm more determined than ever before to transcend and finally become the man I was SUPPOSED to be, had my life not been robbed by the ADD and PMO.  I've been able to read more consistently and I've been enjoying the work of Hayek and his Constitution of liberty. So other than this ancedote, have I BEEN TRANSMUTING my energy? The answer appears to be NO, but most of the evidence underlying so far, made claims that most of the real benefits kick in after this point. So I will patiently wait for those so-called benefits.

 

2. What has improved? Probably nothing, I talk to maybe 1 girl regularly if I'm lucky but this is probably just the condition of moscow, idaho. I really don't give a fuck anymore. Have I been able to exercize like a machine? Nope. Have I gained more charisma? Nope. Has my confidence increase? Yes, this is unequivocal. Has my ability to make friends improved? Again, my evidence is circumstantial at best because of the place that I'm at and the such limited population I have access to.  So I believe that the evidence and ancedotes of semen retention is probably placebo but I will report again in the future on the so-called superpowers that have been repeatedly mentioned by SR Nerds and practitioners of the kundalini.   At 22, I'm still surprised where I find myself and I never envisioned nor predicted any of my failures or outcomes that would occur despite my best efforts in seeking to be successful. At the same time, SR's own benefit is it's own reward. I'm much happier and content with myself. I've made peace with myself and I don't feel defiled anymore. I don't believe my brain is quite yet rewired yet  to NOT  waste your life force. What helped get over this urge, is understanding that I don't NEED it and I can manage my URGES in other ways like having a productive goal. Next, PMO is simply disgusting and most people know this.  If your still in the whole of addiction JUST STOP, you will thank yourself later. Your urges and suffering will only get worse.  Just let go and move on.  Remember, that your semen is literally a life-force that should not be expelled so trivially. It's not some trivial action where you pleasure yourself for your own end. The problem is that you defile your and immasculate your own body for relief you build up unnatural relationships with both women and you become perpetually  incapable of only finding pleasure within yourself.  One real benefit is my relationships ARE WAY more satisfying with the women i do talk to. You will enjoy this way fucking more than watching immoral sluts.  Above all, just quit being a fucking beta male and man the fuck up.  If you really want to change your life then QUIT RUNNING from your PROBLEMS and LEARN to control. Stop being a fucking slave and master thyself. 

3.  Semen-Retention is a part of becoming a man. I realize yesterday, that I'm simply not a man as much as I thought I was. I went off and was bored as usual and defaulted to my fucking phone again to entertain myself because I couldn't find any other way to COPE with the boredom.  It's the same reoccurring theme that I've found throughout my life as I've gone out on my own. I started watching DBZ and ANIME so that I could ESCAPE from my problems for a moment like a bitch. Realize, that their is NO escaping from your responsibilities. It's like being a pussy when you run away.  I realize in that MOMENT, that their are FRAGMENTS or LIFE ADAPTIONS that you and I have internalized that make us ADOLESCENT BOYS at HEART. Men do not run from their fucking problems. They man the fuck up and take responsibility and do what their supposed to do whether they want to or not. So I proceeded to turn it OFF and slept around 930, sense I couldn't really find anything else productive for myself to OCCUPY my time. What SEMEN-RETENTION is teaching you is TO CONTROL YOURSELF and DELAY your gratification. Their appears to be no immediate reward for your average sheep who is to much of a slave to his perpetual gratification. Semen retention WILL inform you if you are still a boy.  With your increased awareness you will NOTICE, adaptions and tendencies around you and things that you do, that inform you about your mental age. For me,my habits are chronic-overthinking probably a byproduct of ADHD but not an excuse, not taking preventitive measures towards potential problems, NOT TAKING ENOUGH RISKS, constantly DEFAULTING TO MYPHONE when I GET BORED, this is the same fucking thing i WOULD do when I didn't know how to MANAGE and BE in control of my sexual DRIVE. I'm LITERALLY in the process of REPROGRAMMING my whole mind SR is only the start of a much longer process. Unlearning bad spending habits, learning to stop taking everything as an assault on my character, managing my responsibilites LIKE I'M SUPPOSED TO. The remnants of your childhood, may often manifest in old interests,  STOP now. This part of you wishes to be a BOY because being an ADULT and being truly RESPONSIBLE is hard fucking work. No Ands, if's nor buts about it. Accept the process of responsibility as you accept the process of pain. This the process of your agency and this is the process and patience of waiting. If you IGNORE the process, of becoming a man you WILL FIND yourself at a much older age but still be mentally inferior in years to your neurotypical counterpart. This is, the process of acceptance. Accept, that you are no longer 18. You are NO longer what you once were. For this process and part of you to go you adopt the total proces.

