I just went to my first appointment since starting 2 weeks ago.
Some additional considerations that probably will affect my experience on the drug:
Things in my life were generally getting better from a social, work, and happiness perspective regardless of taking a new drug. So things probably would improve for me regardless of me taking oxytocin or placebo.
I always said I wouldn't fall into the "placebo effect" but with this drug it is entirely possible that I have. There are zero side effects which makes its risk/reward factor of taking it already really good. I would probably want to continue taking it even if it were just water because it seems really natural.
Umm what do I think has changed in the past 2 weeks:
I think one on one conversation is easier, more enjoyable, and I feel more comfortable
Group social situations are pretty much the same as usual, perhaps I am more comfortable about being awful in these situations though. The lack of effect in group situations may be do to bad anxiety/habits which the drug hasn't really removed but i could improve it in a longer term though.
Eye contact??? I don't really know I can't say I notice a change
I have been trying harder to start small talk, still terrible but trying. I have been small talking more than usual AKA making some stupid comments to random people (especially to women, I just can't make myself give a shit small talking to men)... I doubt that has anything to do with oxytocin just effort in combination with the belief that oxytocin should help me improve at small talk.