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To Great People,
Posted by
Kalepha
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28 November 2007
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Hey all. Firstly, I'd like to thank ImmInst for tolerating me this long and just for being really cool, even if some of my privileges had to be deducted. Perfectly understandable.
In cyberspace, I'm not the easiest person to get along with, because I'm 29 and still carrying self-hatred about not having been visionary and inspired since the dogditch crib, not to mention just simply not having the highspeed fluid intelligence I so wish I had. But perhaps also partly because there's no way to be altogether blameworthy for not being beautifully oriented with blind conviction when the complexity of the assumptions doesn't seem fully developed or properly evaluated to begin with, while if it is, it's not clear that it's gainful to endlessly scour the neighboring archives and literature without the analytical and design basics, or a personal context of identity which, to top it off, is itself likely too underdeveloped and -- that's right -- also potentially endlessly so. How I attempt to deal with this is alluded to in both my ambiguous acts and my precise communications.
If there's no excuse for some of them, though, then so be it. I can do no more than appear nominally sorry for now.
That aside, I hope to make this blog a place to check-in in this kind of more personal manner every now and then and show that the community at large hasn't lost a cooperative player, however apparently ineffectual or defector-bound. It may take some time to be perceived as another cultivator, as I have millionaire donors and FTLyears-ahead geniuses who I supposedly can't understand even in principle to compete with, but just know that I at least continue to invest in such a way that encompasses the intention of being an ultimate investor. Sort of a recursive self-enhancement emulation, however primitive and potentially lost in the dust. So qualified this time because I've been ridiculed before for "announcing" what might seem to others vacuous news. But it's not.
Later.
In cyberspace, I'm not the easiest person to get along with, because I'm 29 and still carrying self-hatred about not having been visionary and inspired since the dogditch crib, not to mention just simply not having the highspeed fluid intelligence I so wish I had. But perhaps also partly because there's no way to be altogether blameworthy for not being beautifully oriented with blind conviction when the complexity of the assumptions doesn't seem fully developed or properly evaluated to begin with, while if it is, it's not clear that it's gainful to endlessly scour the neighboring archives and literature without the analytical and design basics, or a personal context of identity which, to top it off, is itself likely too underdeveloped and -- that's right -- also potentially endlessly so. How I attempt to deal with this is alluded to in both my ambiguous acts and my precise communications.
If there's no excuse for some of them, though, then so be it. I can do no more than appear nominally sorry for now.
That aside, I hope to make this blog a place to check-in in this kind of more personal manner every now and then and show that the community at large hasn't lost a cooperative player, however apparently ineffectual or defector-bound. It may take some time to be perceived as another cultivator, as I have millionaire donors and FTLyears-ahead geniuses who I supposedly can't understand even in principle to compete with, but just know that I at least continue to invest in such a way that encompasses the intention of being an ultimate investor. Sort of a recursive self-enhancement emulation, however primitive and potentially lost in the dust. So qualified this time because I've been ridiculed before for "announcing" what might seem to others vacuous news. But it's not.
Later.
