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Semen Rention(SR) Benefits- Sexual Transmutation

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#31 MichaelFocus22

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Posted 18 April 2019 - 11:18 PM

04-18-2019 81/90 

 

 

1. To whomever, is still interested in the art of sexual-transmutation(ST), I reccomend you follow these rules with a puristic fashion or intention. Otherwise, you will find yourself sorely disappointed. So, again I'm about to accomplish 90 days with ease and with medication it's been stupid easy being able to integrate semen retention as a way of life, whereas before I'd given to my impulsivity. As my new way of being, I've never really been this far into the game right now. As you might say,  In other news, Have I been transmuting my energy, that is ultimately Why I made this thread to begin with. The answer, seems to be a no. I haven't been detecting any net expenditure or net gain of energy by which that should improve my energy levels, relative to what was before? I don't know, maybe I've gotten normal to it, but apparently most of the so-called insane benefits happen after 90 days so, I'll probably do a whole year and see if I ascend to godhood. I doubt, that will happen or otherwise I'm simply in a flat-line. I'll probably have a GF long before then tbh.  So what else, do I have for you? Has it improved my thought process? Absolutely not, I'm still as neurotic as I ever was. Infact, my mind can still go into spins. I definietly notice that I have significantly more confidence to the point that it's almost overbearing at times.  Initially, speaking  the medication is annoying because it seems to be repelling attraction of women, so that's pretty irritating tbh. RITALIN=Girl repellant Lol.  Besides, that tangent, I still  implore those who seek the path to trust the process. Do Not look for the outcome and Do not look for the result. Trust, that as you master your own being and the being within you clears up that you begin to see the more holistically. I'm not going to lie and tell you that this is super fun. Being stuck in Moscow, Idaho with 25000 people in an apartment away from campus where it's perpetually cold with lack of female contact for hours on end, is NOT fun.  Not going to lie, you will start to go crazy especially sense, I've started practicing NOSURF AND SR. With these 2 together, your motivation will skyrocket or you will go crazy. Again, if your looking to do this because your expecting an x outcome for y gain. Go elsewhere, don't waste your time. Semen retention isn't for you. 

2.   Semen-retention within it's purest effects, is the path of enlightenment. It's the path of self-control and it can be MADE into a keystone habit by which you build the rest of your habits off. Recognize, that your libido is not you. Recognize, that your LIFE-FORCE is more valuable than anything else in the world. This is what helped me the most get past the barrier in my mind. My life-force is my being and to do anything againist that, is effective disrespect and IMMASCULATION of yourself. When YOU masterbate your basically defiling yourself.  No, ands, if's nor buts about it. Sometimes, your mind might play tricks on you and say MAYBE one more time, or say wow I'd do X,Y,Z. Those thoughts are arising from your subconcious. They are not your real thoughts and they are meant to SABATOGE you because your brain wants to be back the way it was. Rewiring your own brain and changing yourself requires effort and your brain is really fucking lazy. Accept this now. From all the ancedotes, I've seen and had most of the benefits are probably PLACEBO. 

3. The benefits of SR are probably placebo from what I can tell. Most of the nonsense, those SR nerds have talked about, I haven't seen anything that really indicated something substantially changed within me. Thus, does Sexual-transmutation as a process even exist? Yes & No depending upon  your view of excess expenditure of energy. Typically, when I get horny, I do alot of exercize with my medication and then I do alot of productive activities. This would be the purest x ====>y  example of transmutation. If your horny  go do X to achieve Y. However, their has been NO increase in baseline energy or focus within those other respects. Thus, from my inconclusive ancedotal data, transmutation probably only occurs when your horny or when you have the need to fuck.  Otherwise, I've only noticed a big increase in confidence and more natural relationships OFF medication. That is all I have for you. 

 

                         3A. If the reader has any questions: Feel Free to Ask.

 

 

                               /TLDR GOAL 81/90 ACCOMPLISHED VERY SOON TRUST THE PROCESS, CONTINUE ONWARDS, DISCIPLINE, ST exists only in bursts, Placebo, inconclusive etc.


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Posted 28 April 2019 - 08:48 PM

91/90 Days: 

 

                                   1. To whomever still is reading this thread and is a practitioner of the semen retention life-style,  I shall report to you, that I've successfully did it with no major slips or  nocturnal emission and I've successfully retained my life-force. Yet I asked the original question long ago of whether, I was successfully transmuting my energy? Was I doing so? Well judging based off my new numbers and information or feedback I've received from my grades it seems that medication have slightly worsened my writing abilities when I went over it, my writing was atrocious and I was surprised that I turned it such dogshit writing. So, next has SR given me these so-called amazing powers or abilities of perception within the respective forms, of focus, continuity, ability to plan for the future or any of the above? Nope, hasn't happened and my ability to be consistent is still largely inconsistent although I've made great strides in finally wake up at 6 am. I'm in the process of transitioning this to  a permanent 5 am wake up time, once I finish this semester so that I can  experiment more until I find the optimal level of performance that allows me to achieve my goals unhampered.  As the semester comes to a close, I'm still very proud of the fact that I've been able to get this far and I've surpassed all of my previous goals. Am I cured of the hardcore pornographic materials and what they've done to my mind? Absolutely not, I still get occassional cravings but deep down I simply won't give up my life-force or my internal being to simply waste it on degeneracy. If you really search within yourself, you immasculate and defile yourself on a perpetual basis towards immorality, so I implore you to look within yourself and realize this. Sure, I don't really have anything to really show you but a need found discipline and stronger resolve than ever before to reach 1 year of pure semen retention. I'm more determined than ever before to transcend and finally become the man I was SUPPOSED to be, had my life not been robbed by the ADD and PMO.  I've been able to read more consistently and I've been enjoying the work of Hayek and his Constitution of liberty. So other than this ancedote, have I BEEN TRANSMUTING my energy? The answer appears to be NO, but most of the evidence underlying so far, made claims that most of the real benefits kick in after this point. So I will patiently wait for those so-called benefits.

 

2. What has improved? Probably nothing, I talk to maybe 1 girl regularly if I'm lucky but this is probably just the condition of moscow, idaho. I really don't give a fuck anymore. Have I been able to exercize like a machine? Nope. Have I gained more charisma? Nope. Has my confidence increase? Yes, this is unequivocal. Has my ability to make friends improved? Again, my evidence is circumstantial at best because of the place that I'm at and the such limited population I have access to.  So I believe that the evidence and ancedotes of semen retention is probably placebo but I will report again in the future on the so-called superpowers that have been repeatedly mentioned by SR Nerds and practitioners of the kundalini.   At 22, I'm still surprised where I find myself and I never envisioned nor predicted any of my failures or outcomes that would occur despite my best efforts in seeking to be successful. At the same time, SR's own benefit is it's own reward. I'm much happier and content with myself. I've made peace with myself and I don't feel defiled anymore. I don't believe my brain is quite yet rewired yet  to NOT  waste your life force. What helped get over this urge, is understanding that I don't NEED it and I can manage my URGES in other ways like having a productive goal. Next, PMO is simply disgusting and most people know this.  If your still in the whole of addiction JUST STOP, you will thank yourself later. Your urges and suffering will only get worse.  Just let go and move on.  Remember, that your semen is literally a life-force that should not be expelled so trivially. It's not some trivial action where you pleasure yourself for your own end. The problem is that you defile your and immasculate your own body for relief you build up unnatural relationships with both women and you become perpetually  incapable of only finding pleasure within yourself.  One real benefit is my relationships ARE WAY more satisfying with the women i do talk to. You will enjoy this way fucking more than watching immoral sluts.  Above all, just quit being a fucking beta male and man the fuck up.  If you really want to change your life then QUIT RUNNING from your PROBLEMS and LEARN to control. Stop being a fucking slave and master thyself. 

3.  Semen-Retention is a part of becoming a man. I realize yesterday, that I'm simply not a man as much as I thought I was. I went off and was bored as usual and defaulted to my fucking phone again to entertain myself because I couldn't find any other way to COPE with the boredom.  It's the same reoccurring theme that I've found throughout my life as I've gone out on my own. I started watching DBZ and ANIME so that I could ESCAPE from my problems for a moment like a bitch. Realize, that their is NO escaping from your responsibilities. It's like being a pussy when you run away.  I realize in that MOMENT, that their are FRAGMENTS or LIFE ADAPTIONS that you and I have internalized that make us ADOLESCENT BOYS at HEART. Men do not run from their fucking problems. They man the fuck up and take responsibility and do what their supposed to do whether they want to or not. So I proceeded to turn it OFF and slept around 930, sense I couldn't really find anything else productive for myself to OCCUPY my time. What SEMEN-RETENTION is teaching you is TO CONTROL YOURSELF and DELAY your gratification. Their appears to be no immediate reward for your average sheep who is to much of a slave to his perpetual gratification. Semen retention WILL inform you if you are still a boy.  With your increased awareness you will NOTICE, adaptions and tendencies around you and things that you do, that inform you about your mental age. For me,my habits are chronic-overthinking probably a byproduct of ADHD but not an excuse, not taking preventitive measures towards potential problems, NOT TAKING ENOUGH RISKS, constantly DEFAULTING TO MYPHONE when I GET BORED, this is the same fucking thing i WOULD do when I didn't know how to MANAGE and BE in control of my sexual DRIVE. I'm LITERALLY in the process of REPROGRAMMING my whole mind SR is only the start of a much longer process. Unlearning bad spending habits, learning to stop taking everything as an assault on my character, managing my responsibilites LIKE I'M SUPPOSED TO. The remnants of your childhood, may often manifest in old interests,  STOP now. This part of you wishes to be a BOY because being an ADULT and being truly RESPONSIBLE is hard fucking work. No Ands, if's nor buts about it. Accept the process of responsibility as you accept the process of pain. This the process of your agency and this is the process and patience of waiting. If you IGNORE the process, of becoming a man you WILL FIND yourself at a much older age but still be mentally inferior in years to your neurotypical counterpart. This is, the process of acceptance. Accept, that you are no longer 18. You are NO longer what you once were. For this process and part of you to go you adopt the total proces.

