Hello everyone -
I'm a short time lurker on here who originally became interested in nootropic racetams and Noopept to assist with my terrible long and short term memory, lack of motivation, and anxiety.
I ordered both piracetam and Noopept about three weeks ago and also procured a B-Complex vitamin, Sublingual B-12, and Jarrow's Alpha-GPC.
I started by taking Noopept 30mg about twice a day, and did not experience much, if anything at all. So, the next week, I took about 4.8 grams of piracetam twice a day, 600 mgs of Alpha-GPC, and 30mgs of Noopept twice a day. I didn't get the amazing imagery like everyone else had described, but after about a week, my memory was noticeably augmented in a positive way. I could easily recall facts that would leave me searching for the right word - and I was remembering faces for the first time in forever without turning to my partner and quietly asking who that was - I was telling THEM first. It was incredible. Little victories.
Things were going reasonably swimmingly, aside from brain fog and lethargy from time to time from what I think was over doing it on the noopept, so to test things out, I dropped the noopept and piracetam for a week, and just took the Alpha GPC, which helped with fluidity of speaking, but caused palpitations when taking too much (as I upped to around 900-1200per day), so after a few days of feeling ill at ease, I stopped everything to reassess and create a plan instead of just bouncing around.
So I decided to go exclusively with the Noopept, which I decided to take 30mg, twice a day, for three weeks, and keep a log of improvement. That started two days ago. The first day went well, the second day, my partner reminded me we had mushrooms that we'd been saving...I tried to do some research to see if there were any potentially negative interactions between the two since I had already taking my 60mg for the day at that point, and I couldn't find anything.
So, I went ahead and took them. And having taken mushrooms multiple times before prior to nootropic supplementation, I know the feeling of detachment and relaxation that comes with digesting shrooms.
This was not it.
My visualizations started...but also with extreme anxiety and feeling faint. Within about an hour after ingestion, I started to feel like all of my actions were becoming manic, but with visualizations, and not in a way where I could breath and call myself down naturally. It became so bad, I was worried that I had started to fry my neurotransmitters, which - I still may have - I called an ambulance because it was only becoming dramatically worse.
These were the most vivid and intense visualizations turning into full on hallucinations. Floors were melting out from under me, by the time we got to the hospital, I had almost completely lost my ability to understand language. It sounded like everyone was speaking french in a huge jumble. My body wanted me to go into it, and relax...so I would close my eyes and it felt like I was dreaming and awake at the same time...but I knew there was a further level of sleeping that I could let myself go to, but I kept refusing to relax because I wasn't sure what was happening to my brain at that point, so all I knew was that I needed to stay awake because I thought I might go into a coma, or even die.
They went to interview me, and I could only answer the most basic questions, after being prompted multiple times and was very easily confused, mixing words - meanwhile, assuming I'm now at the peak of the digestion of the mushrooms, things are only going downhill. I'm in a triage room and I want to sleep so badly, but I'm trying to keep myself from relaxing because I'm panicing and thinking that might be it for me if I go to sleep - at least becoming a vegetable. It was so incredible though...looking into everything in my brain, it was the most crisp and photorealistic dream/visualization space that I have ever had, and I would become to comfortable in it...and then snap back into the real world until the boundaries between the real world and that world were completely non-existant.
At that point, I was pretty sure my neurons were frying...or reaching a critical mass of overstimulation and that I needed something to counteract and prevent the transmitters from being stimulated because in no uncertain terms...I was losing my ability to talk...I could only say two-three word phrases - and everyone in the ER thought I was just being psychotic whereas I was pretty sure my brain was on fire.
Finally someone grabbed the Noopept container I brought with me and looked at the active chemical printed on the side and ordered me two shots of Ativan (lorezepram) immediately.
All the while, my partner is crying and hugging me because I wasn't sure what death felt like...but I assume a slow confusion mixed with bursts of understanding the gravity of what's happening around you...that slowly fades away and away would be pretty similar.
Within about 2 minutes, after the benzos were given, my surroundings solidified...when I reached for my partner, my arm didn't go through their arm...I could feel them again, they were the right proportions, my eyes could focus...and then I could relax. My brain felt completely stable again. I wasn't shouting down the hall at the orderlys to please please help, and arguing with them when they told me it was "just a panic attack" because I knew it wasn't - I told them I needed something to counteract the stimulation and that my neurotransmitters were being friend - which I'm sure sounds insane. But I kept going with it, and my boyfriend believed me and stood up for me.
Oh man...I have no idea...no no no idea, but could I have died, or at least literally destroyed half of my brain?
After sleeping on everything...I feel woozy and out of it, but I feel capable and able to communicate. I obviously am able to write and understand language again.
Can anyone shed some light on how stupid I was, and why I had that reaction?
Edited by reticent, 13 May 2013 - 08:51 PM.