Posted 03 April 2014 - 01:33 PM
Posted 16 April 2014 - 05:55 AM
Every time I go there they mis-cook my ahi, and I only go there to eat it. Words mean nothing to them, and my concerns seem silly to them. I thought I heard them laughing as I left. Those assholes! They are such racist fuckfaces. I hate you, you fucking racist fuckfaces.
Posted 17 April 2014 - 10:39 PM
Not making enough from my career to spend money on marketing to make more money at my career.
The fact that due to my aging, hot babes "10's" are increasingly difficult (almost impossible) to attract and date.
That the U.S. is trying to start WWIII
Edited by robosapiens, 17 April 2014 - 10:42 PM.
Posted 26 June 2014 - 02:29 AM
It's bothering me now to see so many people so 'ferevently' bothered 
Not a criticism, and trust that I know rough like most could not even imagine (literally), but maybe for every bothered thought you put 'pen to paper' (sorta), do try to think of perhaps writing something you are grateful for
Within that, I am grateful for the forum Longecity affords people to learn, 'gather', share, express themselves, educate others, etc etc 
As well, i am grateful to see people feeling comfortable to relating their discomforts; some of which was quite interesting and/or entertaining...and hopefully it provides some catharsis as well as for those who read such, a sense of not being alone in their discomfort.
Anyway, glad to lend an ear, LOL 
Best thoughts to you all 
Edited by VERITAS INCORRUPTUS, 26 June 2014 - 02:37 AM.
Posted 26 June 2014 - 04:44 AM
This thread is six pages long so I'll repost the rules.
Thread Rules:
please don't use this thread to write about this site.
supportive feedback only, please
please, no advice or criticism to the posters
no debating
Post don't have to make sense.
This intended to be a safe place to vent without being critiqued or having to explain oneself.
Posted 26 June 2014 - 11:39 AM
Oh boy, here we go. The fact that I already know how I'm going to die. I'm certainly going to kill myself.
Am I depressed? Kind of, but that isn't exactly why. I know how hopelessly worthless life is. There is no goal, no endgame, it's just eat, buy, consume, die, or at least that's how the corporations that own just a hair under everything would have me believe.
Am I paranoid? No, I don't think anyone is out to get ME, personally, but I do know that the whole of Western Society is a very clever exercise in control. Universally spread pop music with easily-hummable melodies and third grade dropout quality lyricism subtly trying to sell me products or a lifestyle. Commercials from companies that already have my business trying to perpetuate the same vague "happy-go-cave-into-silly-human-vices" lifestyle as the top 40 instead of selling a product, for the aforementioned reason. All of the major political debates being uninteresting and unimportant filler, while real issues are never addressed. Oh, let's not forget this new wave of unrealistic, general-spectrum, illogical optimism in pop culture. It's all marketing! Similalry related to that, there's also the government telling everyone how free they are. Are you kidding me? We are all being spied on by the NSA, openly. We can own land, but we can't own what's under it, or above it. I can't do ANYTHING AT ALL without being taxed (have an income, own land, buy anything). I can't do what I want with/to my body. It's all a fucking illusion! I get that taxes DO help in a lot of cases, but do you really think some of that revenue isn't being squandered somewhere down the line? I want to see the receipts for all of this fucking roadwork/school building/job creating that I never actually get to witness! It isn't that I have to pay taxes, it's that every conceivable activity of my everyday life is subject to taxation. Just give me a set fucking amount of money to pay, is that so difficult?
Am I hopeless? What is there to hope for? A less-than-average amount of pain and suffering during my lifetime until I die? A somewhat-secure occupation in which I slave away for a pittance? How fucking pathetic!
Am I faithless? You bet.
It isn't pessimism, it's realism. I'm not going to cry myself a fucking river over the above, I'm simply indifferent to the choice between the whole shebang vs. not existing. It isn't fun, it isn't worth half a shit, and that isn't enough for me. I could assign my own meaning to life, but that would be delusional. I already have goals, but my goals don't define who I am. I don't even fucking care who I am.
It feels like I know too many of society's dirty little secrets, the largest of which being how hastily cobbled together, astroturfed, and duct-taped the whole system is. I'm no conspiracy theorist, I just see what's there. It's a facade that looks like some convoluted, needlessly complex, broken system, but in reality, it's just a bunch of rich old men circlejerking over on a pile of money while discussing how to get more from people who barely have any at all. All of these politicians go around talking all of this horseshit about how they're going to bring America back, and all I hear is: "Vote for me, Whitey McGreyhair! Only I know what's best for you! Everyone else is lying!".
I could ignore it, sure, but that's what everyone else does. It's easy mode. I could escape it, too, but what good would that do? I could be a self-made man who has his own personal farm on 5 acres in the wilderness, just live completely alone. It would be great for a while, but I'd eventually come back to the realization that I'm just running away from bullshit that will eventually catch up to me.
Edited by Lobotomy, 26 June 2014 - 12:05 PM.
Posted 26 June 2014 - 03:24 PM
^^^
Sadly, though honestly, I agree with your perception of reality as more or less dead on.