 

                                    Conclusion: Semen retention is a lifestyle and it's really only the start of a longer process  by which a man becomes aware and is REDPILLED. Towards a greater awakening. As for the process, of sexual transmutation I will continue to see if their are any other purported benefits or so-called super-powers but I remain skeptical of such occurences.  Just remember, SR isn't going to make you this amazing being and it's not going to make you become a millionaire it's merely a keystone habit that builds upon other habits.  Build up and continue especially if your a neurotypical, you have even a greater advantage and can DO WHAT YOU KNOW. Semen retention is about the process and not the product. It's about becoming of being rather than seeking the instant result. Don't conflate the two and don't anger. Remain stoic and Calm.  Your goals will come you just have to keep grinding towards the stone. That is all I have for you. 90/180

 

                                          /TLDR GOAL ACHIEVED, Process And Product, Don't falter because of the outcome, BELIEVE YOU CAN, Take responsibility for yourself etc.


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Posted 07 May 2019 - 09:28 PM

100/100   

 

                             1. So before I do homework I will procrastinate slightly about this and elaborate further on some more general principles that have less to do with the concepts of sexual transmutation but are probably still useful for self-actualizing. So obviously, I've hit 100 days and I still have bad latent tendencies, so I suspect that the healing will take about a year or longer before my brain truly rewires itself from literally years and years of wasting my life force on hardcore pornographic materials. So there's that process I've been working on but I'm going to make this brief and a little less about me. The more I continue on this journey towards pure semen retention I've started to notice more and more symptoms of greater dsyfunctions that you need to be aware off lest, you fall back into those disgusting habits of wasting your life-force. Remember your LIFEFORCE is incredibly value do not fucking waste it or defile yourself. This is what has helped me most.

 

                               2. Have an affirmation statement: Have one solid belief or reason to why your doing what your doing for me, it's  about no wasting my life-force when In can actively be working towards a goal or outcome and actually be talking to hot girls anyways..So FIND YOUR WHY, whatever it is that will push you forward. I use this for even when I get up early and before this I would FAIL no matter what I would do. I didn't have a good ENOUGH WHY, I'm getting up at X time to do Y thing because I don't want to be a loser. Then I ask am I fucking loser? I say fuck this I'm not and throw my sorry ass up so that I can dominate the day and we do this again. So find that WHY and this will propel you forward.

 

                             3.  Watch out for Sluts: Now if you don't the term slut  then  IDGAF, but you will start to have more and more slutty behavior from some chicks and they will throw themselves AT YOU.  Don't be tempted it's a waste of your time. Date quality not quantity.  More girls may dress slutty to tempt you but do not give them your fucking attention.  Don't look, don't gaze or nothing. Just go about your business and handle your RESPONSIBILITY like a mufasa.  This is really just a test to see if your in control. If you give in I gurantee you will feel empty... Sure it looks nice but in the end your life-force is more important than any one night stand. Remember this and don't degrade yourself. 

                            4.  Stop Giving a Fuck Period: Learn to not give a fuck about anyone or what anybody thinks. Say IDGAF out-loud and keep it up. This will FREE you from your own slavery of self-imposed caring of what other people think. You want to be fucking wealthy? Then do it. You want to X then who cares what anyone thinks. It only MATTERS what you THINK.  This is called confidence and it's liquid gold.

                            5. Stop being a Beta-male: This is starting to get really PUA type philosophy and I don't really believe most of the bullshit but it's important to stop being  a pussy. Retaining your semen is supposed to ALLOW you to get in touch with your inner manhood. I've seen so many disgusting beta-males at my university asking for permission, to scared to speak their mind, inhibited by petty expectations, constantly making excuses, I still make excuses so I'm not perfect either. Just QUIT being NICE, QUIT  asking for permission. If your a young man in your 20's you need to be RUTHLESS absolutely positively DOMINATING and overdomineering.. There seems to be these trends of where we need to all work towards collaboration.. That's nice and all but you NEED to COMPETE. This is a competition, we as men were DESIGNED to compete..If you WANT x then DO y. Stop being a pussy.

                            6.  Take some responsibility: You are responsible for why your life is shit.. No one else is responsible for it. No one else can save you but you.. No one saved me from my addictions but MYSELF. I wanted to stopped and after many FAILURES I did. Man the fuck up and take responsibility like the mantle and own up to your fuck up.  Responsibility is the first part of BECOMING  a man. When I said I was sick of the way my life I got HELP and got medicated for ADD then started working out and toke my life more seriously.. DO what you have to do. 

                            7. Your going to fail: There's no way around this, I've FAILED so many many many times, It's not even funny really. Just accept this right now...Your going to fail and sure it stings but  a real man can fucking take it instead of cowering like a pussy.

                            8.  Accept your reality as it is: Stop complaining and whining, just accept your reality like it fucking is and do what you have to DO to get it done. Do I like programming? No I don't really give a fuck about it. Yet, I need money if I am to start my career in politics or finance. Use your short-term position to build towards your long term outcome.

 

                            9. Plan for the future: Stop impulsively spending, Save up those paychecks and start saving up for a down payment on a house: Do you really want to be 35 and STILL LIVE in an APARTMENT while Chad is fucking your girl in his HOUSE? Fuck that shit, say no to the dorrito's and suck it up with celery.

                          10. You can be ALPHA CHAD TO: Sure, I don't agree with most of the bullshit that PUA community and semen retention community talk about but this is a general life principle, there are NO limits except the limits you place on yourself. You want to be shredded as fuck then get some fucking weights? You want to be smooth with the ladies? Then talk to 1000 ladies... It doesn't fucking matter.. Just do it. Now you might say this sounds shallow and your probably right but the shallow people get what they want? Do you want to get what you want? I know I do...

                         11. Don't BE YOURSELF: This is a fucking TRAP IDGAF what you say..but if I'm gonna be myself then I should just continue playing league of legends and wasting my lifeforce and being on my phone 15 hours a day and being a victim because that's me being myself. Right? Bullshit, your goal is TO NOT be YOURSELF it's to  BECOME YOURSELF. You are FORGING your IDENTITY of what you WANT TO BE . There is no such thing as being yourself that's bullshit.  Find the person you want to be and start doing those things. The people who say just be yourself are often medicore losers. Fuck them. 

 

                        12. TAKE RISKS: I'm still working on this myself but take some fucken risks... I asked a x chick out and I got friendzoned. Oh well. Take life by the horns and be willing to die to get what you want. Stop being a pussy. You see a fine girl then TALK TO HER... It's not that hard... You want ton get a promotion then set up a meeting with your boss and SHOW HIM why...you deserve a promotion..Real men take risks, Beta-males stay in the comfort zones.  Ask yourself, Do I want to be a beta-male? The next time your afraid to take risk...

 

                        13. SAY WHATS ON YOUR MIND: This is pretty easy for me because of my ADD. Just say whats on your fucken mind and quit being a girl..

                        14. Don't be nice: Seriously, being nice is weird because your putting an expectation upon other people because your hiding your true intentions.. It's just fucking weird. Period.     Be Aggressive, Be dominating, Be Ruthless, Be cold-blooded. It's a dog EAT DOG WORLD. Eat or be Eaten

 

                       15. Be Sexual: This is a bit different but I've gotten progressively more comfortable with my sexuality....It's ok to talk openly to a girl you think is attractive.. It doesn't mean anything. It' doesn't make you weird it makes YOU NORMAL. Hiding your sexual urges is what makes you weird...

 

               BONUS 16. YOUR MISSION COMES FIRST: Find your mission, Become SINGLE-MINDED, SINGLE-MINDED is manly. Be laserfocused in what you want and you will get what you fucking want. 

 

                              /TLDR Supplemental suggestions to add along with SR+ST

 


Edited by DrewMichael21, 07 May 2019 - 09:30 PM.

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Posted 15 May 2019 - 02:40 AM

05-14-2019:

 

.   107/180

                           1. A minor report: So this a little bit of  RANT oh and by the way your fucking welcome for writing thread..I had to figure all of this out on my OWN. Ignore my fucking assholeness I'm very salty about my B I got in philosophy,.. further killing my dreams for stanford university in the process. Just a heads UP of what to expect with SEMEN RETENTION, even if this is redundant I don't give a fuck.  So first, things as you go further in the semen retention life do not expect it to fix all your problems, it simply isn't going to. I haven't changed much and I have much more work to do. I proceeded to yell in range and then I broke my chair in the process and almost punshed a hole through the door.. Concerta is really fun. If you have ADD do not take a high dose. Anyways, I still attribute my semen retention success to ritalin because it's allowed me to push beyond my own petty instant-gratifications. One thing, I'm increasingly realized is you literally need to NOT give a fuck about anyone or anything.  This includes girls.. I've literally had thoughts about manipulating and using girls and toss them away like trash. My mind is very very utilitarian and consequentialist in nature. When you are on semen retention YOU WANT TO GET WHAT YOU WANT. Don't blend in with the stupid ass sheep.  They might tell you dumb shit like just be happy with what you have or why do you work so hard? Fuck those motherfuckers.. Everyone last one of them. Remember if you've COME THIS FAR in the journey THEN YOUR MISSION Is all that matters. NOTHING else matters, not even your friends nor family. They don't fucking matter. Just remember if you don't GET What you want your WASTING your time. I really mean this..No more being a beta-male. No more being a dependent pussy who makes excuses... I also had a thought of killing myself earlier today. This is the type of ruthlessNESS that you NEED but you need to CHANNEL that motherfucker into the world around you.   Don't accept anything LESS THAN YOUR GOAL. You know what my psychiatrist told me? You accomplished something... THis is fucking joke. This is like SAYING that I wasted my fucking life force for 15 years because I couldn't actually date a girl. Fuck this shit. 

 

                     2. So now that, I've ranted a bit , I'm sure that all of those people who HAVE actually read this ARE TIRED OF BEING LOSERS? Aren't you tired of being a loser? I know I sure am? Are you tired of your bank account being empty? Are you tired of dealing with stupid sheep who you WOULD be CRUSHING but your not and you don't KNOW WHY? Aren't you tired of this shit and you CONSTANTLY MAKING excuses FOR YOUR FUCK UPS. It was your fault you got addicted because you ran away from your problems. Because you refused to ACKNOWLEDGE your own inadequacy. You refused to acknowledged your own failure. I'm reporting to you that I have FAILED. I am Not perfect but I don't take responsibility for everything. This is what semen retention TEACHES YOU. If you WANT TO BE A MAN, then you have to take RESPONSIBILITY for whereever you are in life. There is no fucking substitute for this. You have no excuse for why your watching hardcore pornographic materials, you HAVE NONE other than your running from your problems. Your sick and tired of your piece of shit life so you would rather defile and IMMASCULATE yourself like a pussy than face the reality.  To ACCEPT Less because your let little stupid SHEEP tell you otherwise.  You know, i've been there and still am there.. How can a LOSER before more successful than YOU? Your working your ass into the FLOOR and your NOT GETTING WHAT YOU FUCKING want. This makes sense to me...This seems logical. You want X to achieve Y. You admitted your a drug addict porn fapping immoral motherfucker who defiles himself. In a nutshell, if your wasting your LIFE-FORCE your very being on the activity off Wasting your life on hardcore immortality your ARE admitting that you are INCAPABLE of doing your only purpose. Procreating. That is literally why you exist. Your purpose is to SPREAD your seed and NOTHING else. Those video games you think are important are NOT. Those friends you think are important are NOT. Neither is your family either. 

