Lately, I have been struggling to think clearly or sometimes even produce thoughts at all. It's like I know I have some insight on a certain matter but I just cannot access it, like a feeling that I have deeper knowledge on a subject but, can not bring it to the surface. It's so frustrating! I feel like a complete idiot in social situations because, I'll get that deer in headlights look on my face whenever its my turn to respond.
It seems that when this is not happening, I am having the extreme opposite effect. My mind will become flooded with thoughts and words to describe those thoughts in a very disorganized manner. This obviously makes it very difficult to express my ideas and, let me just say, when I am actually able to, the result is far from eloquent. This is killing me!
I was diagnosed with major depression about 15 years ago then, "Pure O" OCD about 6 years ago. Needless to say I have had some focus and attention issues for quite a large part of my life.
I was on an antidepressants for a few years and they seems to have helped with some of these issues. Though, certainly not all of them.
I tapered myself off of the Antidepressants about 8-9 months ago. I was on Sertraline 200 mgs and Bupropion 300 mgs. I was having some trouble when I first came off of them, but nothing like this. I should also mention that I quit smoking marijuana about 4 months ago after about 12 years of regular use.
I have an appt with a psychiatrist next week to get back on the medication. They only problem is that I am taking some pretty intense courses this summer starting June 7 and that only gives me 3 weeks to adjust to the medication, and hope that it relieves these symptoms.
Over the past several months I have tried a number of supplements including;
Omega 3: Seemed to have helped with my mood a bit
Theanine: Very calming but no change in verbal ability or thought organization
Phenylalanine: Gave me a strange tightening sensation in my head, and actually seemed to damage focus and alertness
Tyrosine: Same as above
Gotu Kola: No noticeable effect
Bacopa: Made me extremely tired so now I take it at night. No improvement since adding it.
Piracetam: Gave me brain fog even when I took it with choline, made it more difficult to speak and very cranky. ( I had such high hopes for that one:( )
I just ordered deprenyl and I'm wondering if I made a bad decision. From what I have read it can increase anxiety and am not sure if it will produce the results that I require. I also would I be able to take with an SSRI?
Any advice that anybody has would be greatly appreciated. Thanks for taking the time to read my post.
Edited by Aimilee, 12 May 2010 - 02:20 PM.