Hi everyone,
New member here. I've done a lot of research but haven't found much information that were 1st person testimonials. I hope that anyone who has gone through anything similar can offer me some advice. It would be greatly appreciated, to say the least.
Background: I've had major depression and social anxiety on and off (mostly on) for about 15 years, and in the past year I've finally come out depression and stayed out for a long time (many months to a year, recovered with no antidepressants). This is due to my own self-taught thinking, right action, life/death motivation, and using OTC herbs.
However, I noticed I was left with many terrible after effects of my brain being affected. I still have social anxiety where I can't relax in environments where you are expected to behave a certain way (work) or maintain relaxed eye contact or listen to people talking for a long time, especially only to me. Incessant thinking sometimes. Can't really read well without going back and rereading a ton, take forever to write emails b/c analyzing how to not come across unnatural, and big trouble remembering things. I also seem to be very tired on some days even though I'm more or less on a constant sleeping schedule give or take ~2 hours. Sometimes I try NOFAP (not masturbating) to see if that was a factor and I'm also uncertain if it wastes the herbs I take, or effects any of these symptoms. It's difficult and I can't seem to hold it off for too long. I wonder is it even normal to have urges to orgasm everyday? Even if I do it after it seems it the urge doesn't go away while trying to keep a clear mind.
Currently taking these almost daily: 480mg gingko biloba, 2g EPA/1.5g DHA fish oil, 1g rhodiola, 400 mg magnesium glycinate. Less commonly I'll take men's multi, 950 mg gotu kola, 450 ashwagandha, 1.22g fo-ti. Been on this about a month now. Once in a while I'll have a good social interaction which is awesome and hasn't happened in the past. Sometimes I feel really good too, but I still have many days where it sucks.
On the list for the future I plan to try out bacopa, alpha gpc, noopept + choline.
I know this is detailed but I wanted to give the forums a shot to see if anyone has been in a similar situation; conventional medicine will just want to use antidepressants. I tried that on and off for a decade and it didn't do anything while herbs and my own right action and thinking put an end to the depression.
Anybody out there repair their brains and restore cognitive function? Please let me know or any others that might need help if something's worked for you or someone you know.
Much thanks.