                  3. In extension of my long rant, I'd like to ADD their is no substitute to admitting your failure. There is no subtitute to no taking risk. There is nothing but the suffering that encompasses your being and your agony that you feel. Semen retention can be agonizing at times... It's the process of BECOMING who you want to be that matters... NOT WHO PEOPLE TELL YOU TO BE. You are NOT yourself. DO NOT be YOURSELF, BE WHO YOU WISH YOU WERE.  If I should be myself then I should be a lazy piece of shit who plays games and wastes his life force and who forgets shit so I can just live off my parents at 35 and I should BE MYSELF. This is fucking stupid. Don't fall for this medicore sheep reasoning..Why do you think psychopaths GET WHAT THEY WANT. Your NOT GETTING what you want.. Honestly girls aren't complicated their just as insecure and emotionally violatile self-interested machiavlian sluts like  everyone else. Is that really what you want to worship? You know what their fucking waiting for? There NOT waiting for you to be a pussy. There NOT waiting for you to be MAKE excuses. They are waiting for a MAN to SEIZE the MOMENT and DIE for what he believes in...They don't want a little child that's incapable of EXPRESSING THEMSELVES sexually... It's not complicated infact it's the MOST NATURAL thing that has ever existed. That's what SEMEN RETENTION teaches you. TO FAIL AND FAIL some more over and over. TO admit that you did your best and then suffer some-more. There is nothing MORE MANLY than a person who fights for his beliefs against ALL ODDS against all the naysayers. Deep down it doesn't fucking matter.. IF YOU HAVE NO ENEMIES then YOUR DOING IT WRONG. You NEED enemies so that they can make you better. You NEED HATERS. You NEED to be rejected.. You NEED Thousands of women to REJECT YOU. The purpose of SR is simply the process of BECOMING a man and transmuting.  

 

       4. You are torturing yourself and EMBRACING the AGONY for the greater prize. The prize by which you become your most prized self. The self that truly doesn't give a fuck. If you think about it, there is NOTHING more scary then YOUNG MEN that realized your being fucked in the ass. That realize their WILLING TO DO things and HOLD people accountable... This is the essence of the masculine energy is to COMPETE. You see that bad boy chad and your complaining why HE GETS what he WANTS and YOU DONT? Because he doesn't give a fuck truly and utterly doesn't give a shit. You know what else? Why don't you challenge that motherfucker and COMPETE. Are you too scared to because your AFRAID TO FAIL? Then you will never BECOME the human you want to be...If you really have followed my long diatribe to it's end, Ask yourself deep down? Why is the world so fucked? Why is everything the way it is? Because their are tons of little BOYS who have NOT been fighting the fucking status quo and disrupting the NATURAL order like we are SUPPOSED TO. We have been pacified and placated by pleasure of the flesh and circus of entertainment. You honestly think they want someone Who doesn't give a fuck? Who is willing to get into CONFLICT who is willing to argue to get what they want? No because that would be dangerous and you couldn't be controlled? You know what CAN BE CONTROLLED. SHEEP CAN BE HERDED...Where ever you find yourself just know that it is better to have FAILED spectacularly than to have been a beta-male in his bubble. SEMEN retention and transmutation is our process to free ourselves and gives us the CHANCE to SEE that We are NOT ENOUGH. I am NOT enough.. I have WORK to DO.... Things to ACCOMPLISH. Places to GO. You have ONLY one Life. There is no remake, there is no REDO, this is it. There is nothing else once your dead. You see that CINDY chick ASK her because thats your ONLY chance. There is no other time and there is no other excuse. You fail and then LEARN.  It's BETTER to have HATERS than be a nobody. It's better to have DIED ONCE AS A HERO then have died a thousand times a coward..  You want to know why those beta males bitches are so insecure because you HAVE COURAGE. To DO What is right when no one gives a fuck. Even if what you are doing is impossible it's better to have FOUGHT with struggle than to have given up like a pussy. The impossibility of the task does not matter but only your willingness to OVERCOME. To whomever who read this RANT, This monk literally burned himself ALIVE , he did not give a fuck he was willing to die by his principle. He has NO FEARS Not a single thing. Nothing except his own internal agency.. Whether it was smart is another issue BUT it is the principle that you and I must LIVE by ONLY DEATH STOPS YOU. Nothing else not one thing. This is the principle of success and glory is your agency in seizing the motherfucking moment. This dude is a LION. You get up at 5 am not because you want to you do it because this is your ONLY life. Semen retention is not about happiness. That's one of the great lies propagated by the sheepie masses.. If you really think about it, Why are these neurotypicals INCAPABLE of achieving their potential? They have everything NECESSARY and I do NOT. This is what makes them your prey and why you must be ruthless.. It's ok because the neurotypicals said defiling yourself is perfectly natural along with a occassional dose of hardcore pornography. I let you decide.. If you read this far then you are like me. Your sick of being a loser? Aren't you sick of degenerates being more successful than YOU? Doesn't that bother you?  You SHOULD compare yourself to others because that is your competition. Thats another lie propagated as well.  So if your sick of being a loser then embrace SR. Goodluck.

 

 

 WATCH this VIDEO: https://www.youtube....pctr=1557890443 Beast Lion MONK DIES He doesn't give a fuck AT ALL

 

 

           /TLDR Long Rant/ ARE YOU TIRED OF BEING A LOSER? MOVE BEYOND WOMEN? FIND YOUR SINGULAR PURPOSE?


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Posted 18 May 2019 - 10:21 AM

Porn is obviously awful. I was a long term no fapper/semen retainer until I got married. I was a little worried that I might lose my no fappers edge because I come with my wife a lot and i'm thankful to report that hasn't been a problem. Having sex with a real woman does raise your testosterone which energizes you. 

 

 


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Posted 20 May 2019 - 03:06 AM

Porn is obviously awful. I was a long term no fapper/semen retainer until I got married. I was a little worried that I might lose my no fappers edge because I come with my wife a lot and i'm thankful to report that hasn't been a problem. Having sex with a real woman does raise your testosterone which energizes you. 

 

 

 

1. I'd appreciate it if you removed, that repulsive thumbnail or what I call weaponized imagery from my thread. You can just link it.  I've no idea what your talking about with the derogatory term "fap" you mean masturbate?  So, no it doesn't this is the whole point of semen-retention it's a whole new dichotomy of thought beyond the limited gratification of merely having sex for sex's purpose.  I recommend you read some of my posts, so you can learn why masturbating and having perpetual sex too much can actually be a bad thing. It actually emasculates you and robs you of your sexual energy. Also, I really need you to remove that thumbnail. It's disgusting. An alpha-male does not give a fuck about sex, he cares about greater things beyond that. That is all. Goodluck.


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#37 jroseland

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Posted 20 May 2019 - 05:51 AM

1. I'd appreciate it if you removed, that repulsive thumbnail or what I call weaponized imagery from my thread. You can just link it. 

What are you talking about? I just linked to a (rather tame) Youtube video about tantric sex. I don't know what you're seeing that is "repulsive".

 

As a general rule of thumb, when something offends you that's about you. If something offends you don't look at it. 


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Posted 27 May 2019 - 04:58 PM

120/130:

 

                  1.  So, it's approximately  day 120 and I've still yet to notice any of the so-called superpowers per se. Rather, when I'm off medication opportunities and job positions come to me fairly easily to say the least. At the same time, this is supposed to be the period in which their is a higher propensity for greater luck, strength increases and all these other delusional claims that have zero evidence to back up from SR nerds. In other news, have I been transmuting my energy? My baseline energy feels roughly the same, I did lots of yardwork yesterday and it was still as effortful as it ever was. Interestingly enough,  tons of woman are the ones assisting me with making me money and what not which is fairly strange. I'm not really all that surprised by it. Also, Let's be very clear, my view of women has changed DRASTICALLY.. so much so, that I'm not going to say it here. The point is, their has been a perspective change in my mind. Has this led to greater results? Am I more better off? I feel roughly the same with a bit more of IDGAF type attitude sense, I've been following the red-pill philosophy of rollo massi which seems utterly alien to the art of protecting your life-force. So I may be tangental but it remains clear, that SR does something to you. It doesn't appear to increase your energy expenditure per se. Rather, it increases your baseline potentiality and views of the world. This could simply be ADHD. 

                            

                2.  What have I done? I'm currently in the process of actively learning programming, so that I can support myself, as I view it's the next step towards BECOMING a man. My goal along my other insane goals, is to amass money to do what I want. I'm starting to wake up earlier, take reading everyday more seriously and just up my game more. My dancing abilities sense I've STUCK with what I've been doing. Has improved tremendously and my physique continues to improve more and more. It's an ever growing compounding effect and semen retention is just sugar on top. The Bad, is I'm  VERY MUCH in debt, so I'm still in the process of paying this off.  Above all, My perspective has  SHIFTED hugely, I literally do not give a two fucks and it's liberating. In fact my goal next year among the other goals, I will never finish to to talk to 100 chicks consecutively next. Finally, SR seems to increase  the  TOLERANCE FOR RISK, I'm perfectly comfortable taking more risks than I would normally take.  So their seems to be some benefit to this as well...

            3. What SR  HASN'T done:  I still feel incredibly ungrounded and still too much into my head. I've been forcing myself to interact with the world around me and to CUTT DOWN on ideas, as much as I can so that I become more manly so to speak. If you want more bro-stuff, my beard has gotten much thicker and I have way more chest hair but this is for those who like bro-science. Finally, for those who are doing this to NOT preserve your life-force, SR makes you more dominate. You legit will have a more dominating personality but I had that to begin with. Girls love it... It's not even funny... Now, I don't advocate domination,  at least for beta-male novices anyways because it will be fake. Simply put from my observations, they LOVE TO BE dominated...I've done things I never thought I'd do even 5 months ago...So, maybe it's placebo but above all transmute your life-force towards attaining competency. Men are meant to DO THINGS and make things, so transmute it like I am In programming and go from there. P.S If you think, I'm BSING on the domination part, I'm really NOT, they love it...not advocating to be a total asshole but they just eat this shit up, tell them TO STFU and they comeback for more...

