that I once met. He knows some people that I know. He's a successful person in the arts, and pretty well known. I saw him recently in the media. He said something to the effect that he wanted a girlfriend. It sounded like I might have at least one quality he was looking for. I was interested in him before. His work is amazing and other women have noticed him. But when I get up close to him, I'm not attracted to him, so that's effed up. But I keep thinking about him. He has a strong presence. Years ago he was appearing not far from my home and I thought about going down there and trying to make something happen. I didn't. This might be some reasons why: /forum/blog/92/entry-593-warning/ I'm older than him. Another older white woman did exactly what I had planned to do. They ended up being a couple. A while later a mutual acquaintance heard about my feelings and got right on the phone and tried to make something happen, right in front of me. That's a man for you. He got the guy on the phone. The Artist said he was not single.
When I saw him in the media recently he said money isn't a problem for him. I think he has a house in a nice neighborhood. This would solve all my problems. I feel so beat up by the circumstances I just want someone to rescue me. I think about him but then I realize that's effed up because my attraction is so ambivalent, but then I go back to it because some of the elements are there and it's such a nice fantasy to live in.
It's an effed up weird situation that I keep drifting back to because it's appealing on some levels.
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