[mellow] Hi,
So I did ecstasy about 30-40 times in a 3 year period, back in 2001 and I was 21 years old. I was able to get myself out the whole Rave scene on my own without anyone putting me into rehab or jail. I have always been a little vein(excuse my spelling) about myself which is why i stopped using cus i realized how much damage the drug was doing to me physically
I have struggled and continue to struggle with depression. I also struggle with not liking what i see infront of the mirror.
I used to obsess about how skinny i i was and how "tweaked out" i used to look...i have gained a few pounds but im still slim cus ive always been slim my whole life but no longer obsess about my weight but more with the small inperfections i see about my face when i get close to the mirror
i dont knw if this is in my mind cus people tell me im sexy and guys always be hittin me up in the club...but its hard to think of myself as sexy when dats not what i see and i see things that i knw are there..this is not one of those "oh i think im fat" when Im not really, ie anorexia
anyways i noticed how my acne scars are worstening although i dont pick @ my face...and i feel all of these inperfections, looking tired and other issues are all long term effects of my previous drug use
basically i am not happy with what I see and feel frustrated that other people out there have done drugs too and dont look as messed up as i do and also now that i have been clean for 4 years i expected i would look better, i do look better but not much physical chabge..my face is what has been ruined
so i need advice on what vitamins or natural meds can i try to help with not only my depression but with not looking so cracked out
i cant find anything when i google:
treating long-term side effects of ecstacy
treating physical side effects of ecstasy
...etc
help any feedback wil be appreciated!