 

                                    Conclusion: Semen retention is a lifestyle and it's really only the start of a longer process  by which a man becomes aware and is REDPILLED. Towards a greater awakening. As for the process, of sexual transmutation I will continue to see if their are any other purported benefits or so-called super-powers but I remain skeptical of such occurences.  Just remember, SR isn't going to make you this amazing being and it's not going to make you become a millionaire it's merely a keystone habit that builds upon other habits.  Build up and continue especially if your a neurotypical, you have even a greater advantage and can DO WHAT YOU KNOW. Semen retention is about the process and not the product. It's about becoming of being rather than seeking the instant result. Don't conflate the two and don't anger. Remain stoic and Calm.  Your goals will come you just have to keep grinding towards the stone. That is all I have for you. 90/180

 

                                          /TLDR GOAL ACHIEVED, Process And Product, Don't falter because of the outcome, BELIEVE YOU CAN, Take responsibility for yourself etc.


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Posted 07 May 2019 - 09:28 PM

100/100   

 

                             1. So before I do homework I will procrastinate slightly about this and elaborate further on some more general principles that have less to do with the concepts of sexual transmutation but are probably still useful for self-actualizing. So obviously, I've hit 100 days and I still have bad latent tendencies, so I suspect that the healing will take about a year or longer before my brain truly rewires itself from literally years and years of wasting my life force on hardcore pornographic materials. So there's that process I've been working on but I'm going to make this brief and a little less about me. The more I continue on this journey towards pure semen retention I've started to notice more and more symptoms of greater dsyfunctions that you need to be aware off lest, you fall back into those disgusting habits of wasting your life-force. Remember your LIFEFORCE is incredibly value do not fucking waste it or defile yourself. This is what has helped me most.

 

                               2. Have an affirmation statement: Have one solid belief or reason to why your doing what your doing for me, it's  about no wasting my life-force when In can actively be working towards a goal or outcome and actually be talking to hot girls anyways..So FIND YOUR WHY, whatever it is that will push you forward. I use this for even when I get up early and before this I would FAIL no matter what I would do. I didn't have a good ENOUGH WHY, I'm getting up at X time to do Y thing because I don't want to be a loser. Then I ask am I fucking loser? I say fuck this I'm not and throw my sorry ass up so that I can dominate the day and we do this again. So find that WHY and this will propel you forward.

 

                             3.  Watch out for Sluts: Now if you don't the term slut  then  IDGAF, but you will start to have more and more slutty behavior from some chicks and they will throw themselves AT YOU.  Don't be tempted it's a waste of your time. Date quality not quantity.  More girls may dress slutty to tempt you but do not give them your fucking attention.  Don't look, don't gaze or nothing. Just go about your business and handle your RESPONSIBILITY like a mufasa.  This is really just a test to see if your in control. If you give in I gurantee you will feel empty... Sure it looks nice but in the end your life-force is more important than any one night stand. Remember this and don't degrade yourself. 

                            4.  Stop Giving a Fuck Period: Learn to not give a fuck about anyone or what anybody thinks. Say IDGAF out-loud and keep it up. This will FREE you from your own slavery of self-imposed caring of what other people think. You want to be fucking wealthy? Then do it. You want to X then who cares what anyone thinks. It only MATTERS what you THINK.  This is called confidence and it's liquid gold.

                            5. Stop being a Beta-male: This is starting to get really PUA type philosophy and I don't really believe most of the bullshit but it's important to stop being  a pussy. Retaining your semen is supposed to ALLOW you to get in touch with your inner manhood. I've seen so many disgusting beta-males at my university asking for permission, to scared to speak their mind, inhibited by petty expectations, constantly making excuses, I still make excuses so I'm not perfect either. Just QUIT being NICE, QUIT  asking for permission. If your a young man in your 20's you need to be RUTHLESS absolutely positively DOMINATING and overdomineering.. There seems to be these trends of where we need to all work towards collaboration.. That's nice and all but you NEED to COMPETE. This is a competition, we as men were DESIGNED to compete..If you WANT x then DO y. Stop being a pussy.

                            6.  Take some responsibility: You are responsible for why your life is shit.. No one else is responsible for it. No one else can save you but you.. No one saved me from my addictions but MYSELF. I wanted to stopped and after many FAILURES I did. Man the fuck up and take responsibility like the mantle and own up to your fuck up.  Responsibility is the first part of BECOMING  a man. When I said I was sick of the way my life I got HELP and got medicated for ADD then started working out and toke my life more seriously.. DO what you have to do. 

                            7. Your going to fail: There's no way around this, I've FAILED so many many many times, It's not even funny really. Just accept this right now...Your going to fail and sure it stings but  a real man can fucking take it instead of cowering like a pussy.