Unless something is binding one here within some 'greater purpose' what is the purpose?...really...?
In the end while one chooses to exist, there is some need to grasp on to any purpose, though if none seem greater than oneself, wherein lies even perhaps any point to bear the reality that is as more or less as described.
If someone can find some level of contentedness, in some fashion, within some greater purpose, or simply one in which they can maintain a reasonable level of 'comfort' (of any nature), certainly perhaps they may find an existence that appears to have worth and is not counter to their inner innate drive for survival; as well as a need to question it and the rationale behind persisting/existing (itself); but where such is not the case - why bother?
I know why I am here - I made an obligation of greatest significance (some of you may be able to infer it as there is one that as I see it is whole and total). My nature makes me adhere to that obligation in full, in totality, no matter what other circumstances exist. My purpose is toward that obligation in full as to need to meet such in totality and as such while I am here I will as well do all I can to foster the betterment of people as a whole; as within such there exists some form of greater purpose that I as well feel has true worth and true purpose; one in which I am fortunate to be able to enact, hopefully to a greater and greater degree, for as long as I am to remain here as with distinct purpose toward this aforementioned requisite and total obligation T
There is a word for this type of obligation that is very simple, or two words to accurately define it, perhaps some can infer that as well; though I will leave such vague and perhaps for thought (for those who do not readily 'get it' and are so are inspired to ponder such, though likely such people have not had opportunity to come to that place as yet in their life) - to note, it is not the way most people think, though for those rare few who are 'true' it seems to be the case).
None of this 'bothers' me, it is all simply reality.
The state of humanity certainly is one that can more than be bothersome of course...but those of us with purpose toward improving humanity and be better people as some form of 'truer purpose' can perhaps hold on to that and know there are 'brethren' within the prevailing corruption and 'chaos' that exists...perhaps some hope, of some 'purpose'.
I seem to always naturally tend to end on a relatively positive note, so hopefully that speaks to some who view this post to in some manner have some worth...while they choose for whatever reason(s) or lack thereof (lol) to remain here
Edited by VERITAS INCORRUPTUS, 26 June 2014 - 03:53 PM.
Posted 28 June 2014 - 07:42 AM
A few things:
1) I can't work 70 hours to 100 hours a week like successful people do, when working full time I can barely manage 40 hours, now I am working for myself even 18 hours is a struggle, and this is WITH all the nootropics and drugs which have significantly increased my productivity. This is due to a variety of reasons, psychological and ADHD and Autism.
2) I am way too nice, I care about people...I genuinely do, yet people always use this to take advantage, or rather I am not competitive. When I am with a bunch of guys I a lot of times will meet girls and introduce the girls to my guy friends (who are too nervous to approach) who will ultimately hit off with them with no concern about me after I set up the girls state to be happy, the girl was charmed by me first.
Why do I do that? Because I don't want other guys to feel left out. I don't want them to be alone at the end of the night, and what does that get me? Alone at the end of the night, and I do this with women as well. I have turned down many women because I don't want myself and them to be hurt in the future down the line, because I can already see the issues that will come, yet when I talk to most other guys its like some "game".
^ Last few years have been particularly tough for me, i've learned a lot about life, you don't know how naive you are about life until shit happens and your life is thrown to pieces.
It's a dog eat dog world out there, anyone who says otherwise is pretty much blinded by western self help idealism. The fact is most people are trying to survive and trying to get ahead of you in some way, whether is social status, happiness, family or wealth, and to do that they often have to out compete you. People are competitive, yet whats REALLY BOTHERING ME is that no matter what I think, when it comes down to it I'm just not competitive. I want everyone to be happy, I don't want to win and put people down, and i'm really sick of it, because in this world it is not seen as a strength but weakness, people think I do not value myself, but I do - I am pretty driven and high value guy on the inside, but I just don't get understand the ideas of say winning at sport or in a game. I really feel this is a huge major problem at the moment. I find americans very aggressive and I would love to know what their mindset is.
I mean I want this badly, I want to stop doing what I am doing, I want to my generosity to be a choice not this default thing I have all the time, I just have no idea how to be very selfish. My parents were nice people that got screwed over by everyone else, nice syndrome runs in my family. So I really just have no idea of how to do opposite of nice.
3) Self sabotage, I always avoid going for what I need when the moment matters, there is always some convenient excuse around the corner. I have some success in life yes, arguably perhaps more than a lot of people my age, but I am the person if you offered something to me I would prefer to reject not because I don't want what you are offering, but that I have to protect my ego, protect my feelings, control my future or whatever.
