So today I came across a disorder related to the production of endorphins and I think there might be something to it.
This depression of mine has kind of come and gone unexpectedly in month-long periods. It has been similar to what you would find in a bi-polar SAD patient or even a ADHD over the past couple years. Especially the last month I've been socially withdrawn and in the absolute worst mood ever. When people tell jokes around me or something funny is going on, I just can't seem to laugh even if I want to. Every smile on my face, for the most of these few months, has been faked. My memory is horrible and I do all that I can to not snap at others. When this all first started, I came across these forums and started using nootropics like crazy in hopes to correct any sort of chemical imbalance. I've used many supplements and prescription drugs that target specific neurotransmitters including acetylcholine, dopamine, serotonin, GABA, oxytocin, norepinepherine, testosterone basically you name it, I've tried it - with little to no success. Every time I've ever had a doctor run tests on my blood for deficiencies they come out fine. Apparently my body is healthy and ok, but various symptoms I have prove otherwise.
Interestingly enough the only time I feel like socializing with ANYONE is after an exercise, run, or any other endorphin related activity. All my mood problems go away, my ability to laugh comes rushing back, and my life is ok for a few hours - then its gone. It's like a light switch and I can tell immediately when it leaves, I'll try to laugh and it will sting. Seriously,
sting.The only time over the past few months actually been truly happy was when I got my wisdom teeth out and for the next few weeks afterwards. For most people getting their wisdom teeth out is a shitty situation, but I loved it. The strange thing is, I only wanted to hang out with friends the whole time. Like my parents could not keep me in the house, which is very unusual for me. Its was awesome - like whatever fog I had going on was lifted. I was with my friends everyday of the week even staying the night and stuff. Looking back now though I think I know why - the doctor prescribed hydrocodone. Instead of making me drowsy, it was like being awake from a deep sleep. I can't help but think endorphins played a major role.
My guess is that there are a few types of endorphins that are vital for good mood and well being for the normal lows throughout the day. Perhaps my depression is correlated with low endorphin production or response. I mean it may not be very common, but it makes more sense to me then the whole "serotonin imbalance" theory that is going around these days.
Edited by TheBatman, 05 November 2013 - 03:25 AM.