Hey everybody, I am a 22 year old male who has been abusing adderall for 3 months. I have been using adderall at high dosages from 60-120mg once a week for 3 months. I have been getting paranoid that I cannot feel normal pleasure as much anymore and that I have looked like I've aged a lot faster than I normally have. I went through a depressed state about 9 months ago after a breakup and I didn't feel happiness for the 6 months before I started the adderall either, so I'm not sure if it is still the depression causing emotional numbness or the adderall. Ever since I started my once a week binge, I have also been supplementing to try and counter any neurotoxic or detrimental effects. i take; magnesium, zinc, ALA/ALCAR, piracetam, cdp choline, fish oil, l-theanine, and have been prescribed wellbutrin. I still have been running about 30-40 miles a month to stay aerobically active and keep my natural anti-oxidant system healthy. I'm worried that I have made myself look years older in a matter of months. But my biggest fear is that I have PERMANENTLY caused myself to feel numb to real pleasure due to down regulating my dopamine receptors. How valid are my concerns? Is it just fear and anxiety causing me to worry? I'm really going crazy just sitting here with guilt and anxiety about myself. I am still a college student and have been as sharp as ever, but my social life has been shit and I am worried I will never be able to feel clear and happy again. But then again, for months before I started the adderall after my breakup, I was worse than I am now. More depressed and more numb. Can anyone help me out?
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