                            8.  Accept your reality as it is: Stop complaining and whining, just accept your reality like it fucking is and do what you have to DO to get it done. Do I like programming? No I don't really give a fuck about it. Yet, I need money if I am to start my career in politics or finance. Use your short-term position to build towards your long term outcome.

 

                            9. Plan for the future: Stop impulsively spending, Save up those paychecks and start saving up for a down payment on a house: Do you really want to be 35 and STILL LIVE in an APARTMENT while Chad is fucking your girl in his HOUSE? Fuck that shit, say no to the dorrito's and suck it up with celery.

                          10. You can be ALPHA CHAD TO: Sure, I don't agree with most of the bullshit that PUA community and semen retention community talk about but this is a general life principle, there are NO limits except the limits you place on yourself. You want to be shredded as fuck then get some fucking weights? You want to be smooth with the ladies? Then talk to 1000 ladies... It doesn't fucking matter.. Just do it. Now you might say this sounds shallow and your probably right but the shallow people get what they want? Do you want to get what you want? I know I do...

                         11. Don't BE YOURSELF: This is a fucking TRAP IDGAF what you say..but if I'm gonna be myself then I should just continue playing league of legends and wasting my lifeforce and being on my phone 15 hours a day and being a victim because that's me being myself. Right? Bullshit, your goal is TO NOT be YOURSELF it's to  BECOME YOURSELF. You are FORGING your IDENTITY of what you WANT TO BE . There is no such thing as being yourself that's bullshit.  Find the person you want to be and start doing those things. The people who say just be yourself are often medicore losers. Fuck them. 

 

                        12. TAKE RISKS: I'm still working on this myself but take some fucken risks... I asked a x chick out and I got friendzoned. Oh well. Take life by the horns and be willing to die to get what you want. Stop being a pussy. You see a fine girl then TALK TO HER... It's not that hard... You want ton get a promotion then set up a meeting with your boss and SHOW HIM why...you deserve a promotion..Real men take risks, Beta-males stay in the comfort zones.  Ask yourself, Do I want to be a beta-male? The next time your afraid to take risk...

 

                        13. SAY WHATS ON YOUR MIND: This is pretty easy for me because of my ADD. Just say whats on your fucken mind and quit being a girl..

                        14. Don't be nice: Seriously, being nice is weird because your putting an expectation upon other people because your hiding your true intentions.. It's just fucking weird. Period.     Be Aggressive, Be dominating, Be Ruthless, Be cold-blooded. It's a dog EAT DOG WORLD. Eat or be Eaten

 

                       15. Be Sexual: This is a bit different but I've gotten progressively more comfortable with my sexuality....It's ok to talk openly to a girl you think is attractive.. It doesn't mean anything. It' doesn't make you weird it makes YOU NORMAL. Hiding your sexual urges is what makes you weird...

 

               BONUS 16. YOUR MISSION COMES FIRST: Find your mission, Become SINGLE-MINDED, SINGLE-MINDED is manly. Be laserfocused in what you want and you will get what you fucking want. 

 

                              /TLDR Supplemental suggestions to add along with SR+ST

 


Edited by DrewMichael21, 07 May 2019 - 09:30 PM.

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Posted 15 May 2019 - 02:40 AM

05-14-2019:

 

.   107/180

                           1. A minor report: So this a little bit of  RANT oh and by the way your fucking welcome for writing thread..I had to figure all of this out on my OWN. Ignore my fucking assholeness I'm very salty about my B I got in philosophy,.. further killing my dreams for stanford university in the process. Just a heads UP of what to expect with SEMEN RETENTION, even if this is redundant I don't give a fuck.  So first, things as you go further in the semen retention life do not expect it to fix all your problems, it simply isn't going to. I haven't changed much and I have much more work to do. I proceeded to yell in range and then I broke my chair in the process and almost punshed a hole through the door.. Concerta is really fun. If you have ADD do not take a high dose. Anyways, I still attribute my semen retention success to ritalin because it's allowed me to push beyond my own petty instant-gratifications. One thing, I'm increasingly realized is you literally need to NOT give a fuck about anyone or anything.  This includes girls.. I've literally had thoughts about manipulating and using girls and toss them away like trash. My mind is very very utilitarian and consequentialist in nature. When you are on semen retention YOU WANT TO GET WHAT YOU WANT. Don't blend in with the stupid ass sheep.  They might tell you dumb shit like just be happy with what you have or why do you work so hard? Fuck those motherfuckers.. Everyone last one of them. Remember if you've COME THIS FAR in the journey THEN YOUR MISSION Is all that matters. NOTHING else matters, not even your friends nor family. They don't fucking matter. Just remember if you don't GET What you want your WASTING your time. I really mean this..No more being a beta-male. No more being a dependent pussy who makes excuses... I also had a thought of killing myself earlier today. This is the type of ruthlessNESS that you NEED but you need to CHANNEL that motherfucker into the world around you.   Don't accept anything LESS THAN YOUR GOAL. You know what my psychiatrist told me? You accomplished something... THis is fucking joke. This is like SAYING that I wasted my fucking life force for 15 years because I couldn't actually date a girl. Fuck this shit. 

