I have been treating myself for unknown mental illness for over a year. I have had a lot more success with it then my doctors.
Despite all the progress I still struggle and a full time job seems unrealistic.
My best guess is that it is "bipolar II with ultra rapid cycling" but my psychiatrist says that is not a real diagnosis. My cycles being like 10 days in length.
Some of my inconsistencies include :
Social ability
Tiredness, sometimes I sleep 5 hours sometimes 11. And also need to nap through out the day.
My performance at video games and basketball, inconsistent mentally.
My performance at basketball is also inconsistent because my aerobic performance is sometimes really bad without reason.
I sweat a lot some days, I sweat like a waterfall other days.
Depression and mild hypomania.
My sleep, inability to sleep is inconsistent.
It all has a general pattern and I am stuck, in knowing how to manage it further. The end goal is a. Full time job.
My meds are:
40mg nsi189
2x20mg tamoxifen
2x300mg lithium
75mg Lamotrigine
1-2mg of clonazepam for sleep sometimes
600mg testosterone a week... Cause why not
Idk what to do next and wonder why I am also impacted physically by my illness.
