There was a night I combined alcohol (let's say, 4 - 9 beers [i can't remember] with lower tolerance,) large amounts of THC, dexmethylphenidate (focalin/ritalin), piracetam, Alpha-GPC, 100 mg caffeine pill (crushed, oral), and clorezepate (a benzodiazepine, later on and because of the crash.) Chain smoking, for what that's worth. I'm not going comment on what that combination felt like, but it was basically fine, until I crashed. I noticed some chest pains, had a pretty bad headache. I attributed it mainly to the ritalin being thrown in, as I've never had problems with anything else. 5mg ritalin, but with selegiline having been taken 15 - 20 days previously and on a regular basis. (It takes 40 days for MAO-B to fully regenerate.)
Similar combination on other nights, minus the benzo, mainly two other nights. No comments, please.
The only thing out of the norm around this time period is that I was taking ritalin (rather, dexmethylphenidate (focalin.) I think this may be a neurotoxic combination in conjunction with piracetam (or with selegiline, even if the ritalin is in low doses), but that's speculative on my part.
Basically, my divided attention seems damaged. If I don't fully pay attention to what I'm saying, my words will not come out correctly, or I will mix them up with other words. I cannot sense any differences in how I think, my reasoning ability, or my general intelligence. When writing, I often leave out words or groups of words or will mix them up with other words. This is strongly exacerbated when I'm tired, am generally not in a mentally active state of mind, or if I use alcohol or weed (which I've now totally stopped to try and aid my recovery.) Given the bad headache and chest pains, I think it's possible I had a minor stroke, but I have no idea. Prefrontal excitotoxicity maybe. Maybe something else. Maybe a combination of things.
Alpha-GPC, more piracetam, selegiline, ALCAR, abstaining from drugs, getting enough sleep, and eating enough and at the right times has helped me, but only when I'm in the temporarily heightened state of 'attentional awareness' they put me in. If i am at all tired or if I drink even small amounts of alcohol, it comes back. Anxiety also triggers it (and reduces pre-frontal lobe function in general, as has been studied). I have questioned if anxiety itself could be the culprit, but its much to cognitive, happens even in my own thought/writing, etc. Basically even when I'm completely calm. It's a divided attention/multitasking thing, or you could say that its likely something having to do with my 'lower level/background' forms of attention/processing.
Advice, interpretations, recommendations?
Edited by brain, 07 November 2010 - 04:40 AM.