 

                     2. So now that, I've ranted a bit , I'm sure that all of those people who HAVE actually read this ARE TIRED OF BEING LOSERS? Aren't you tired of being a loser? I know I sure am? Are you tired of your bank account being empty? Are you tired of dealing with stupid sheep who you WOULD be CRUSHING but your not and you don't KNOW WHY? Aren't you tired of this shit and you CONSTANTLY MAKING excuses FOR YOUR FUCK UPS. It was your fault you got addicted because you ran away from your problems. Because you refused to ACKNOWLEDGE your own inadequacy. You refused to acknowledged your own failure. I'm reporting to you that I have FAILED. I am Not perfect but I don't take responsibility for everything. This is what semen retention TEACHES YOU. If you WANT TO BE A MAN, then you have to take RESPONSIBILITY for whereever you are in life. There is no fucking substitute for this. You have no excuse for why your watching hardcore pornographic materials, you HAVE NONE other than your running from your problems. Your sick and tired of your piece of shit life so you would rather defile and IMMASCULATE yourself like a pussy than face the reality.  To ACCEPT Less because your let little stupid SHEEP tell you otherwise.  You know, i've been there and still am there.. How can a LOSER before more successful than YOU? Your working your ass into the FLOOR and your NOT GETTING WHAT YOU FUCKING want. This makes sense to me...This seems logical. You want X to achieve Y. You admitted your a drug addict porn fapping immoral motherfucker who defiles himself. In a nutshell, if your wasting your LIFE-FORCE your very being on the activity off Wasting your life on hardcore immortality your ARE admitting that you are INCAPABLE of doing your only purpose. Procreating. That is literally why you exist. Your purpose is to SPREAD your seed and NOTHING else. Those video games you think are important are NOT. Those friends you think are important are NOT. Neither is your family either. 

                  3. In extension of my long rant, I'd like to ADD their is no substitute to admitting your failure. There is no subtitute to no taking risk. There is nothing but the suffering that encompasses your being and your agony that you feel. Semen retention can be agonizing at times... It's the process of BECOMING who you want to be that matters... NOT WHO PEOPLE TELL YOU TO BE. You are NOT yourself. DO NOT be YOURSELF, BE WHO YOU WISH YOU WERE.  If I should be myself then I should be a lazy piece of shit who plays games and wastes his life force and who forgets shit so I can just live off my parents at 35 and I should BE MYSELF. This is fucking stupid. Don't fall for this medicore sheep reasoning..Why do you think psychopaths GET WHAT THEY WANT. Your NOT GETTING what you want.. Honestly girls aren't complicated their just as insecure and emotionally violatile self-interested machiavlian sluts like  everyone else. Is that really what you want to worship? You know what their fucking waiting for? There NOT waiting for you to be a pussy. There NOT waiting for you to be MAKE excuses. They are waiting for a MAN to SEIZE the MOMENT and DIE for what he believes in...They don't want a little child that's incapable of EXPRESSING THEMSELVES sexually... It's not complicated infact it's the MOST NATURAL thing that has ever existed. That's what SEMEN RETENTION teaches you. TO FAIL AND FAIL some more over and over. TO admit that you did your best and then suffer some-more. There is nothing MORE MANLY than a person who fights for his beliefs against ALL ODDS against all the naysayers. Deep down it doesn't fucking matter.. IF YOU HAVE NO ENEMIES then YOUR DOING IT WRONG. You NEED enemies so that they can make you better. You NEED HATERS. You NEED to be rejected.. You NEED Thousands of women to REJECT YOU. The purpose of SR is simply the process of BECOMING a man and transmuting.  

 

