I agree TheRoyalFlush.
I've had experiences similar to yours in the past. I spent one whole year out of wack. I know people that have separated themselves from reality completely for two whole months due to mushrooms. When recovery is settled in there was a common expereience of relief and of being able to live a very happy life just doing simple shit, treasure the simple shit, although be careful because with full recovery there might be relapses into the same destructive behaviour that took us there in the first place. Read and reflect on your journals through the experience often past the recovery period to see how far you have gone, and how much happiness there is in just being. When I review my journals I dare not complain about simple things in life.
IMO it's not so much physical brain damage as it is the states that you whent through during the experience. In a lot of accidents I've had with drugs it had more to do with the anxiety I went through rather than actual damage.
- Cultivating a positive frame to the experience and to the future. Anything you put yourself through you will adapt to eventually.
- Journal about your experience and about the lessons you are learning. I deeply learned that I could be happy just having a normal sort of life with emotional health, exercise, sharing with other people
- Stay away from drugs and other experience chases. Even stay away from people who do drugs.
- I went into social work or helping out people with disabilities. I was the quiet guy around there
I will go on a leap as to recomending you fast for a period of time. Detoxing and clensing the system. There are a lot of ways to fast
Ideas
- Write a recovery journal so other people can learn from your experience. Imagine that you going through this experience will help others go through it or avoid it. Be the big brother to these people show them how a lot of good can come out of it. Show them how positive you can be about the experience.
- I favor meditation to ground yourself, but others would favour prayer. You could learn relaxation tehniques. I would meditate three times a day throught the day to ground myself in the state.
- People are miserable being normal, believe me, there are a lot more people suffering than we care to think.
- This experience will give you a depth in charachter unlike none other. From great pain comes great inspiration and drive
- Read inspirational books: from cliches like "The Power of Now", "Loving What is" (Byron Katie), "When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times" (Pema Chodron), "Good Medicine: How to Turn Pain into Compassion With Tonglen Meditation" (Pema Chodron)
- Don't rely upon a substance to get you out of this. Rather know that it's going to be your own body that will naturally gravitate to balance and homeostasis. I went carzy with combinations of drugs only to find out that the cure was within.
My body chills reading stuff like yours, it resonates with me. I cannot save you but I deeply hear you with no judgement.
Edited by juanjo_asdf, 11 March 2011 - 08:57 AM.