 

                   /TLDR NOT MUCH NEW, 150/365 DAYS TO GO/ What's Next? Perspective change? More testoserone? What else is there?


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#39 MichaelFocus22

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Posted 01 June 2019 - 09:14 PM

125/130: 

                             06/1/2019:

 

                                        1. I will be commenting on a slight observation as it seems increasingly likely that Moscow, Idaho may be simply coming to an end as I need to re-evaluate what's going on and accordingly. Concerta is giving increasingly diminishing returns for what should be a 4.0 but that's not the issue right here right now.   Anyways, I will share a few more observations of the continuing occurrences, as we continually observe what the outcomes of SEMEN RETENTION are. I will be clear with you, that medication most likely does not work with semen retention as my quiz and test-scores are probably slightly worse. So if you have ADD and stimulants be aware of this. ISSUE: I've been having urethra leakage for months now, I literally am leaking huge quantities of urine from a weak bladder apparently which I did not have before. This is probably something you will experience and is probably damage to the urethra mechanism from so many ejaculations. To be clear I did not have this issue before and I'm not sure what is causing it. It's keen to be aware of this or you will ruin your boxers.  Anyways, this is a minor side-effect of semen retention. It's strange I credit my stimulant use to largely being able to abstain from PMO otherwise my records were in the 20 day to 30 day mark. So be aware, of a weakened and leaky urethra as this is real damage to the urethra expulsion system. It's improved moderately but not really. That is all.


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Posted 09 June 2019 - 07:32 PM

06-9-2019: 133/130

                   1. I've easily hit my goal once again and concerta doesn't seem to be doing very much at this rate. The only other solution, is to raise my dose again to 54 or go on ritalin and burst my periods of productivity by going perpetually on and off. This seems to be the only solution to that. In case, you have seen I've been increasingly garnering more and more haters and I'm personally  enjoying it..Anyways, Let's get down to business, Shall we? Have I been transmuting my energy? I would this as a resounding No, as of right now. I do not have the correct capacities that would allow me to develop myself accordingly. My abilities seem roughly proportional and their has been no so-called super-powers. I have not developed any so-called discipline. I will consider meditation as my last last option to manage my ADHD and my mind still has not quite rewired itself just yet... I have looked at very very tame pics of some chicks but these were mostly on accident.  My point is simple, avoid instagram and infact, I'm simply considering uninstalling it at some point and just going off all social media together sense, it's just another addiction in a long line of other addictions that I continually develop. Primarily have I been spectacularly successful? The answer, is a resounding no...It could be that the meds may be messing with my transmutation but it feels as if I credit it for allowing to get as far as I have. I probably would have quit by now anyways, without the meds so I would probably not give credence to this. I suspect much of my hate has been because they are JEALOUS of my ability to do what these losers have failed to do. That is face your demons in the fucking eye like a man and acknowledge your imperfections and work on them. 

 

                      2. I must say I'm somewhat dissappointed and I'm not exactly in the best situation once again.. Haha no surprise here. I owe 3200 on my lease and I will probably be getting kicked out pretty soon.  I must say this was unexpected but it was my fault for getting a roomate who could pay his bills and he had ADHD what a surprise... I must say, I'm considering radical changes towards my orientation on what I need to do to be successful. This bruteforce method just isn't working... Let's face the facts here despite working my ass off and committing to the SEMEN-retention lifestyle I still do not feel like a man. I do not feel I self-actualized...It's a strange but exciting time to be in where I don't know what to do. I don't have any answers my friends. I truly do not know and if you reach this point in your semen retention life or life in general it's actual pretty fun... I may just learn to live with my ADHD and all of my fuck ups and see if I can MAINTAIN my habits this is probably unlikely I will maintain in the long term as, ADHD has proven itself to me time and time again.. Sometimes, working harder and throwing money doesn't fix the problem and more tricks and more research isn't going to fix it. This is where I have arrived after years of meds and study of ADHD. I will continue to study this Disorder and inform others of what is responsible for destroying every aspect of their lives and your life. I'm half through my schooling and my so-called friends have forsaken me and I gotta say it feels pretty good to be honest..

 

                    3.  The point is simple "friends", you are temporary and I am temporary. I am not perfect and neither are you. As much as I would love to stomp the fuck out of all these neuromonkeys and haters I simply do not know. You do not have those capacities to other beings around you. The life of semen retention teaches us that the haters aka life-force wasters will hate your guts and chronically show weaponized imagery to get you hooked. Don't lose the path of life-force. For life-force is your only indomitable truth in the confusing times. Is my life as great as Alexander the great? NOPE. Is it a Theodore Roosevelt? NOPE NOPE.  If you reach this part of your story, you get to see all the fun things of life. I get to dance at a random club and soul would never know me. I can speak on any topic I please and do whatever I want without leaving a whisper to my name. I remember listening this podcaster John Sonomez and he stated it correctly, the way of the man or the way of the leader was a long process of rejection, isolation. If you have discovered this thread and heed my words, congratulations you are not a sheep. Yet, you will not experience the conventional success of a neurotypical, you will never understand  them. Don't waste your time. Deep down I've accepted this as I accepted the semen retention life. Do not go home go to where your story lies.  Stop hanging out with fucking losers and just move on. I told my boss "honestly, I have ADD and this how I am."  I said it like it was and that was that. If he worked with me amazing if not then I will move on. The next part of semen retention is, informing those monkeys of your power of expendability. What is precious is not precious to you. It's impermanent as was the feelings of agony and flashbacks that it toke you to get here.. To this point in time.. My grades I've cherished are just a continuation of this life. It's hard to describe where I am, it's like a limbo existence of dynamisms where I see all the colorful experiences. I reflect back on the thousands of hours I wasted on useless videogames to give me self-worth. It's funny because I still sucked...ADHD the constant theme reminding me that I would never ever be normal.  Take heart because if you have thought what I have thought then you will realize what I realize.

                             

              4. CONCLUSION: One day long you will be older like I and you will see those who choose the semen retention and they would have accepted their conditional existence and they had their family. They would continue to work hard and to develop. You would have expended yourself and you would be 30 with a bunch of medicore positions and dreams never realized. For, you did not heed the warnings given to you and you remember what could have been and what will never be. If you are reading these words at 15 heed, this warning. Do not waste your gifts and be like me. Do not let ADHD or PMO rob you of your life. That instant-gratification you think is worth it, is your end. One day you awake up in shame and as you wait for the next to end so you can go right back to it again. As for me, I will bid my time on this journey to 365 and find/make what will finally give me the life I'm supposed to have.. As semen retention shows us, perpetual failure is the process of becoming what you ought to become.. In this process, I have informed those "friends" that  you can be expended. In this process, I realize that working so hard and forcing what doesn't work is not the answer. As is the process, of PMO and unsolicited advice you must figure it out for yourself.  To be frank you probably need to be ADHD or neurodivergent to actually understand what I'm saying. A neurotypical will never understand their idiotic privilege and what you must realize is that everything fed to you was a lie. That classical success and hardwork don't mean shit. What you know meant nothing... Those successful people you saw were CHEATERS. They DID NOT play fair and neither should you. So stop emulating their useless strategies...they are FUNDAMENTALLY DIFFERENT. As is a person, with SR and ST you will forever be separated from the dumb life-force wasters.  Now, no one can Save you but you. It is simply your choice...  Fundamentally, I inform you so yall can go out into the world and fix this broken game that is RIGGED against you. If I could SHOW WHAT I KNOW with my life-force I would move those mountains. I have comeback from the mountain pushing and the whips to inform you they are harder to move than predicted. Take heart because the journey is long and Semen retention has not led the way. That is all.


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Posted 13 June 2019 - 03:25 AM

136/140  

 

        1. A minor Update, I will continue updating this thread until it reaches 365/365 then I will do other things. Briefly, I will "attempt" to consistently meditate again as a last ditch effort to treat both my ADHD and my increasingly rising sexual energy that must be transmuted..MY reccomendation is uninstall instagram, which I'm heavily considering along with getting rid of your smart phone and all social media...More than likely the meditation will do nothing but the SR nerds reccomend it, so I will do that as well then as my "last attempt" to find a solution towards this ADHD...I still feel like I'm not getting nowhere, so if you feel like a failure join the club. That is all.


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Posted 17 June 2019 - 01:14 AM

140/140: 

 

                               1. This will be a brief anecdote for myself as I continue on the Semen Retention journey and continue to develop accordingly. I'm currently on the edge of being evicted primarily do to ADHD and an outright inability to be able to sustain focus EVEN with Ritalin and SR seems to be insufficient as of now. Regardless, of this as in the case of SR, your capacity and your ability to do the impossible is purely dependent upon your own ability to accept your end. I am more than willing at this point to go homeless if NEED be to become a man. No man is a  real man if they are perpetually dependent and do not MAKE your OWN Money.  Have I been transmuting and has their been a miracle in relationship towards my ability to transmute that sexual energy. Absolutely not, and I'm starting to believe that perhaps that whole thing may have been a sham but it doesn't matter at this rate... I will do this thread for 1 year and then that should be sufficient for all the people LIKE ME, who's live either suck or they are dependent in some category or another. As semen retention, continues to inform us that suffering is the necessary capacity for finding your glory, so it is the same capacity that allows you to propel yourself onward. Where-ever you find yourself, you must find a way to quit wasting your life-force. You must come to terms with the inevitable truth of your pathetic weak life. You must be willing to do Anything and I mean anything to get what you want. I will not be beaten by ADHD and you will not be beaten by Pornography. Nothing is impossible if you are willing to do anything even go homeless to achieve it then so be it. In the end, those chicks you chase are as meaningless, as all the videos and games you watch, it all means nothing unless you choose to walk the path. Only you can and in that moment nothing matters any longer. This is crush-time for me and you. Do what you must. That is all


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Posted 23 June 2019 - 11:23 PM

147/150

                         1. Finished another awful shfit at Dishwasher and the retention or cravings of life-force is now excruciatingly painful. Honestly, all the people who are negging me could not have done half of the shit I've gone through. You have no idea how painful this really is.  In the end, we must retain are life-force irrespective of how agonizing it is because their is the discipline aspect and the truth that we seek which is to be a master of your own agency and your own domain. I'd type more but my hands are all fucking cut from the stupid dishes.   Honestly, I'm not even sure why I care to update you all on this anymore. It seems losers like being losers.   As for myself, I've not the faintest idea what I should do differently within the respects of truly achieving and accomplishing the goals I wish. The unbridgeable gap of ADHD is a son a bitch. I bet half of yall would have quit half way through like little pussys... In the end as the days continue the agony continues like a never-ending onslaught and it's only discipline and action that will make sure you retain your life-force for your own glory. At this point, I'm not really getting any objectively speaking... Bruteforce is insufficient for the type of glory that I desire and I suspect their is a better way. If I find it I won't be telling you... As for myself, ADHD has effectively rendered much of my efforts nullified... That is all. The agony continues...


