I have taken several medications (prescription, nootropic, and supplements) over the past years to help fight depression and get me to be motivated like I was before my brothers death. I'm 27 years old, workout 5 times a week and have a healthy BMI. The medications/supplements I've taken and length of time taken are listed below:
Wellbutrin (1 year, stopped because of dizziness and memory loss)
Piracetam (7 months, stopped because no differences noticed after the first 3 months)
St John's wart (2 months, stopped because no difference noticed)
SAMe (2 months, stopped because no difference noticed)
Rhodiola (1 month, stopped because no difference noticed except headaches)
Fish Oil (4+ years, still take it)
Magnesium (1+ year, still take it 4x a week)
I was sick over a month ago and the doctor prescribed vicodin to help with some of the pain. After I felt better, I still had a few vicodin left over and I started taking them once a day. It was unquestionably the best I've felt since my brother died. I was relaxed (obvious), happy and focused with work and completed about 3 times as much work each day as I usually would. Even my boss noticed a radical difference in my mood, behavior and work output. Then after I ran out of the prescription, things went back down (way down) to normal again.
I've been trying to find ANY supplement that will give the same results but doesn't require a prescription, is safe and legal. I saw Kratom and Kanna mentioned, and I'm leaning more towards Kratom at this point. From what I understand its preferable not to take it daily due to possible addictiveness. That is the only downside I've read about. I also read a little on Kanna and saw it can be toxic in too large of a dose but is also effective as an anti-depressant and anti-anxiety.
Does anyone have thoughts or experiences with either of these 2 supplements? Are there other supplements recommended for this that I should look into?