       4. You are torturing yourself and EMBRACING the AGONY for the greater prize. The prize by which you become your most prized self. The self that truly doesn't give a fuck. If you think about it, there is NOTHING more scary then YOUNG MEN that realized your being fucked in the ass. That realize their WILLING TO DO things and HOLD people accountable... This is the essence of the masculine energy is to COMPETE. You see that bad boy chad and your complaining why HE GETS what he WANTS and YOU DONT? Because he doesn't give a fuck truly and utterly doesn't give a shit. You know what else? Why don't you challenge that motherfucker and COMPETE. Are you too scared to because your AFRAID TO FAIL? Then you will never BECOME the human you want to be...If you really have followed my long diatribe to it's end, Ask yourself deep down? Why is the world so fucked? Why is everything the way it is? Because their are tons of little BOYS who have NOT been fighting the fucking status quo and disrupting the NATURAL order like we are SUPPOSED TO. We have been pacified and placated by pleasure of the flesh and circus of entertainment. You honestly think they want someone Who doesn't give a fuck? Who is willing to get into CONFLICT who is willing to argue to get what they want? No because that would be dangerous and you couldn't be controlled? You know what CAN BE CONTROLLED. SHEEP CAN BE HERDED...Where ever you find yourself just know that it is better to have FAILED spectacularly than to have been a beta-male in his bubble. SEMEN retention and transmutation is our process to free ourselves and gives us the CHANCE to SEE that We are NOT ENOUGH. I am NOT enough.. I have WORK to DO.... Things to ACCOMPLISH. Places to GO. You have ONLY one Life. There is no remake, there is no REDO, this is it. There is nothing else once your dead. You see that CINDY chick ASK her because thats your ONLY chance. There is no other time and there is no other excuse. You fail and then LEARN.  It's BETTER to have HATERS than be a nobody. It's better to have DIED ONCE AS A HERO then have died a thousand times a coward..  You want to know why those beta males bitches are so insecure because you HAVE COURAGE. To DO What is right when no one gives a fuck. Even if what you are doing is impossible it's better to have FOUGHT with struggle than to have given up like a pussy. The impossibility of the task does not matter but only your willingness to OVERCOME. To whomever who read this RANT, This monk literally burned himself ALIVE , he did not give a fuck he was willing to die by his principle. He has NO FEARS Not a single thing. Nothing except his own internal agency.. Whether it was smart is another issue BUT it is the principle that you and I must LIVE by ONLY DEATH STOPS YOU. Nothing else not one thing. This is the principle of success and glory is your agency in seizing the motherfucking moment. This dude is a LION. You get up at 5 am not because you want to you do it because this is your ONLY life. Semen retention is not about happiness. That's one of the great lies propagated by the sheepie masses.. If you really think about it, Why are these neurotypicals INCAPABLE of achieving their potential? They have everything NECESSARY and I do NOT. This is what makes them your prey and why you must be ruthless.. It's ok because the neurotypicals said defiling yourself is perfectly natural along with a occassional dose of hardcore pornography. I let you decide.. If you read this far then you are like me. Your sick of being a loser? Aren't you sick of degenerates being more successful than YOU? Doesn't that bother you?  You SHOULD compare yourself to others because that is your competition. Thats another lie propagated as well.  So if your sick of being a loser then embrace SR. Goodluck.

 

 

 WATCH this VIDEO: https://www.youtube....pctr=1557890443 Beast Lion MONK DIES He doesn't give a fuck AT ALL

 

 

           /TLDR Long Rant/ ARE YOU TIRED OF BEING A LOSER? MOVE BEYOND WOMEN? FIND YOUR SINGULAR PURPOSE?


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Posted 18 May 2019 - 10:21 AM

Porn is obviously awful. I was a long term no fapper/semen retainer until I got married. I was a little worried that I might lose my no fappers edge because I come with my wife a lot and i'm thankful to report that hasn't been a problem. Having sex with a real woman does raise your testosterone which energizes you. 

 

 


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Posted 20 May 2019 - 03:06 AM

Porn is obviously awful. I was a long term no fapper/semen retainer until I got married. I was a little worried that I might lose my no fappers edge because I come with my wife a lot and i'm thankful to report that hasn't been a problem. Having sex with a real woman does raise your testosterone which energizes you. 

 

 

 

1. I'd appreciate it if you removed, that repulsive thumbnail or what I call weaponized imagery from my thread. You can just link it.  I've no idea what your talking about with the derogatory term "fap" you mean masturbate?  So, no it doesn't this is the whole point of semen-retention it's a whole new dichotomy of thought beyond the limited gratification of merely having sex for sex's purpose.  I recommend you read some of my posts, so you can learn why masturbating and having perpetual sex too much can actually be a bad thing. It actually emasculates you and robs you of your sexual energy. Also, I really need you to remove that thumbnail. It's disgusting. An alpha-male does not give a fuck about sex, he cares about greater things beyond that. That is all. Goodluck.


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#37 jroseland

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Posted 20 May 2019 - 05:51 AM

1. I'd appreciate it if you removed, that repulsive thumbnail or what I call weaponized imagery from my thread. You can just link it. 

What are you talking about? I just linked to a (rather tame) Youtube video about tantric sex. I don't know what you're seeing that is "repulsive".

 

As a general rule of thumb, when something offends you that's about you. If something offends you don't look at it. 