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Posted 06 July 2019 - 05:10 PM

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                         1. I've recently quit my dishwasher job because it was absolutely exhausting and expending far more energy than I've been taking in. We are little over Half way to 1 year towards my 365 days goal and then I will stop updating this thread because I've other more important adventures to head onto.  So what is new with the semen retention life-style? Have I been given godly super-human powers or higher energy levels? Nope, not even close. In fact, yesterday I had what I call an instant-gratification binge, so to speak where I watched a YUGIOH for 14 hours straight for some reason... I find it fairly amusing that I watched a kids anime at 22 and when I say I'm becoming a man, I know that I'm not even close to this goal for sure. Have my energy levels increased? Nope, it made zero difference at my dish-washing job even with ritalin I was still very tired and just simply a jackass. I would describe that I have  very poor impulse control and a overall lack of empathy.   I suspect it may have had to do with food, because I ate ALOT of food and was very very lethargic and my mild-Moderate ADHD  became very severe which is strange. So there, is something going on in the food. In all seriousness, let us get back to Pure Semen retention? Do I have a GF or have my accomplishments been amazing? Nope and Nope.  Semen-retention may just simply be a myth TBH I've not experienced any of these so-called benefits other than an extreme form of confidence where I say "Hey" to all the girls for no reason at all.. Uh, other than that there's not much to report.. Another explanation is that, sense I literally have nothing to do I have a higher Likelihood for Binging things which is why I hate having nothing to do over the summer. So that Could also explain what happened. honestly, I could binge for a whole week and it would make no difference. 

                        2. What else is apart of this Semen Retention Journey? Probably meditation, is something else I'm going to be taking more seriously and I really need to be more respectful of how and when I choose to consume high quantities of food. Many of said, that meditation is instrumental to the semen retention journey, So I've decided to add this in on the Journey to further help transmute energy because off medication my sexuality basically skyrockets... It's not even funny.. it's almost borderline repulsive honestly. I may have hyper-sexuality I'm fairly confident if I had no phone or meds I'd most definitely be very very promiscuous in order to get my DOPAMINE high.   I'm very confident that I have a high lack of empathy for others. I don't know how to explain it.. I can cry and feel emotions like everyone else but I don't really empathize or sit in another persons shoes.. I'm too preoccupied with myself.  Honestly, it's very true  and why this seems tangential (ADHD) I believe, that most addictions are merely concealing deeper problems.  Not only, that but I'm VERY confident that I do suffer from a form of paranoia.  So, semen-retention has not remedied these issues but it has only AMPLIFIED personality characteristics to the point of Mania.. I'm incredibly charming and charismatic comparatively I can get most people to do what I want whenever I want. This was not the case 6 months ago and the medication seems to hide these effects somehow or Ritalin anyways.          

                      3.   The Next Step: Honestly, most of my threads have turned into self-imposed monologues that are entirely off topic... No surprise there... THE POINT I'm getting at is the higher you GO in your semen retention journey the Higher your personality characteristics seem to be Amplified along with a disgusting among of confidence and charisma. I literally believe I can make anything happen and this was after I abused instant-gratification for 15 hours straight with no rest. Honestly, I feel pretty awful right now. Another thing, is that My urethra has been Leaking like crazy... half of my boxes keep getting ruined by urine leaking as if my urethra is loose or some bullshit. So this is the FIRST REAL  biological damage, I've seen from excess life-force wasting... I'm incapable of tightening my urethra.. I don't know how to explain this... There are other awful side-effects that I won't explain you will have to get to this point to find out. They are not pleasant.  Oh another pretty random anedotal side-effect I'm becoming  VERY hairy my body hair has increased significantly and my beard is filling out nicely. Honestly, I'm looking to transition off my ritalin or concerta at some point  for higher natropathic remedies that probably won't work.

 

                            Conclusion: Semen retention has only a few effects on very high testosterone, charisma has increased 100 fold  along with my ability  to grow a beard better but this could be caused by anything. Also, I've these crazy hyper-sexuality  tendencies where I imagine I will do these crazy deluded fantasies which I won't get into. It's important to realize, It's not lime I'm doing this on purpose... It's just happening by itself.  I will be doubling down on getting some more CBT THERAPY and psychological evaluations along with more Ritalin which seems to keep my deluded  impulses in check at the cost of personality.  I still believe, I'm close to a break through for ADHD and SEMEN RETENTION has been instrumental to this despite all the constant negging and haters. Not that I care because I'm obviously close to a breakthrough...I'm looking to live a dream life and SR IS apart of this?

 

                                                         /TLDR Hypersexuality tendencies, charisma, same energy levels, impulsivity is still the same ETC/ RANT/Off topic


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1.  07-12-2019: As I take a class In intro to MYTHOLOGY I am being mentally VIOLATED by disgusting filth that is WEAPONIZED aganist you. Now whether, you agree or not I don't give a two fuck as a recoverying and still recoverying PMO ADDICT you need to be aware that these images will EMMASCULATE YOU and I intend to file a complaint towards my teacher. Anyways, I've decided to  define weaponized Imagery and what it is exactly and why you must be aware? I just read a digusting filth textbook and had to USE PAPER to cover the filth which is my active strategy as of right now. So what exactly is weaponized imagery and why does it matter? Simply put, 

 

              A  Weaponized Imagery IS ANYTHING that seeks to objectify a women as an object within the context for the soul purpose of creating and generating ATTENTION. This is crucial because this is a womens main WEAPON aganist you not that I blame them but rather  society in general that has gone to EXTREME lengths to shove this disgusting filth in your face every minute of every waking moment. You might say what's the big deal? The big deal is that your being intentionally manipulated by the society around you to perpetually crave women like a drug. In the old days we would go MONTHS without seeking a girl and we would make no big deal of this. You don't want to waste your life-force. The act of objectification defiles anything or anyone it touches. If you partake in the activity you will make yourself an incel beta-male little fucking pussy.  Weaponized imagery comes in many forms and it's hard to go a day without an attractive chick CONSTANTLY being SHOVED in your fucking face like it's this end all GOAL. Girls' aint shit and you know the best way to control a man? Get something VISUAL IN  HIS line of SIGHT, why do you think men play video games at a higher rate than women do? Weaponized imagery comes in the form of magazines, tv commercials YOUTUBE ADS, TOXIC websites,  REAL LIFE Women demanding attention to feed their weak egos, all women are dependent upon extrinsic ATTENTION VALIDATION for their worth. Why do you think a girl will say your not attracted to her if you stop complimenting her EXTRINSIC LOOKS? A girl has been taught all her life she is an object and that is what society has burned into are memory...Without a real rarity of WOMEN your  life will become an unnaturality and every time you get a HIT you will be a drug addict just like anything else. Be ACTIVE AND BE AWARE. I will take a COVERED CHICK in a Boring TURTLE NECK sweater any day. Why? It's very simple, you actually appreciate the TIMES YOU SEE A REAL HUMAN FLESH girl. At the end of the day SEMEN retention teaches you pussy aint shit. That simple... Oh and while, I'm procrasting on my homework primarily from ADHD let me establish OTHER RULES: How do you Fuck without the fucking? Well, I've been thinking this through because the SEX WE HAVE NOW IS UNDISCIPLINED...

 

                  B.    So where am I getting at with this? If I want to RETAIN for the rest of my life? Well, if you've come this far you won't really want to FUCK. I'm serious.. it's a pain to get to this point and it's AGONY. So what is DISCIPLINED SEX? As with everything in life and all that ADHD-PI has taught me, that all addictions and all pleasure inevitably destroys the user in the PROCESS of the experience and leaves them WORSE off and DEPENDENT. Their is no point in SEX for purely pleasure purposes at least not within the hedonistic context.   Your GOAL when you Fuck her isn't to Fuck her. Don't get me wrong, I want to date and makeout with tons of girls but the problem is that you still objectify her. There is no point in this because the object is what controls you. You are NOT in control.  Your purpose is emotional bonding instead of pleasure. Pleasure is purely a one dichtomy and if you know ADHD or you have it you already know that you will always chase the HIGH.  So I will lay some basic ground rules for retaining LIFE-FORCE and HAVING  girl friend, LIKE SO: KEEP IN MIND I HAVE NOT PRACTICED THIS AND THIS IS COMING FROM A BETA-MALE INCEL VIRGIN: So I'm not pretending to know the ins/out this is at least what I would do if I start dating a 8/10-7/10 whatever doesn't fucken matter.

 

                  C.   NO BLOWJOBS under any circumstance: That's right you heard me absolutely no lip action or nothing. This is the most reviled of all of sexual DEFILING of your masculinity. You might say what is the big deal of this? Your basically trading off short-term pleasure for YOUR LIFE-FORCE and in the process it will EMASCULATE you or in other words make you more of a pussy. You are objectifying yourself and subjugating yourself effectively to get HIGH. You will say NO under all circumstances because this is the pinnacle of life-force wasting.

                    D.  NO Life-force wasting Sex: You won't be doing any-type of rough sex/ or even any type  life-forcing wasting sex under ANY circumstance.

                    E. You USE LIFE-FORCE only under the simple assumption that you seek to procreate and for no other purpose. If you can benefit from it and use that self-control to your advantage then you have no incentive to waste it for ANY REASON No matter what she says it doesn't fucken matter. 

                     F.       You will RE-ENGAGE from an energy perspective rather than a pleasure perspective. The incentive is no longer pleasure objectification that creates dependency. All dependencys' inevitably DESTROY the user in the process and this is NO different.  Instead, your goal is to seek emotional UNITY of being and to appreciate the feminine/masculine dance that becomes wholeness instead. Rather, you are creating a deeper form of "Bonding" that generates appreciation of the identity of the person you are loving rather than seeking to defile what you are becoming one with.  Notice, you engage with reciprocation rather than deprecation. Anything you defile will hurt you in the process.  Furthermore, you appreciate the feminine polarity of what is OPPOSITE Of you. The masculine seeks the feminine and like so. By doing so, you create a stronger bond and your lovingness is merely a greater emotional connection which is a akin to merging the self towards a cognitive connection. Which I will not be explaining sense I'm working out the details on this.

