Did you have your blood checked before starting? How was your level?
I'm not scared to not fully recover. I'm worried about having no benefit, but at the same time adding the pain of recovering and so at the end to feel even worse than today (maybe with a proper PCT this could be a minimum problem).
Anyway, I suspect that my natural T level is not low enough to feel all the benefits of injecting T, and so was for you. Moreover, I guess T alone is not enough in our cases, and we maybe need to manage E2 and other stuff (like the need for hCG). A lot of people do well with T only; some others are less fortunate.
But also if a TRT adequately managed can make us feel better, would it worth the commitment considering a young age? I cannot imagine how to hide the need for injecting regularly (I mean T once a week and hCG EOD) without a prescription... I think that when you said you felt "grumpy, sad" was in part due to this.
I have tried every kind of supplement and a lot of med off label, but inject regularly is a lot different (btw, I have everything to start if I want to).
If we also exclude T, in my experience, nothing is remaining. The only thing that works is sildenafil to limit ED (but at the disadvantage of having a headache every time during sex). Do we have to accept that we are mediocre persons, even if we are intelligent enough to suffer for that?
Don’t get me started, I’ve contemplated suicide at times, I’m a highly intelligent person who is miserable in every other respect, ED being one of them. I got into 5 Ivies and 7 of the top 10, had perfect SAT GMAT and GRE, and I suffer from chronic fatigue, disorganized thinking, 0 libido, anhedonia.
This is a brutal combination that makes life not worth living. The thought that no matter what you do nothing will ever feel good, even though you could do it.
Anyway, to get back to TRT:
It doesn’t really solve ED. Actually, it worsened my mood, made me angry, irritable, and turned off. So, I could hold an erection better, but I wanted sex less-I just wanted to rage at people. On top of that, as you noted, there is a lot of management to do with regards to E2 and such.
Your levels also aren’t hypgonadal. You obviously have functioning parts, with some lifestyle changes you could probably get to 700-800 or so, and then you’d be high-normal. So I’m not sure what you think this will do for you.