The past few months I feel I may have amphetamines induced obsessive compulsive disorder. I never had this before amphetamines. But I’m not positive if that’s what it is. Basically what’s happening is I know I have a certain amount of work to do each day with my business. But for some reason I will find anything else possible not to work. Knowing that I have tasks in front of me that I don’t want to do makes me procrastinate. Now this seems normal and pretty common in a lot of people but where I feel mine is different is what I do during that time frame. I constantly research neurotransmitters, drugs, fixes for my problems, etc. like for example this morning I read a post on neurosteroids. I knew I had an important meeting and hour ago and I completely neglected it because I was so involved in researching neurosteroids. I didn’t forget about the meeting I just chose to research my interest over my responsibilities. It’s almost like a combination of mild mania and OCD. This type of behavior has gotten worse the past few months and the past month I started smoking cigarettes which I never do or have in the past. I needed some energy and a friend gave me an American Spirit cigarette as it has free base nicotine so it’s a higher count. The first cigarette was amazing for energy and focus. The next three or four pretty decent and then after that I didn’t really get any effect yet for the past 2 weeks I’ve probably smoked 10 cigarettes per day. I have no idea why I have the urge for them or if it’s just the fact that I’m doing something different like I formed a new habit that I obsessed over. I tend to want them and smoke them the most while I’m involved in my obsessive research while negating my important responsibilities. At night I will reflect upon my day and think to myself what the hell are you doing and toss the pack of cigarettes. Then the next morning on the drive to work I will come up with some reasoning for why I should get another pack. Like I will tell myself well you might just need one or two to taper off or you have a lot to do today maybe you should have a few on hand in case you need them, etc. I’ll find any excuse in the book I do the exact same thing with amphetamines. I’m curious of what type of behavior/disorder I’m exhibiting? Thanks
Edited by John250, 25 June 2018 - 04:42 PM.
