I began taking 1.25mg of deprenyl on Monday. Stepped up to 2.5mg yesterday, which I plan to continue for a bit. So far, so good. I did notice tiredness after my first dose, but 2.5mg of dex-amphetamine seems to neutralize it. My goal is to increase motivation and relieve anhedonia.
A bit of my psych history:
Severe lack of motivation since early childhood. Difficulty focusing on things except for the rare occasion I would become "hyper-focused" on something that really interested me. Classic ADD, no H.
OCD since early childhood, mainly in the form nail biting.
Dysthymia, anhedonia, and anxiety(especially severe with public speaking) since mid teens. Experimented with alcohol, cannabis and psilocybe mushrooms during this time. Symptoms amplified in late teens.
In my early 20's I moved out on my own, and sought treatment from a psychiatrist. Diagnosed with depression/anxiety and prescribed paroxetine, 20mg. Helped alot with general low mood and anxiety. But I began to notice more and more blunting of emotions, anhedonia and daytime tiredness. After about 4 years, I tried to taper down and discontinue use. All went well for a few months until one night the depression came surging back. Decided to go back on paroxetine 20mg after a few weeks of no improvement. Seems to not be quite as effective the second time around. Stayed on for another 3-4 years. Within the last 6 months I have switched to sertraline 100mg's, and also have gotten a script for dex-amphetamine 20mg a day. Tiredness is alot better, focus is helped with the dex(however i get no euphoria from dex as many other people report and no real motivation boost). Anhedonia is still very much present.
Current situation:
Despite everything, I have held down a constant job for the last 7 years and am moderately successful.
My current plan is to taper down and possibly discontinue sertraline while increasing deprenyl up to 5mg/day to work on my suspected dopamine deficiencies rather than focusing on serotonin.
Other chemical intake:
10+ year daily cannabis user, I have stopped completely, 3 weeks ago.
1-2 drinks on weeknights, more on weekends
1 gram EPA/DHA omega3 oils daily (last 4 years)
5000 IU's vitamin D3 daily (last 5 years)
500MG DLPA daily (last 3 months)
20mg dex-amp daily (down to 5mg since starting deprenyl)
100mg sertraline daily (down to 75mg since starting deprenyl, plan to goto 50mg or less depending on progress)
*** Occasional opiate user(usually morphine a couple times a month). Nothing gives me motivation like opiates, I get so much work done! (Amphetamines dont even compare as they really just help me focus but dont give me any motivational drive) Also, they completely eliminate my anhedonia. But I know opiates are not a sustainable treatment so Im seeking out other long term options(considering trying LDN as well, I have some naltrexone on hand). ***
Sorry if this is all over the place, trying to pack as much information in as coherently as possible.
Any advice on my plan/actions thus far would be greatly appreciated - especially from people with similar symptoms who have tried deprenyl or other treatments. I have read through most of the deprenyl threads on this forum so far. Thanks!
Edited by zos, 29 September 2010 - 07:19 PM.