   

                       G.     KAREZZA SEX: This is a sustainable form of sex where you ONLY penetrate purely for emotional purposes and to create a form of sustained  being rather than the opposite. This will be VERY VERY SLOW and the goal is not to enable life-force wasting but to create a deeper intimacy and appreciation for both bodies extrinsically and intrinsically.  This will require PRACTICE and DISCIPLINE TO ACHIEVE. You will NOT ORGASM NEVER EVER.. This is still the same as looking for pleasure and it's the same hedonistic desire that got you into the mess in the first place?

 

                       H.  Engage her in oral if you wish:  I've found no negative net loss from life-force experience towards the person carrying this out but feel free to do this until I find a reason to say otherwise. 

 

                         I.  FOCUS ON BODY UNITY Than body objectification: Quit focusing on one part of any single body and remember your goal is to become one with a person and not an object: Appreciate the entire body rather than simply ignoring one part in comparison to all of it. If you are truly not controlled by the sex but by the goal of emotional intimacy and unity then it will not fucking matter. Just remember this.

 

                        J . Get an Understanding Chick: Honestly this, is very extreme but this is the best method I've been developing for some time now, don't waste your time on some chick just for the giggles they aint as important as you think it is.  Find the chick that wants you to GROW and BUILDS YOU UP.   Oh and sex isn't a BIG DEAL, So Chill out Bro.

 

                       K.  You will be ALPHA than all your beta friends not getting any? You know why? You can say no and not give a fuck. You can go years and years and NOT CARE and they will whine because they are undisciplined and seeking that CONSTANT high while wasting life-force. Meanwhile, that chick is using that dude for resources while she is looking for something more exciting. Hence, they ARE unattractive and EXPENDABLE. You Can say NO to a BJ? What guy would TURN THAT DOWN?  YOU WILL BECAUSE YOU value  YOUR MASCULINITY over your short-term pleasure over some stupid chick you barely care about.  Above all you will have LIFE-SATISFACTION not DEPENDENT UPON  a SEX LIFE but  A LOVE-LIFE INSTEAD. 

 

                      L. Your Goal? Be a MASTER-DISCIPLINED Love Maker, You can SAY NO and NOT CARE because your life-force is WAY more important and that increased testosterone is FUN. She will throw herself at you and you still won't give a shit. You can say NO and it won't phase you. She will get angry because she hasn't gotten you ADDICTED and that's the point.  You will have greater LONG-TERM intimacy and EMOTIONAL BONDING which is LONG TERM while pleasure IS NOT AND gives diminishing RETURNS. Bottom LINE: These are the RULES of the BEDROOM and when you need to smash you will be a master SMASHER and she will never leave and even if she did you still wouldn't care.  OH AND ABOVE ALL, THIS IS ALL VOLUNTARY, their is no need for manipulation, coercion, defiling, defamation, guilt-tripping, abuse or anything NEEDED. You know why? You literally do not give a fuck because your life-force beats anything she can offer. You are basically invincible while you set the rules of the game. These are THE RULES OF THE BEDROOM so FOLLOW THEM...

 

             2. Conclusion: I hope this was useful for people wondering how to fuck without wasting that LIFE-FORCE. Just remember, that this is EXTREME and it MUST Be adhered to or you will be no better than those life-force wasting beta-males. I'm not advocating you have no sexual experience while your young. In fact, you should get a good degree of experience before you EVEN go on the semen retention journey. The more experience the better. Once you reality the futility of sex and GAMING then you will mature to this phase. I'm assuming that you are NEUROTYPICAL which means getting chicks should be easy. Ironically, enough I'm a beta-male incel virgin but that's only because of ADHD-PI and ritalin that has caused those issues so if you are ABNORMAL then you will have conditional problems. I wouldn't reccomend these rules if you have the social skills of a rock. ESPECIALLY not for AUTISTIC people you will need another set of your OWN RULES. Carry on  and keep RETAINING the life-force.

 

                                                     /TLDR  THE RULES OF SR SEX CONDUCT? HOW TO?

                         

 

                            

                               

 

                                  


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Posted 28 July 2019 - 04:34 AM

5/30: 07-27-2019: 

 

                                  1.  I haven't updated this post in a good while simply, because I've been away and have finally moved back to California after a horrible stint and I'm going to be 23 pretty soon, crazy how old I am getting.  I toke almost a whopping 100 MG of ritalin to get me through that unholy awful drive that we call 1100 miles and it was a challenge. I will report to you that I failed and had a minor relapse but it really didn't affect me very much. I wasn't really phased by it and just started all over again at 5-30 days and am committed to reaching 365 days despite the lack of support from this thread, I suppose it really doesn't matter at this point. Has anything changed? If it makes you feel better I hit on a girl and some random dude went talking shit to me, so I wasn't really happy about the reception I'm still getting with ladies and my overall beta-incel-virgin males tendencies that still remain. So, I will begin transitioning into the next steps of retaining pure life-force as we continue on the semen-retention journey.  I've been very fortunate that an asian lady offered me her entire house, she is basically a millionaire I think it's rather funny because she sold her house in San Jose and brought a bigger one where I'm at. Comparatively, I have everything now, Free tuition, stupidly cheap rent, a POOL which is being built and a very nice clean apartment with a good influence and she has  A SON with ADHD and SHE understands the medication paradox. I also got to keep my CAR. Comparatively, speaking I'm still suffering from chronic boredom and may start smoking weed pretty soon to treat the ADHD or just use pure CBD oil for the anxiety. I'm STILL SCATTERED as hell... I have some focus with Software programming and automotive technology I just lack commitment and haven't been practicing consistently again.  So safe to say, I'm back at SQUARE ONE again and I CUCKED myself...It's ok though I will be back to my streak once again and I will DO IT AGAIN until I succeed. That is all.


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Posted 21 August 2019 - 05:59 PM

30/30:    08/21/2019

 

                                  1. A Minor report, that I've managed to get back to my 30 days of pure retention for the 10 time in a row and this time it was as hard as it was before with repeated flashbacks. In other news, it's rather nice that I no longer have any form of incontinence or leaking of urine involuntary speaking, as for some reason this appears to have gone away. I've largely, been able to workout more consistently sense, I've arrived back iun california for the time  being hopefully, to where I can finish off this degree and we will see what happens from that point onward. As usual, I will continue this thread until I hit 365/365 then I will transition off this platform onto my own personal website where I will continue documenting  various topics of intrigue. For those, that are still interested in the method of transmutation, it's very likely that Transmuting sexual energy is a myth and most of the benefits largely reported are all placebo. The only differences, I've noticed is a much thicker beard, thicker chest hair, a noticably deeper voice than I've had before. I went back to 1 and half ago and my voice was considerably lower pitch or high volume, so maybe their is something going on with that as well, it's unclear. Other than, that I've noticed no other benefits but I will continue retaining life-force for 1 year straight and will not stop until this goal has been achieved.


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Posted 03 September 2019 - 03:37 AM

11/15: 09/2/2019:

 

                      1. I thought I'd update this thread out of Pure boredom, So I want to discuss some of the rebound effects of post-life force waste in comparison to pure retention. So what do I mean by this? Well, it's fairly simple most of my client business seemed to dry-up after the end of last week and I'm back to no clients and the net-loss continues with no real changes of trend in accordance with holding money over a long-period of time.  Pre-30+ day retention I had tons of clients on and off meds and tons of money coming in and then all of sudden my clients were  not calling me anymore and not returning any of my phone calls which is interesting to say the least.  So, I suppose we could attribute this post-semen retention with a bad fortune of luck, I'm not really sure to say the least but it can definitely fuck with your head. Are they hiring you for "YOU?" or for something "else?". Well, I've been doing this for a good long-time so, it's probably a mixture of both but my last long-term client  basically outsourced me for a mexican illegal which got me pretty mad. In fairness I was late in all my appointments but still felt betrayed, I suppose I had that coming. Not that I care in the slightest because I don't....So where am I getting at? If you are given success via semen-retention this success is probably very dependent upon the retention of your life-force and when you waste it, it may shrivel up on you in the process so be very careful. Again, it's probably pseudoscience but most of my clients have all dried up on me and I've basically plateaued on everything these days.   I highly doubt I will relapse again, it's simply not worth it... the pain and the time it takes was regretable. I would like to indicate that on day that I Had horrible migraine like pains and had to scream in a pillow for some reason, my head was hurting very badly and I've had this happen multiple times, I don't know if it's built up testosterone or what but the cravings on day 33 magnified so dramatically it wasn't funny. In fairness I was on 54 mg on concerta and it made me borderline susicidal, maybe that has something to do with it? I've no idea..

 

                     2. What else has been going on? Have I been transmuting life-force? Nope, I've been pretty depressed and basically plateaued on most of everything as of late and am seriously considering leaving the states all over again to somewhere even farther away than ever before.  Perhaps, my inner struggle with hard-core pornographic materials is reflective of my battle with ADD and my  inability to reconcile? Everyday is a long monotony to the next day and everyday feels like a fog where I'm constantly grinding but making no measureable progress. I must say susicide still feels like a paltry option these days... surely something has to give? Everyday, I collapse fucking exhausted with no metric to my success and nothing to show for other than a perpetual net-loss in my bank account seems to be the common trend. Otherwise, I've nothing to say other than a re-commitment to the semen-retention lifestyle and this time I will do it properly with FULL MEDITATIONS to transmute the energy to see if it makes any measureable difference which it probably won't. Once again, I will reaffirm the notion that I will stop this thread the moment, I hit 365/365. Otherwise, I've seen no measureable improvements with SR other than a bit of magnetism but I've long sense gotten used to that effect of SR that I don't care about it anymore. I must say, it's a depressing time you little losers are probably enjoying this but in the end it's ok because you will be in my position one day. The only difference is I don't quit. Oh on the bright side, I get to sit next to a stupidly hot girl in my computer science course which I was considering dropping.. That is the highlight of my day tommorow, which is fucking pathetic...I believe an ideal death for me is either a cerebral hemmorage or a stroke at the base of the brainstem that could cause instant-death. I've another fantasy of using carbon monoxide gas for a painless "sleep" to end the torment.  Now, that you ignore the pity, we must reaffirm retaining the life-force because it's the only way forward, we must not quit even in the face of it all. Continue Onward.... I will update on day thirty then every 15 days sense, I've nothing more useful to contribute to this conversation. 

 

                                                                   P.s I suspect, I will continue doing this grind until the wheels fall off or I die of a stroke. I've had fantasys of getting a shotgun and ending it in the forest as well. Would be a fun way to go.. Anyways Continue onward and continue with CONSISTENCY until  we FALL APART.



