I don't know where else to turn.
I'm praying that someone can give a cure to this.
I'm 20. 6'1", 290lbs (I'm not super fat, my height evens it out).
I've been struggling with this brain fog/ panic attacks for about 2 1/2 years.
It's ruining my life.
I never had panic attacks in my life until after this brain fog occurred.
Please take the time to read this, this place is really one of my only hopes right now:
How it came about: I was depressed through high school and I thought I would find comfort in smoking weed.
I only did it about 6 times from December of 2008 to June of 2009.
So the very last time I did it (it had been 3 months since I last smoked) I did it with 5 other people out of a bong.
(Everyone else is completely fine).
I was tripping out.
It was a very big high (not fun btw).
I went to bed still very high.
Woke up the next morning, and went to school.
I was still a little bit high (BRAIN FOG), but that's normal for a hangover.
The next day, I still felt the same.
I was confused about it, but didn't let it affect me.
Weeks, and months past and it was still there.
I had my permit, and me and my dad went up to my grandparents, and my dad let me drive our Ford Escort.
(Btw I have admitted to my parents that I made mistakes of doing drugs.)
Before I got on the freeway, I was feeling nervous because I was thinking, "what if I get in a crash because I feel kinda high still?"
About a mile down the road, I started getting more nervous until I started feeling like I was really really high.
I was going 60 down the road for about 40 min until I told my dad, "I need to pull over, I'm having a panic attack".
One of the most scariest experiences in my life.
I had a bunch of panic attacks within the first few months of me experiencing this.
I eventually had to drop out of school because I was facing so many panic attacks.
My panic is coming from the train of thought, "what would happen if I had a panic attack?"
That combined with the brain fog feeling freaked me out and I had a lot of panic attacks.
The panic attacks got worse.
Not only did I feel high and tripping out, my palms were super super sweaty, my back got really really hot (to me atleast).
I went to my doctor and he had no explanation but he put me on Zoloft.
I started out slow on 50mg of Zoloft, increasing my dose each appointment.
Now I'm on (2) 100mg of Zoloft (maximum dose).
Through out the years I'll have random panic attacks then and now.
I really do not go out that much anymore.
And I am confident that once the brain fog goes away, the panic attacks will stop.
I'm also seeing a counselor because I was diagnosed to be mildly depressed.
I'm really afraid and sad about that if I'm going to live with this brain fog/panic attacks for the remainder of my life.
Let me describe what the brain fog is:
-feels like a very slight high
-slow
-you feel tired but you're not tired
-it's ALWAYS there
-there's also something having to with sight:
--you see things, but not with depth. you know how far things are away or how thick things are (not necessarily depth perception loss).
--you know where you are and who you're with, you just don't sense it.
--point of focus is small. (I don't know how else to describe this.
-you feel like you're just in your mind
Please PLEASE help.
I'm not prepared to live the rest of my life like this!
I am seeing my doctor tomorrow, and I am seeing my counselor for the first time in a year.
I'm praying that this is going away.
ALSO: Please answer my questions:
Do you think the marijuana (THC) itself is causing this? Maybe just a coincidence? Or something that just helped what ever is causing this?
What do you recommend I do?
