Took me 2.5 hours to write this, thats the ADHD, slow bad memory. as I didn't want to do this because I thought I could figure it out, So I lost complete Focus. Its the best I got sorry. Help if you can thanks Alot.
I feel lost. with the Nootropics now.
I had had high hopes for this to help my ADHD & Depression.
I have tried so many combo stacks & nothing works so far below are what I have right now, but makes things worse if anything or makes me seem foggy. If its low doses it don't do a thing. now if I use the close to max doses recommended it seems to give me an ache in the back of my head like if your in the sun to long & dehydrated (ache in back of head) & a small stomach ache, feel more antsy. I have to be missing something in my collection or taking the wrong stuff maybe. I have no clue now complete failure.
I might be missing powders that help activate them? only thing I haven't tried is taking anything by it self I have always added Alpha GPC or Centrophenoxine with the others. maybe seems they cancel each other out on the stacks I have copied different stacks from the forums & sites like (nootriment). I tried many types that other ADHD people said worked but missing some of the powders on some of them.
There are 2 drugs I have taken like most ADD/ADHD people have tried for what ever reason. Most of us Quit at some point or keep doing them. I have quit them as they don't work or are the incorrect treatment.
1st type more current = Weed
been on & off weed for a year maybe, it helped some what while taking it but created even more depression once I stopped! maybe 20% effective once taking it, The difference if i take the correct type of weed it allows my brain to slow down! Think of slow motion. it doesn't fix any ADHD problems. all it did was slow brain functions a bit better. It dont fix the problem at hand to be honest. if I took a test I might do a little better but only maybe 15-20% better if that even. but has all the side effects that weed offers. I can say my reflects are sharper not weaker or slower then others would be on it, im Smoother on it. seems to take depression away or takes the edge off! the wrong weed & I fall asleep. there is only 2 kinds for me.
1) No Dopamine Release = Sleepy & I fall Asleep! - this type I even feel better then any type of nootropics so far, I have never had a issue falling asleep! this weed is a waste for me!!! but even if it makes me sleepy still alot better then any nootropic stack I have tried.
2) Dopamine Release! I start to feel things & maybe to much, Depression is gone, I feel alive, Takes the edge off. Im not as lazy & I get some stuff done! This type will not allow me to be completely lazy!
Hybrids are hard to tell sometimes. but example CherryPie is ok, only one that comes to mind, cant remember nothing else.
maybe 10 years ago Tried next type.
2nd type = Crack cocaine - (Never Again Stupid!!!!) one memory I'LL never forget!!!
was on it for 1 year! Time of my life, Reason I say that is I always had a woman lol many of them think I had 6-8 rotating different days they all knew each other but didn't care haha. worked 6 days a week, never late & did great work, my boss liked me alot as I was always positive & got the job done!
This is not me at all or wasn't before or after only during the crack session. Once I stopped crack I lost everything, job, girls, everything. seemed it screwed me from getting off crack.
im sure there is a higher reason what happen & how it happen getting off crack! longer story & a nightmare really. But it seemed great but wasn't to be truthful, just seemed great at the moment! The side effects are just crazy maybe worse then crazy even. Deal with the Devil!
Think its the self destruct button really.
lets say weed helped a bit because it helped to focus & get tasks done! but kept the ADHD & helped with some of the Depression only. a little memory improvement at times but very very weak. just added a bit of extra Dopamine I didn't have before. Time would go fast. alot less control overall Would make mistakes & think i was smarter on it, but really wasn't! still forget things maybe even more, the ADHD was here still!! wasn't like I was going to get a better job on it. was same person only high lol. Weed would never work, just help a bit.
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Crack cocaine I could do anything I felt, my Drive was full throttle Mind & Body! I did everything I said I would & then some! when I said I would I remembered things. Was very responsible on it. I was almost mistake free! Depression was Gone!!! Was a Dare Devil on it no fear!!! No pain. Always Energy. Not adding the down falls & the messed up things you do on it at times without it! Pretty messed up stuff! lol.
Crack messed the brain up I grind my teeth all the time now & crave it at times. the crave is easily controllable as I have the reminder of the grinding of teeth forever now programmed in my brain. I catch my self & stop. every time I grind my teeth the reminder of Crack thats why I would never do again, unless I wanted a Dare Devil Job lol.
Crack hasn't changed anything else in the brain that wasn't there before. ADD/ADHD & Depression was there Way before any of the drug use. Started being depressed in my early 20's & didn't try crack till my early 30's... I think if I never did crack at that time I would have ended my life, self destruct was already there! I knew better & did it anyways! I was ready to leave this world. But something changed while on it, I called it hope I think & have been searching for something like it sense.
Drugs didn't cause these they just made Depression worse but ADHD is same but compounded like the Depression because of all the years having it.
Piracetam
Aniracetam
Sulbutiamine
Noopept
Phenylpiracetam
Choline Bitartrate Powder
Meclofenoxate Powder (centrophenoxine)
Tianeptine >99%
Alpha-GPC >50%
Waiting for these still (in the mail)
Mucuna Pruriens Extract 98% L-DOPA - 50 Grams
N-Acetyl L-Tyrosine (NALT) - 100 Grams
Wish I could focus, remember & comprehend like you normal people, very bad day today Sorry. 2.5 hours later
Thank you very much for any help & all feed back is cool!