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09-10-2019:

                 1.  As I continue to re-compound the life-force until we hit one year of pure semen retention and pure transmutation, I will explore the concepts of SMV(Sexual market Value) and we will begin integrating this concept into the greater concept of responsible sexuality and an eventual banning of all hardcore pornographic materials. It's important that we reframe are view of pornography as we do, as life-force. Life-force=pure semen your purest manly essence that NEEDS to be retained at all COST and must be WASTED for nothing. Then, we must view pornography as a form of drug trade that is basically legalized form of drug selling//heroin trade which allows you to STOP because of this negative association. Ask yourself, how many times in nature did the average beta-blue-pill smoe get to see a naked chick? Very very rarely, in-fact it probably explains why it's so addicting. You are not meant to ever see that condition of the female body, Hence constantly explaining my relapse even after 6 months of pure semen, I still found myself with these cravings because I kept getting hit up on weaponized imagery. So what do you we do this time to assure 365 days? Well, invest in a VERY GOOD ad-blocker because 50% of the brainwash or aka weaponized imagery comes from ADS, that are using your visual weakness to their advantaged and this will NOT serve you accordingly. Ad-blocker has helped reduced the exposure to over-sexualized smut accordingly and honestly, let's just face it we are simply perverted little drug addicts and you will probably always be one. Whatever the Pornography did to my mind, seems to have created some very very deep wiring, that will probably never truly go away. So your best method is pure abstinence for the rest of your life...Now, you also noticed that I'm talking about the Red-pill philosophy and The rationale male. I've been studying these concepts and I believe that Rollo Tomassi has some very useful concepts that can reinforce the commitment to PURE RETENTION of your life-force. So what is SMV?

 

                2.  Smv is simply your sexual market value over a course of time,  initially women have a drastic advantage over us men primarily because their SMV is defined all ON LOOKS. SMV of women is defined around the age of 18-23 is when they are at their PEAK VALUE. As I know most of the people reading this thread, are sexually frustrated YOUNG MEN, Well now you have your answer on why it's so hard to retain life-force and to even get these women to begin with. You are hitting on them at their PEAK value when they have MANY MANY options.  Then, Rollo Tommassi defines man's sexual market value to peak at 38-45. This is typically, when your sexual market value peaks when you have RESOURCES, Status, prestige and greater maturity. Whereas, most women SELL OFF their stock at around 30 when they get ugly. Most men SETTLE very early on despite the fact, you haven't even hit your stride and have been basically invisible for the most if not ALL of your 20's. So what does this mean in relation to semen retention? Well it means, that you can RETAIN YOUR LIFE-FORCE with little consequence if you are patient and are willing to wait. This goes to your advantage of the perpetual improvement that you SHOULD be doing so, that you HIT YOUR PEAK in your 30's. You need to be planning for that SMV, because it's only going to happen once before you hit a  hard decline. Marginally, you can RETAIN in your 20'S and enjoy tons of karezza promiscuous sex in your 30's that you were denied because of stupid SMV women in their peak 20 years. 

 

                 3. With semen-retention you continually compound your LIFE-FORCE and you can CASH out when you get sick of being a monk and then you can keep recycling according to your preferences. SR is NOT sustainable simply because your testosterone is constantly surging and it requires that you are always productive or always DOING SOMETHING. Realistically, you might slip as I have slipped or you might accidently waste your life-force on accident it's simply going to happen. This doesn't mean that you shoulnd't be retaining life-force or is an excuse for pornography. Rather, it's just incredibly difficult to sustain over a long-time span. The next thing you need to realize, is that SR CAN enable and maximize are sexual strategy. So when your 32 DON'T GET MARRIED. Don't lock yourself down when a girl is CASHING OUT OF THE MARKET. Enjoy it and they will COME TO YOU. IN 5 years that girl who thinks she's the shit will be nothing when those looks go bye bye..  This is like a strategy game but we have to play are cards right and remain patient. They are short-term and we are LONG-TERM. Semen-retention is about disciplining yourself and really developing those delay-gratification skills, so that we can work towards maximizing that SMV. I believe that are goal is to retain life-force and keep transmuting to keep raising are SMV level and then CASH OUT. Sooner or later your just gonna lose it anyways and then you have to start all over again.

 

               4.  Semen-retention is a lonely experience so consider getting a dog or a companion and that will sustain your woes.  Day after day, week by week, month by month you will increase your PEAK smv and transmute that life-force towards a greater existence but only through consistency, perseverance and discipline is this a possibility. Primarily, from my hundreds of failures with retaining life-force SR makes you,angry, belligerent, sexually-charged, full of rage, charismatic and forceful. You attract people in difference phases, which i can draw out on  a graph, so that you can better predict it.  Before, you can even begin planning for this 20 year plan, we must LET GO OF HARDCORE pornography. It's always been this crutch for all of our problems, from running from old friends, to compensating for are pathetic girl problems, it's like an old parasitic friend we can rely upon to OPT out from the responsibility around us. In the end, it destroys us and we have say GOODBYE to it FOREVER and I'm starting to learn because I was focused on RETAINING but not on TOTALLY CHANGING MYSELF. You NEED a good ad-blocker and limit all exposure so we can really rewire that brain, which could take a year OR LONGER. Maybe 3 years it the time it takes. Once we let go and hit 365, we will finally get that opportunity to BE ALL THAT WE CAN BE.  When we break free of pornography, we must go through the 5 stages of GRIEF, we are LITERALLY IN denial that are GOOD OL RELIABLE, is GONE FOREVER.

              

              5. ON day 177 when I wasted that FUNDAMENTAL essence of my being, I knew it wouldn't do anything for me but I VOLUNTARILY DID it and no one forced me to. Was it worth it? NO, and I'm still grieving over that hainious defiling that I DID to myself. So what are the next steps to pure life-force retention? We MUST BREAK emotional dependency from women. All are LIVES we are literally brainwashed into thinking that you NEED a girl to give you emotional validation and comfort. Well, the Rationale-male opens your mind to the real truths of HYPER-GAMY. A women's love is always conditional, while a man's is unconditional. You must then realize, the true NATURE of every last girl on this planet, it does not matter who it is.  A girl will never LOVE you or give you that emotional comfort, that you are seeking, it does not EXIST. I only further realized this emotional beta nature of myself when I realized, that I WAS STILL seeking an idealization, despite being red-pilled for well over 4 years. A girl is INCAPABLE of loving you the way a guy loves another.  A girl will always value you based on WHAT YOU ARE, not who you ARE. Your value is always DEPENDENT on what she CAN GAIN from YOU. Your resources, looks, assets, and ability to PROTECT HER will ALWAYS be trump who YOU ARE. This means they are incapable of True love.  Hypergamy knows NO LOYALTY, but only to trade up to maximize her SMV(Sexual market value). So STOP LOOKING FOR IT IN A CHICK, this will make your LONELINESS MORE TOLERABLE. That is a girl's nature and it does not matter what you say. That is why a girl is always attracted to you when you have a JOB then when you DON'T Have one your INVISIBLE. No matter your looks, book knowledge, trivia knowledge, personality none of that shit matters. It's what you do that defines the quota of ATTRACTION. So now, that you know a girl can never LOVE or be LOYAL no MATTER what even if she professes loyalty you won't whine about your perpetual loneliness.  MY Recommendation INVEST IN YOUR GUY FRIENDS, They are LOYAL and will love you like a brother, they don't give a shit about your resources. Thus, once we stop looking for that companionship we will NOT NEED it from her because she is incapable of providing it. 

                 6.  Once you acknowledge, that a girl is a NICE THING TO LOOK AT and is INCAPABLE of real love because of HYPER-GAMY, then you will stop seeking it from what it can NEVER PROVIDE. NEVER EVER.  Then, we must break the bonds of emotional dependency that have been inculcated from the media and propaganda.What does this mean? It means having emotional BACKUPS so you don't ever depend on the feminine energy for her useless comfort. Have a dog, a dog will always BE LOYAL to you and it does not judge. By having a dog, you will be conditionally free from the problems  and dependencies  of women. You won't have those fucking cravings because they are met ELSEWHERE. This means diversify your emotional need, go to church, have a dog, have guy FRIENDS, invest in a good hobby because it's gonna get VERY LONELY on the path to retention. Pick up a good AGGRESSIVE HOBBY, like a martial art to TRANSFER that masculine into GOOD healthy competition.  By doing so, you will be so sufficient emotionally and mentally you will NEED NOTHING from her. You have FREED YOURSELF, from pornography, YOU REALIZE her nature and you have become emotionally INDEPENDENT. Now, day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year you keep doing what your doing you don't STOP. You keep patiently waiting for the day your SMV SPIKES while her's FALLS and when it does you will have spent the LAST 15 YEARS WORKING and self-improving.  Notice, I've never quit even despite the rediciule and negative attention I've received . Then one day, you will be in CONTROL and it will be the other way around.  Lastly, recognize alot of your idealizations of WOMEN ARE ALL WRONG and if you carry them over it will be HARD TO RETAIN and transmute that life-force. Above all, this is your goal to keep transmuting and keep persisting until your DAY WILL COME but only through that hard-work grind can you overcome.  I also want to emphasize, that if you realize, what hypergamy is and or WHAT YOUR SEXUAL strategy is your basically gimping yourself on the sexual market. Hypergamy, makes a girl a machialvellian being that will always VIEW YOU AS EXPENDABLE NO MATTER WHAT. This means when you CO-HABITUATE AND NOT MARRY, You will have to continually self-improve UNTIL YOU DIE.  Hypergamy is never satisfied and that is why a DOG is mans BEST FRIEND AND LOYAl. You want loyalty GET A DOG.

 

                                                                                            P.s: My next goal, after I finish this will be to REFUSE SEX despite it being offered to ME, which shows SELF-CONTROL. This is the pinnacle of your dominance over your life-force and it would be pretty funny. Also, I have ADD-Pi so it may be WAY easier if your NEUROTYPICAL. 

 

                                 /TLDR RED-PILL SMV, Planning for the future, realize the true nature of women etc.


Edited by MichaelFocus22, 11 September 2019 - 12:20 AM.


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Posted 22 September 2019 - 10:51 PM

09/22/2019:     31/30

 

                                1. I've finally hit 30 days again and man was relapsing not worth it... Ended up loosing ALL of my clients during this time, I've no idea if this is a coincedence or not. Money became very scarce the coming 2 weeks after loosing my life-force, phone-calls and interviews became very scarce as well. Objectively, I didn't feel very different but it just felt like a huge on-slaught of bad things that kept happening consecutively. I've no idea, if this has anything to do with semen-retention but I can assure you, I suspect this will be the last time, I'm going to relapse.. So what were some effects that I noted?

