Different Eyes
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Then last year hit, I take a hallucinogen, at night then I fall asleep unexpectedly. Next day, I wake up, and I am still tripping out. I wait throughout the day for it to stop, but it will not. I can not focus, without my sight doing something completely different of itself. I get movement illusions, flashes of light, flashes of dark, flashes of color, rainbow halos around a full moon, rainbow halos around a perfectly circle shaped light, positive/negative after images, color change illusion, visual snow throughout my whole vision (not intense like in old movies, but makes colors not look like solid colors), trails of moving anything, light trails (different because it does not have to move, only my eyes do), star bursts, floaters and blue optic phenomena (which only occur in blue skies). Blue optic phenomena looks like tiny white sparks of fireworks in a blue sky. Star bursts happen with any bright light that has no lid to it, which looks like streaks of light spread across the area of where the light consists.
One time I was hanging up my hoodie, and as I move the hanger the trails of the white hanger were different colors. Similar to a rainbow, and it was not like anything I have seen before. I had very poor sleep the past few days before that happened. I know serotonin with all the HT agonists, GRM5 the neurotransmitter of the nervous system, adenosine receptors with caffeine, cannabis, and dopamine have many to do with nerve distortions. I have been researching for over a year and observing my senses.
Caffeine certainly effects my hearing senses, I noticed this when I was at a coffee shop. Two shots of espresso along with flavorful candy mixed drink and then slowly I begin to notice it was hard to pay attention. I can clearly hear other peoples' conversations and laughing across the room. Everything in that area seemed louder than it normally was. I notice sounds I did not hear before. I'm done with caffeine.
Cannabis makes me feel more out of it than usual, but my mind is on all sorts of ideas. All my senses seem to be greatly enhanced. Music sounds different than the last time I played it before. My pain hurts worse, since time seems to drag by. I can not stand the cold, it hurts. I quit weed and along with drugs.
I'm going to convince my psychiatrist to taper me off my mood-stabilizing medication, because it interferes with my nerves and there are bad side effects along with the meds that I do not want. I have an appointment coming up.
Stress and happiness interferes with my visuals. Depression and happiness make the sights worse. I love being happy, but perhaps these visions have made me focus more and become progressive. If I was not on any of my medications before I did that hallucinogen, I would be seeing more symptoms that are more intense than this. Some people do not have so many different symptoms as me and are not on meds, but I try to distract myself as much as possible. Clonazepam was the best I had, but my mom discontinued it. I had it when I was little and It made me see clearer. I have 20/20 vision, but not all the rest before that. I rather be more drug free and not dependent . I will like to see how that will go as I display myself. I try to be as much as myself every day, but I want to be more than that.
Interesting.. Maybe you are perceiving the 4th dimension. Maybe you should try mediation.