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#38 DrewMichael21

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Posted 27 May 2019 - 04:58 PM

120/130:

 

                  1.  So, it's approximately  day 120 and I've still yet to notice any of the so-called superpowers per se. Rather, when I'm off medication opportunities and job positions come to me fairly easily to say the least. At the same time, this is supposed to be the period in which their is a higher propensity for greater luck, strength increases and all these other delusional claims that have zero evidence to back up from SR nerds. In other news, have I been transmuting my energy? My baseline energy feels roughly the same, I did lots of yardwork yesterday and it was still as effortful as it ever was. Interestingly enough,  tons of woman are the ones assisting me with making me money and what not which is fairly strange. I'm not really all that surprised by it. Also, Let's be very clear, my view of women has changed DRASTICALLY.. so much so, that I'm not going to say it here. The point is, their has been a perspective change in my mind. Has this led to greater results? Am I more better off? I feel roughly the same with a bit more of IDGAF type attitude sense, I've been following the red-pill philosophy of rollo massi which seems utterly alien to the art of protecting your life-force. So I may be tangental but it remains clear, that SR does something to you. It doesn't appear to increase your energy expenditure per se. Rather, it increases your baseline potentiality and views of the world. This could simply be ADHD. 

                            

                2.  What have I done? I'm currently in the process of actively learning programming, so that I can support myself, as I view it's the next step towards BECOMING a man. My goal along my other insane goals, is to amass money to do what I want. I'm starting to wake up earlier, take reading everyday more seriously and just up my game more. My dancing abilities sense I've STUCK with what I've been doing. Has improved tremendously and my physique continues to improve more and more. It's an ever growing compounding effect and semen retention is just sugar on top. The Bad, is I'm  VERY MUCH in debt, so I'm still in the process of paying this off.  Above all, My perspective has  SHIFTED hugely, I literally do not give a two fucks and it's liberating. In fact my goal next year among the other goals, I will never finish to to talk to 100 chicks consecutively next. Finally, SR seems to increase  the  TOLERANCE FOR RISK, I'm perfectly comfortable taking more risks than I would normally take.  So their seems to be some benefit to this as well...

            3. What SR  HASN'T done:  I still feel incredibly ungrounded and still too much into my head. I've been forcing myself to interact with the world around me and to CUTT DOWN on ideas, as much as I can so that I become more manly so to speak. If you want more bro-stuff, my beard has gotten much thicker and I have way more chest hair but this is for those who like bro-science. Finally, for those who are doing this to NOT preserve your life-force, SR makes you more dominate. You legit will have a more dominating personality but I had that to begin with. Girls love it... It's not even funny... Now, I don't advocate domination,  at least for beta-male novices anyways because it will be fake. Simply put from my observations, they LOVE TO BE dominated...I've done things I never thought I'd do even 5 months ago...So, maybe it's placebo but above all transmute your life-force towards attaining competency. Men are meant to DO THINGS and make things, so transmute it like I am In programming and go from there. P.S If you think, I'm BSING on the domination part, I'm really NOT, they love it...not advocating to be a total asshole but they just eat this shit up, tell them TO STFU and they comeback for more...

 

                   /TLDR NOT MUCH NEW, 150/365 DAYS TO GO/ What's Next? Perspective change? More testoserone? What else is there?


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#39 DrewMichael21

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Posted 01 June 2019 - 09:14 PM

125/130: 

                             06/1/2019:

 

                                        1. I will be commenting on a slight observation as it seems increasingly likely that Moscow, Idaho may be simply coming to an end as I need to re-evaluate what's going on and accordingly. Concerta is giving increasingly diminishing returns for what should be a 4.0 but that's not the issue right here right now.   Anyways, I will share a few more observations of the continuing occurrences, as we continually observe what the outcomes of SEMEN RETENTION are. I will be clear with you, that medication most likely does not work with semen retention as my quiz and test-scores are probably slightly worse. So if you have ADD and stimulants be aware of this. ISSUE: I've been having urethra leakage for months now, I literally am leaking huge quantities of urine from a weak bladder apparently which I did not have before. This is probably something you will experience and is probably damage to the urethra mechanism from so many ejaculations. To be clear I did not have this issue before and I'm not sure what is causing it. It's keen to be aware of this or you will ruin your boxers.  Anyways, this is a minor side-effect of semen retention. It's strange I credit my stimulant use to largely being able to abstain from PMO otherwise my records were in the 20 day to 30 day mark. So be aware, of a weakened and leaky urethra as this is real damage to the urethra expulsion system. It's improved moderately but not really. That is all.