 

                               2.  Total Loss Of Ambition Tangibility: I don't know how to describe it but it was like I had ambition but I lost a dynamic spark within me that seemed to give me some type of advantage over my old ADD baseline self. I felt a greater ability to delay-gratification and greater intellectual prowess which abnormally sharper. Not to say, that I'm not already intellectual sharp but moereso. I kept churning out videos and what not but  it wasn't the same nor was it as dynamic. I didn't feel I could make my dreams happen as much? I've no idea if this is just placebo I'm making it clear I wasn't even paying attention to the SR and automatically defaulted to re-retaining semen.

 

                              3.  Disgust and Repulsion: This should be ESPECIALLY poignant for all my beta-male incels out their who want  to use PORN as a crutch, if something makes you feel ASHAMED of yourself and you feel the need to hide it, then it's PROBABLY unnatural and incredibly damaging to you. Whatever porn did to me, it may have damaged me psychologically.. Not sure what it is but It's a deep seated hard-wiring that may take years to UNDO. PORN will always do more damage than good to you even if you think the short-term is justified. It's simply not worth it. You also need to respect the act of defiling yourself and realize, what your actually doing to yourself. I've attempted to stop this well over 100+ TIMES it's the hardest addiction I've ever wanted to QUIT but keep failing.  What porn does to your brain is PERMANENT and that is why you must AVOID it all cost.  I would equate to Pornography to Heroine of the Mind. It's really that fucking serious.. I often wonder what type of person, I would have been had I not been exposed to it? Sadly, I was defiled as early as the age of 6. I may check myself into a sex Rehab to Truly Recuperate if necessary. Respect this drug or it will rob you.

                            

                           4.  No Matter How much you Think you are Strong you can Fail: Every-time I relapsed I could have stopped myself but choose not to. This means I'm responsible for my own suffering and greater perpetuation of this addiction. Why? It gives me comfort and why I'm always running away from my problems.  For those starting the journey,   you will look to blame everyone else BUT YOURSELF.  Even after 6 months It felt like physical torture and agony because of my sex drive. For as Long as you are a slave to your sex-drive, you will never be in control.

 

                         5. Be Stoic: Despite, relaapsing I did not do anything or get angry with myself I merely resumed the day and understood the consequences that would come from wasting my life-force. Don't pity and don't fret, just continue witht he right now and the appointments. Even when I LOST EVERY SINGLE Client to pay bills, I knew that Life ebbs and flows and semen-retention is like the nature of the seasons.  Day by day week by week I knew I'd get new clients and slowly, I'm rebuilding from the mistake that I made and my clients are slowly coming back.  I knew from the past experiences, that time would go in my favor  and so it did. Not that I'm claming I'm rich, i'm not I will probably be broke sooner rather than later. Regardless, Respond to the situation with X action and that is all.

                       6.  What you Experience On SR is Conditional: Understand that the changes you are going through are NOT permanent and when they leave, you will get angry. I've found no way to have the benefits of SR after retaining semen. It seems there is no way to really control this mind-state which is rather frustrating...Nonetheless, even if their is no beneficial direct benefit from SR, you should do it anyways for the simple fact that pornography is horrible for you and for self-discipline. That is reason enough alone.

 

                             Conclusion: I will Continue to update this thread periodically for anecdotal revelations and stop updating once, I hit one year or Maybe 2 years. No idea, yet we will see what happens, I also wanted to add, that I reccomend reading the Rationale Male By Rollo Tomassi, It's an excellent book for red-pill knowledge but useful in realizing the biological realities of both sexes. The rationale male is contradictory to semen-retention practice but it's useful for seeing why you get specific responses and might give some insight into female nature. Nonetheless, I'm an advocate for maximizing your SMV(Sexual Market Value) through perpetual self-improvement and if you play your cards correctly and your a privileged neurotypical then you should have any choice of women, in your 30's in 40's. This means, you shouldn't marry early or your simply gimping yourself to prior commitment to a declining SMV girl who is cashing out. This is now my new strategy for the next 20 years is to constantly self-improve until my SMV Peaks. For all incels  and Beta's* who are practicing SR for girls, your wasting your time. The simplest answer to maximizing your ability to get any girl is to amass as many resources as possible and you will get the greatest number of chicks. It explains girls are like magnets to me the moment I have even a remotely stable job. FOCUS on amassing resources and the rest is easy.  This is off topic but important for incels focusing on SR for girls, it won't work. It's better you use SR Transmutation to amass resources instead.   

 

                                    /TLDR 31/31 Finally hit it again, 31/365 days to go and Will have achieved goal, focus on amassing resurces, ebb and flows of life, Lost all My clients?



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Posted 06 October 2019 - 03:48 AM

45/45  1. I'll just go ahead and count this as we move closer towards 365 days and I just wanted to briefly update on the conditional state of Semen retention and the effects of transmutation on my ADHD-PI. I've noticed only minor improvements on my ability to manipulate the environment around me towards my advantage. I call it increased fluid thinking which makes me smarter and a better problem solver, than I normally am, in my busted PMO state. Otherwise, I'm still very scatter-brained lack long-term focus to really focus on my goals and projects to really get anything done of consequence. Right, now I've basically plateaued on what I call potential "wise" using stimulants, which have basically allowed my SR streaks to get this far because it's much easier to control impulses. Otherwise- I'm not really sure what to do anymore objectively, SR hasn't necessarily given me an inherit advantage but their seems to be a predictable pattern that I've discovered. 1-4 Days your generally a stupidly confident, By day 7 you peak and girls obviously flirt and what not. I've long sense stopped caring about that but did it a long time ago for superficial reasons. You first cravings are worse during the first 2 weeks and then by day 14-21 people start acting aggressively with you and want to fight you. I've multiple people confront me for no reason at all and get fairly confrontational with them. By day 30+ things become very easy and you get a high baseline self with some improved focus along with a greater degree of charisma and a loud voice apparently. People say my voice echoes through rooms apparently. I'm no closer on meds to getting that key job, because for whatever reason, I'm not getting job call-backs and my meds seem to be somehow affecting my academic performance,which I've illustrated in my video. So, Have I been transmuting my Life-force? I would say I'm transmuting it through my daily activities and it helps not thinking about anything and your mind is much more clean. Overall, the best effect is this intrinsic confidence, that isn't easily penetrated by the problems around you. Otherwise, I'm not sure what to do anymore, I'm on the verge of going broke and have reached my "limits" it seems. SR definietly makes me feel healthier and that's enough for me. I highly doubt I will relapse again but you must always be careful. It's like quitting heroin,  Once you take it you will always have that addiction path way, A part of you has been distorted and perverted and it will take 5-10 years probably to truly recover. Even at 6 months, I literally bruised my nuts subconsciously because of my sex-drive. Don't underestimate your subconscious and the power of your sexual energy.. I almost broke my nuts apparently according to the DR and had perpetual incontinence or leaking. So there is definitely damage done to you, it's not an "innocent thing you do", that's what the media has brainwashed into you believing. Otherwise, I'm looking forward to getting back to day 200 and considering doing 1000 days of pure semen retention. Don't reccomend this if your neurotypical, I would date many chicks if I was normal. I don't care for myself sense, I'm fine being single forever. Anyways, I hope I can reconcile this contradiction of success with stimulants.  Otherwise, I seem no closer than when I started my journey... It feels like I'm missing fundamental to my pure Semen journey, something I've missed that is denying me my total success? Who knows? Also had thoughts of ending my life on one of my tree's outside. It's a quality oak tree and a good rope would do the job. I already have a ladder prepared.. It feels like a viable option? This is a new thought process for sure. Anyways, onward to 365 regardless of the outcome.

 

                               /TLDR Minor Improvements On Charisma, No effect on ADHD, Still going broke,  minor susicidal-ideation, sex-drive is high, absolute plateau on all potential.

 



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Posted 27 October 2019 - 07:45 AM

1. 10/27/2019:  I wanted to Add this Quote From the Way of A Superior Man: By David Deida:  "But not until then. Every time she feels you contorting into your own sensations, she feels you "gone," not present, not trustable. She may enjoy giving you an ejaculation, but a deeper, perhaps unexpressed, part of herself will not trust you. Why should she? Why should she expose her deepest part, her most vulnerable heart, only to have you convolute in a paroxysm of self-possessed gratification, followed by your withdrawal into post-ejaculative relational non-interest? Every time she sucks you into an uncontrollable need to ejaculate, she has conquered you. She controls you and masters you. She is in charge, sexually, no matter what manly gestures you make before ejaculating. With a simple flick of her tongue, a silky moan, or a slurping tilt of her pelvis, she can drain you of life. "- P.g 182 David Deida 

         It's very intriguing that he wrote this in 1997 well before any established thoughts of the retention way existed. Simply, any man who should decide to defile himself is indirectly a slave to all women because he is perpetually incapable of denying his own self-gratification. By defiling yourself, she has tamed you and you have cucked yourself like a lion with no claws. You can never expect, to sexually transmute otherwise? We seem to have some evidence for supporting intentional semen usage and transmutation theory. Furthermore, Semen-retention is a subtle means of re-asserting sexual control over ones-self until you are a master of your own domain. Aka delay-gratification



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Posted 28 October 2019 - 04:39 PM

1. 10-28-2019: I'm just doing a slight update after close to 70 days and wanted to ADD, that my streak may have been slightly tainted from retrograde ejaculation which means I somehow stimulated myself to piss semen in urine ? I didn't even know this was possible... It probably has to do with my fantasizing dreams which means my sexual control is still not absolute. I've had various sexual fantasies that may have been contributing to this. I'm going to be honest  it's nearly impossible to absolutely control your libido and keep an absolutely clean streak. which is 365 days with not one episode of semen loss. I will classify, this as a semi-dirty streak because I am obviously still too much of a fucking weakling. We must have absolute biological control over everything, anything that is involuntary is merely an excuse for not having control still.. I'm tempted to just restart all over again...  I literally inspected my own piss and it's not absolutely verifiable that semen was lost because most of it dissapated. Could have been air bubbles? Not sure, I will still classify this as a semi-pure streak sense I did not voluntarly look at porn or beat my meat. In conclusion, I will just continue this streak  until 365. I've had ambitions of doing 1000 days of Pure semen-retention to absolutely crush all sexual desire out of my soul. That is all


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