When my anhedonia began, i had nor depression, neither anxiety or something else. I was just bored. Bored of everything (my real interests, study etc.) Then it worsened, and i lost reward for sleep, eat, stupid movies and series and other primitive things i enjoyed before). That was the beginning of hell.
I don't think you understand the meaning of depression. Being bored of everything is one of the classical signs of depression. You don't have anhedonia by itself nor is your problem due to a 'cracked' PFC, you have depression, which luckily is treatable, if you don't keep over analyzing what you have and get some help for it..
What are you talking about ? I had some little depressive episodes in the past, i know WHAT depression is. My case is absolutely different. SSRI worsened my anhedonia long term. It is pure anhedonia. For example, i can repost here Zrbarnes post:
"I have dealt with anhedonia all while growing up, but it wasn't a sad, depressive anhedonia. It was more of a "perpetually bored" type of thing. I was always content with this until my college years. I tried to go to school for computer engineering at one of the top schools in the country. Even though I was naturally gifted, I had no drive or motivation to do my school work. Once the novel nature of a subject wore off, so also did my ability to focus on the subject.
After failing numerous times and switching schools, the rejection started to cause anxiety (which I had never experienced in my life). Then, my girlfriend of 5 years cheated on me. I guess some psych docs would say that I had PTSD type symptoms from this. Combine this with the underlying anhedonia, and you have a recipe for disaster. At this point, I pretty much just slept and tried to find things to amuse myself, accomplishing nothing but wracking up credit card debt as I foolishly tried to still attend school. I gradually worked my way out of the depression, insomnia, and the majority of the other symptoms related to a really bad heartbreak. But I still couldn't pass classes or pay attention. It was like my anhedonia had increased 10 fold.
I finally went to see my doctor. He prescribed me adderall. My anhedonia disappeared, but I had every side effect of amphetamines. My BP went ridiculously high too. After about 6 months of this, I quit school, quit adderall, and starting studying the brain.
I spent more money then I could ever afford on nootropics and supplements, and spent months researching. Then, I started taking the CILTEP stack before Abelard Lindsay even posted it publicly. I noticed a change in my brain, which was one of the first times I actually felt anything from any "noots" or supplements (with the except of methylcobalamin which caused euphoria for several days when I first started taking it). But I still was getting nothing done. In frustration, I went back to the doctor, and got a script for Adderall (this was about a year after I had stopped). I also decided to try Selegiline, in order to hopefully reduce the dosage of Adderall. Because of the contraindication between the 2, I decided to start out very small. 5mg of each.
From the very first day, my brain fired up and started working again. Similar to when I had previously adderall (at a much higher dosage), without the tunnel vision and side effects. I was amazed... shocked... I had my life in my control all of a sudden. I told the doctor how excited I was. He was shocked and amazed. He even stopped worrying about the possible interaction, since I was taking such low doses.
Did I mention I never stopped taking CILTEP during this trial? Because I kind of forgot this small detail at the time. I starting noticing massive amounts of productivity on some days, yet none on others. These productive days always "happened" to fall on days which I took artichoke and forskolin along side of my selegiline and adderall. I started playing with the doses and found that I didn't even need the Selegiline. I also needed 1/4 of the forskolin dose I was taking.
That is the story of how I stumbled upon the stack that saved my life. Fast forward to 8 months later: I'm getting married in three months; I have my own business; and I have an interview for a part time job tomorrow. I'm anhedonia free, and with a few tweaks to the original regimen, I feel healthier than ever. Of course, if I ever miss a day, I'm right back to my usual self (which is nice for relaxing on vacation!).
The important part of this whole thing is to note that I was never chemically depressed or anxious for no reason, which is why I never entertained the ideas of SSRI's. My depression and anxiety came from the real life consequences of a lifelong struggle with anhedonia. Once I was able to conquer anhedonia, the hopelessness dissolved, and with it so did any lingering depression and anxiety.
It's very important to be able to get to the root of the problem if you are ever going to defeat it. I've never been able to quite pin down the exact cause of my issue (though I've entertained several theories), but it's clear that I am either too stongly influenced by one of the inhibitory neurotransmitters, or not enough by one of the excitatory ones. I still continue my search, but at least I am enjoying life and accomplishing my goals while I continue to expand my knowledge about the human brain."
Amp also helped me. I have not the same, but very similar case, much severe. And the root of my problem is dysfunction of nucleus accumbens. Why ? I don't know.
Edited by Modest, 27 February 2014 - 03:26 PM.