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Posted 09 June 2019 - 07:32 PM

06-9-2019: 133/130

                   1. I've easily hit my goal once again and concerta doesn't seem to be doing very much at this rate. The only other solution, is to raise my dose again to 54 or go on ritalin and burst my periods of productivity by going perpetually on and off. This seems to be the only solution to that. In case, you have seen I've been increasingly garnering more and more haters and I'm personally  enjoying it..Anyways, Let's get down to business, Shall we? Have I been transmuting my energy? I would this as a resounding No, as of right now. I do not have the correct capacities that would allow me to develop myself accordingly. My abilities seem roughly proportional and their has been no so-called super-powers. I have not developed any so-called discipline. I will consider meditation as my last last option to manage my ADHD and my mind still has not quite rewired itself just yet... I have looked at very very tame pics of some chicks but these were mostly on accident.  My point is simple, avoid instagram and infact, I'm simply considering uninstalling it at some point and just going off all social media together sense, it's just another addiction in a long line of other addictions that I continually develop. Primarily have I been spectacularly successful? The answer, is a resounding no...It could be that the meds may be messing with my transmutation but it feels as if I credit it for allowing to get as far as I have. I probably would have quit by now anyways, without the meds so I would probably not give credence to this. I suspect much of my hate has been because they are JEALOUS of my ability to do what these losers have failed to do. That is face your demons in the fucking eye like a man and acknowledge your imperfections and work on them. 

 

                      2. I must say I'm somewhat dissappointed and I'm not exactly in the best situation once again.. Haha no surprise here. I owe 3200 on my lease and I will probably be getting kicked out pretty soon.  I must say this was unexpected but it was my fault for getting a roomate who could pay his bills and he had ADHD what a surprise... I must say, I'm considering radical changes towards my orientation on what I need to do to be successful. This bruteforce method just isn't working... Let's face the facts here despite working my ass off and committing to the SEMEN-retention lifestyle I still do not feel like a man. I do not feel I self-actualized...It's a strange but exciting time to be in where I don't know what to do. I don't have any answers my friends. I truly do not know and if you reach this point in your semen retention life or life in general it's actual pretty fun... I may just learn to live with my ADHD and all of my fuck ups and see if I can MAINTAIN my habits this is probably unlikely I will maintain in the long term as, ADHD has proven itself to me time and time again.. Sometimes, working harder and throwing money doesn't fix the problem and more tricks and more research isn't going to fix it. This is where I have arrived after years of meds and study of ADHD. I will continue to study this Disorder and inform others of what is responsible for destroying every aspect of their lives and your life. I'm half through my schooling and my so-called friends have forsaken me and I gotta say it feels pretty good to be honest..

 

                    3.  The point is simple "friends", you are temporary and I am temporary. I am not perfect and neither are you. As much as I would love to stomp the fuck out of all these neuromonkeys and haters I simply do not know. You do not have those capacities to other beings around you. The life of semen retention teaches us that the haters aka life-force wasters will hate your guts and chronically show weaponized imagery to get you hooked. Don't lose the path of life-force. For life-force is your only indomitable truth in the confusing times. Is my life as great as Alexander the great? NOPE. Is it a Theodore Roosevelt? NOPE NOPE.  If you reach this part of your story, you get to see all the fun things of life. I get to dance at a random club and soul would never know me. I can speak on any topic I please and do whatever I want without leaving a whisper to my name. I remember listening this podcaster John Sonomez and he stated it correctly, the way of the man or the way of the leader was a long process of rejection, isolation. If you have discovered this thread and heed my words, congratulations you are not a sheep. Yet, you will not experience the conventional success of a neurotypical, you will never understand  them. Don't waste your time. Deep down I've accepted this as I accepted the semen retention life. Do not go home go to where your story lies.  Stop hanging out with fucking losers and just move on. I told my boss "honestly, I have ADD and this how I am."  I said it like it was and that was that. If he worked with me amazing if not then I will move on. The next part of semen retention is, informing those monkeys of your power of expendability. What is precious is not precious to you. It's impermanent as was the feelings of agony and flashbacks that it toke you to get here.. To this point in time.. My grades I've cherished are just a continuation of this life. It's hard to describe where I am, it's like a limbo existence of dynamisms where I see all the colorful experiences. I reflect back on the thousands of hours I wasted on useless videogames to give me self-worth. It's funny because I still sucked...ADHD the constant theme reminding me that I would never ever be normal.  Take heart because if you have thought what I have thought then you will realize what I realize.

