Hi everyone. For nearly 4 years now I've been battling a mystery, seemingly post-viral disease which appears to be attacking my brain and causing it to steadily deteriorate. As a result, I feel like my life is barely worth living anymore. I can no longer work, have given up just about all activities I once enjoyed, can barely socialise these days and have lost all my prospects.
My condition started off as a mild cold/flu bug, which I appeared to have caught while I was at a Download music festival back in 2016. I only noticed how impaired I was when I went into college (which I was 5 days away from completing) and tried to finish off my final essay, only to realise that I couldn't because my mind was suddenly completely blank and my brain just hurt trying to remember anything I learned at college. The virus/bug I caught went away by itself within 1 week (or at least the symptoms of it did), but the brain problems I have remained since.
These brain problems I have are 24/7, barely flucuate in any way and have only been steadily getting worse since the onset, with further brain problems setting in over the years like worsening headaches, vision issues, severe insomnia, worsening anhedonia/flat emotions, other aspects of my memory and recall getting worse, horrible head feelings (hard to put into words), increasing tiredness and heart rhythm issues (bigeminy and SVT attacks). Everything I've tried in terms of food, activity, suppliments, nootropics and medications has had zero effect at all on my brain symptoms in the past years, felt like a waste of time and money and I've almost given up trying anything else as I just know that nothing will happen. I also kept a symptom diary for a while but it proved useless to me as nothing ever changed with my illness, other than it slowly worsening with time.
The only thing that's given me any relief from feeling so horrible all the time is taking high doses (30-60mg) of codeine or co-codamol. While it doesn't help me regain any brain function I've lost, it sort of numbs my brain so I don't feel it being attacked so much, or at least makes those nasty head feelings/sensations more tolerable so I can function somewhat and get through my day. I'm concerned about the fact I've been taking opioids daily for the past 2 years, and especially having to use them more frequently as my disease progresses, but just now I feel like it's my only option.
I'm suspecting that my condition could well even be some sort of autoimmune problem with me brain. The virus/bug I caught, despite just being a common cold/flu, could have perhaps triggered some autoimmune response in my brain during my sleep, on the night before that particular dreadful day at college. I imagine this could explain why my body seems to be completely healthy and in perfect working order, while my brain feels like it's under constant bombardment from something. Hopefully I can look further down this avenue and get tested for this.
I'd be interested to hear if anyone else on here is experiencing these symptoms or got any idea it what it could be. Anyway, thanks for reading this, I just hope I get to the bottom of this condition soon before it's too late.