Hello.
Here is my story,
As far as I can remember, I always remembered that people called me the "serious guy"
Ever since I was 6 I could always remember not laughing that much or taking things too seriously 99% of the time.
I was always thinking of negative scenarios that would happen etc.
But I was never depressed, but I rarely feel content with life.
This is rarely shown when I am with friends or in a social gathering.
Everybody that knows me on an acquaintance level thinks I am confident, nice, outgoing, extroverted, but I know myself
I am self concious and have anxiety while being with a group of people I don't know
I was never called "awkward" or "boring" but when I am with a fresh group of people I don't know I become very concious of what my whole body is doing, and always thinking of the next words thats coming out of my mouth.
I just end up being the "quiet" guy
This is completely the opposite when I am with people I am close with.
If a negative thought comes to mind or even if something really insignificant manages to upset me,
I turn into a silent machine and can not brew up any rational thoughts, can not even manage to fake smile
I simply can't rid of that mood until I have an outlet to let it out.
If I was upset everybody would be able to sense that angry presence within a 30 mile radius.
I also find myself often times than not , being unable to crack jokes ,
or if I do think of one, it would be like 10 minutes after the key moment passed.
I was never spontaneous.
So here is my background story.
I am really looking forward to treating these very mild depressive and anxiety problems, because I often find myself in a subpar mood and easily irritable and sometimes people are frightened of me. It is not fair to those around me.
If anyone can suggest any supplement or regimen that can help alleviate my problems it would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you!