                             

              4. CONCLUSION: One day long you will be older like I and you will see those who choose the semen retention and they would have accepted their conditional existence and they had their family. They would continue to work hard and to develop. You would have expended yourself and you would be 30 with a bunch of medicore positions and dreams never realized. For, you did not heed the warnings given to you and you remember what could have been and what will never be. If you are reading these words at 15 heed, this warning. Do not waste your gifts and be like me. Do not let ADHD or PMO rob you of your life. That instant-gratification you think is worth it, is your end. One day you awake up in shame and as you wait for the next to end so you can go right back to it again. As for me, I will bid my time on this journey to 365 and find/make what will finally give me the life I'm supposed to have.. As semen retention shows us, perpetual failure is the process of becoming what you ought to become.. In this process, I have informed those "friends" that  you can be expended. In this process, I realize that working so hard and forcing what doesn't work is not the answer. As is the process, of PMO and unsolicited advice you must figure it out for yourself.  To be frank you probably need to be ADHD or neurodivergent to actually understand what I'm saying. A neurotypical will never understand their idiotic privilege and what you must realize is that everything fed to you was a lie. That classical success and hardwork don't mean shit. What you know meant nothing... Those successful people you saw were CHEATERS. They DID NOT play fair and neither should you. So stop emulating their useless strategies...they are FUNDAMENTALLY DIFFERENT. As is a person, with SR and ST you will forever be separated from the dumb life-force wasters.  Now, no one can Save you but you. It is simply your choice...  Fundamentally, I inform you so yall can go out into the world and fix this broken game that is RIGGED against you. If I could SHOW WHAT I KNOW with my life-force I would move those mountains. I have comeback from the mountain pushing and the whips to inform you they are harder to move than predicted. Take heart because the journey is long and Semen retention has not led the way. That is all.


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Posted 13 June 2019 - 03:25 AM

136/140  

 

        1. A minor Update, I will continue updating this thread until it reaches 365/365 then I will do other things. Briefly, I will "attempt" to consistently meditate again as a last ditch effort to treat both my ADHD and my increasingly rising sexual energy that must be transmuted..MY reccomendation is uninstall instagram, which I'm heavily considering along with getting rid of your smart phone and all social media...More than likely the meditation will do nothing but the SR nerds reccomend it, so I will do that as well then as my "last attempt" to find a solution towards this ADHD...I still feel like I'm not getting nowhere, so if you feel like a failure join the club. That is all.


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Posted 17 June 2019 - 01:14 AM

140/140: 

 

                               1. This will be a brief anecdote for myself as I continue on the Semen Retention journey and continue to develop accordingly. I'm currently on the edge of being evicted primarily do to ADHD and an outright inability to be able to sustain focus EVEN with Ritalin and SR seems to be insufficient as of now. Regardless, of this as in the case of SR, your capacity and your ability to do the impossible is purely dependent upon your own ability to accept your end. I am more than willing at this point to go homeless if NEED be to become a man. No man is a  real man if they are perpetually dependent and do not MAKE your OWN Money.  Have I been transmuting and has their been a miracle in relationship towards my ability to transmute that sexual energy. Absolutely not, and I'm starting to believe that perhaps that whole thing may have been a sham but it doesn't matter at this rate... I will do this thread for 1 year and then that should be sufficient for all the people LIKE ME, who's live either suck or they are dependent in some category or another. As semen retention, continues to inform us that suffering is the necessary capacity for finding your glory, so it is the same capacity that allows you to propel yourself onward. Where-ever you find yourself, you must find a way to quit wasting your life-force. You must come to terms with the inevitable truth of your pathetic weak life. You must be willing to do Anything and I mean anything to get what you want. I will not be beaten by ADHD and you will not be beaten by Pornography. Nothing is impossible if you are willing to do anything even go homeless to achieve it then so be it. In the end, those chicks you chase are as meaningless, as all the videos and games you watch, it all means nothing unless you choose to walk the path. Only you can and in that moment nothing matters any longer. This is crush-time for me and you. Do what you must. That is all


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Posted 23 June 2019 - 11:23 PM

147/150

                         1. Finished another awful shfit at Dishwasher and the retention or cravings of life-force is now excruciatingly painful. Honestly, all the people who are negging me could not have done half of the shit I've gone through. You have no idea how painful this really is.  In the end, we must retain are life-force irrespective of how agonizing it is because their is the discipline aspect and the truth that we seek which is to be a master of your own agency and your own domain. I'd type more but my hands are all fucking cut from the stupid dishes.   Honestly, I'm not even sure why I care to update you all on this anymore. It seems losers like being losers.   As for myself, I've not the faintest idea what I should do differently within the respects of truly achieving and accomplishing the goals I wish. The unbridgeable gap of ADHD is a son a bitch. I bet half of yall would have quit half way through like little pussys... In the end as the days continue the agony continues like a never-ending onslaught and it's only discipline and action that will make sure you retain your life-force for your own glory. At this point, I'm not really getting any objectively speaking... Bruteforce is insufficient for the type of glory that I desire and I suspect their is a better way. If I find it I won't be telling you... As for myself, ADHD has effectively rendered much of my efforts nullified... That is all. The agony continues...






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