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[zoolander]

This is more a realisation than a poem. It spontaneously leapt from my neurotic mind when contemplating the various degrees of suffering in the world related to ego

Hiding behind your superficial need for acceptance,
unable to have the simplest of realisations.

Like a child hiding underneith a bed sheet
pretending to be a ghost.

You are a ghost but have not grown.
You are naive like a child
but riddled with the mind of the manipulating
self absorbed adult.

When i have these realisations they seem to come from someone else. I'm guessing this someone is not my ego. To me they are dark, haunting and beautifully moving

[Infernity]

You do not have to apologize, poetry always comes from a different place.

All those songs I write of death, hell, evil, sorrow, etc, whatsoever, is this me? What I feel? Think?
The music I love, same thing, NO, it isn't. Look, I LOVE this song, but look at the lyrics:

Death Unlimited by Norther
(Saatanaaa, vittu perkele!)

Welcome to my world of death and pain
oh it drives you so insane
I am no blast from the past
because i'm death and i'm everlast

I'm the future breed, evil and mean
a fucking killing machine
no-one will stay alive and see
they all will die and join me

F*ck you and die, living is so damn painful
it's cool to be dead and grateful
nothing can hurt you anymore
anyhow death is so much more

you can just kill, kill and kill
just kill em all if you will
do you still wanna stay alive
or join me by my side

[chorus]
I am the Death Unlimited
and death is all i have to give
I'll tell you the meaning of life
It's not to live but to die

I am the Death Unlimited
and death is all i have to give
let me spill your sweet blood
and to you I am god
[/chorus]

Can you feel the dark side calling
it's useless to resist
give into fear, hate and anger
then life won't take your time any longer
only I am by your side
soon your life is gone
and that i adore

chorus

chorus

chorus

Do I agree? OF COURSE not! heh



You write well, I love it, wherever it comes from.

-Infernity

[zoolander]

Sometimes when we speak of death we are using the term metophorically.

For example, a zen buddhist teaching discusses the point of dying with each breath. As each moment is born it also dies.

Over the years I have become closer and closer to my darker side and as a result beleive that I no longer live such a narrow minded life.

I can now see the good and the bad for what they are. I am not beaten into submission by a desire to only feel pleasure or happiness. Ironically, the end to suffering is the death of a perceived happiness. Hence, I strive to be less judgemental. Both externally and intrinsically.

I am yet to master the skill of being in the moment, spontaneously without manipulating my actions based on an end result.

I would like to think that for me there is no end and equally that there is no beginning. There is only the illusion of a free flowing existance. The realization that nothing exist but now.

Edited by zoolander, 10 July 2006 - 06:29 PM.

[zoolander]

Here is another spontaneous realization perhaps not as poetic as the first.

I'm not caught between right or wrong
I'm not caught bewteen good or bad
I'm doubled over in submission to an unsubscribed state
surrounded by a wall of deceipt.

A casuality of war lead by soldiers
dressed in suits and clothes,
disguised as my parents, friends and lovers.

My wounds are liberating
and as I bleed confusion
through my dilated pupils I realise
that I am one step closer to freedom

It feels so weird to share such a personal realization in such an open forum. I think I'm going mad and I love every moment

Enlightenment is always preceeded by confusion

Edited by zoolander, 08 July 2006 - 02:52 PM.

[Infernity]

I think I'm going mad and I love every moment

Don't let me steal that line

-Infernity

[zoolander]

Hopefully I will be able to rewrite these poems/realisations into songs

I think I'm going mad and I love every moment ©

Whoops! You can't steal it now

Unless I give you permission [tung]

[zoolander]

I think I am suffering from the opposite of writers block

Here just now I wrote this

3 steps away from a revolution
2 steps closer to the dissolution
1 step until the final solution