Posted 29 June 2014 - 06:11 AM
The shoe store bitch and the library bitches and the computer assholes who were laughing at me, you fuckheads. Fuck you. And the general situation, and the person who is dysfunctional who wastes my time, you dysfunctional fuckhead, and the other stuff, you toxic fuckheads. You are fuckheads. Fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck you to everyone that is doing the stuff I don't like. Fuck you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 27 May 2015 - 03:03 AM
I was driving down the street with to adolescent males yelled an inappropriate remark at the top of their lungs. This made me feel disrespected and hated as a woman. It made me feel unsafe. It made me feel they knew me and my car from somewhere and that bothered me in it's implications . . . Leaving lingering doubt as to whether I am hated or distracted in my neighborhood by assholes who are undeveloped and have no minds. Not sure who it is, but don't like that suspects, one of whom is actually a woman who sexually harasses other women and most people think she is a male. Or it could be this one house, or this other building. Don't like to go back to the world where certain physical characteristics mark out a women for disrespect by unstable, low quality people. Don't want to go back there. Don't like that. Don't want those low quality people around me. It bothered me, it put me off center, it threatens to ruin my nice day.
Whoever you are, fuck you. You suck. You don't get to talk to people that way. Women aren't for you to disrespect. The woman who disrespects other women, fuck her. She's a complete asshole. The assholes who make noise in the neighborhood, fuck them, they suck, get a better skateboard, and learn a few things, you fuckheads. The other people, fuck you. Fuck you for harboring noise for all those months, and being racist fuckheads. Fuck you all you fuckheads. You suck. So there. Go fuck yourselves and whoever you are, right back at you fifteen times. You suck.
Posted 03 July 2016 - 02:18 AM
Posted 02 February 2017 - 02:41 AM
Oh boy, here we go. The fact that I already know how I'm going to die. I'm certainly going to kill myself.
Am I depressed? Kind of, but that isn't exactly why. I know how hopelessly worthless life is. There is no goal, no endgame, it's just eat, buy, consume, die, or at least that's how the corporations that own just a hair under everything would have me believe.
Am I paranoid? No, I don't think anyone is out to get ME, personally, but I do know that the whole of Western Society is a very clever exercise in control. Universally spread pop music with easily-hummable melodies and third grade dropout quality lyricism subtly trying to sell me products or a lifestyle. Commercials from companies that already have my business trying to perpetuate the same vague "happy-go-cave-into-silly-human-vices" lifestyle as the top 40 instead of selling a product, for the aforementioned reason. All of the major political debates being uninteresting and unimportant filler, while real issues are never addressed. Oh, let's not forget this new wave of unrealistic, general-spectrum, illogical optimism in pop culture. It's all marketing! Similalry related to that, there's also the government telling everyone how free they are. Are you kidding me? We are all being spied on by the NSA, openly. We can own land, but we can't own what's under it, or above it. I can't do ANYTHING AT ALL without being taxed (have an income, own land, buy anything). I can't do what I want with/to my body. It's all a fucking illusion! I get that taxes DO help in a lot of cases, but do you really think some of that revenue isn't being squandered somewhere down the line? I want to see the receipts for all of this fucking roadwork/school building/job creating that I never actually get to witness! It isn't that I have to pay taxes, it's that every conceivable activity of my everyday life is subject to taxation. Just give me a set fucking amount of money to pay, is that so difficult?
Am I hopeless? What is there to hope for? A less-than-average amount of pain and suffering during my lifetime until I die? A somewhat-secure occupation in which I slave away for a pittance? How fucking pathetic!
Am I faithless? You bet.
It isn't pessimism, it's realism. I'm not going to cry myself a fucking river over the above, I'm simply indifferent to the choice between the whole shebang vs. not existing. It isn't fun, it isn't worth half a shit, and that isn't enough for me. I could assign my own meaning to life, but that would be delusional. I already have goals, but my goals don't define who I am. I don't even fucking care who I am.
It feels like I know too many of society's dirty little secrets, the largest of which being how hastily cobbled together, astroturfed, and duct-taped the whole system is. I'm no conspiracy theorist, I just see what's there. It's a facade that looks like some convoluted, needlessly complex, broken system, but in reality, it's just a bunch of rich old men circlejerking over on a pile of money while discussing how to get more from people who barely have any at all. All of these politicians go around talking all of this horseshit about how they're going to bring America back, and all I hear is: "Vote for me, Whitey McGreyhair! Only I know what's best for you! Everyone else is lying!".
I could ignore it, sure, but that's what everyone else does. It's easy mode. I could escape it, too, but what good would that do? I could be a self-made man who has his own personal farm on 5 acres in the wilderness, just live completely alone. It would be great for a while, but I'd eventually come back to the realization that I'm just running away from bullshit that will eventually catch up to me.
Posted 02 February 2017 - 02:52 AM
None of my business but perhaps you could try a 10 day vipassana course. you can then look at everything as it is, equanimously. You neither like or dislike whatever is happening. I remember at uni the statement of "matter and energy cannot be created or destroyed it can only change form" ie sunlight with a few nutrients on a tree will turn into wood /matter and splitting an atom can turn into nuclear energy/. It is all going to be here in one way or another forever, so theres no point developing great dislikes or avoidance for anything, even death for that matter.
Posted 01 May 2020 - 07:55 PM
It bothers me that so many people find it difficult to follow directional markers in the supermarket. Apparently, colors don't help either. If we can't get that right, I'm not super hopeful about the rest of things...
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