LONGECITY

Hello Everyone,

I am new to this forum.  2 years ago my life turned upside down from 1 months of clonazepam. After a month the drug turned on me when I tired to come off over 4 days resulting in severe mental akathisia, racing thoughts, looping thoughts, hyperawareness ocd, terror, etc. Mostly all mental symptoms. 

8 months off benzos I was put on remeron. It never helped and made me worse so now trying to taper off that.  I have been severely damaged by both drugs and I am ready to give up because it seems like there is no cure and this is permanent. 

I literallly walk around all day with my mind racing 1000 thoughts a second or looping on something intrusive every second. I can't distract.

Everything I read, watch, or hear seems to play over in my head like a movie.

I am terrified of trying something that might make me worse since I can't handle anything normally. 

I can pretty much get anything prescribed because my psych is trying to keep me alive.

Is there anything that might slow my thoughts down.  Each thought literally feels like a gunshot going off in my head.

I hope someone can relate and help me slow this madness down.

Thanks