Hi all,
I wanted to post here to see if I could glean some collective wisdom. I have a pretty healthy lifestyle, eat a good diet, run, and see a CBT therapist. I have had persistent issues with a collection of anxiety/depression/attention issues since I was young. Officially, I've been diagnosed as ADD/anxiety/depression. But admittedly, my issues seem to supersede that. I have tried a variety of attention/mood stabilizer and medicine combinations and nothing helps enough with my blend of issues. I'm hoping to at least not get as overwhelmed and emotional during stressful/busy times so that I can focus on using emotional and procedural techniques.
The main problem now is that while therapy helps, the problem is that I am not consistent enough over time. Right now, I fall into slumps where even simple routines like brushing teeth or cleaning the dishes takes effort. While some of the energy issues may originate from attention issues, I find that the fact my mood can shift depending on how much work I have ahead of me or the stressors of the week, and overcoming these mood hitches requires a lot of energy and keeps me from being in problem solving mode. It is these mood issues that I have had some, but not enough success with, that I wanted to see if there are additional suggestions.
I'm not sure how to best characterize the mood issues to see what ways are most effective in the literature. They resemble many different characterizations, but each has different ways of dealing with it successfully. In some ways, it seems that the mood issues resemble atypical depression. In some ways it seems like it resembles elements of borderline personality disorder. When I'm stressed is when the issues are most severe. But it turns out that stress can even be induced by life decisions, I'm highly perfectionist and have high life standards, so can't contemplate decisions logistically without the emotional weight.
Are there any ways to try to figure out what different biochemical abnormalities to target that could help with my issues and help me leverage the therapy that I am already using and committed to?
Mood Regulation Targets:
MAOI-I know that atypical depression has elements of frustration tolerance that have been linked to successful treatment with MAOI inhibitors. Haven't tried any.
Serotonin- I am on 40 mg of prozac. This helps a bit, but I take more and get tired or manic.
Gaba- I used to be on 400 mg tegretol. This helped a tiny bit with not feeling as frustrated or emotional during tough times, but made me foggy and also in many more stressful moments, my thinking got clogged.
Taurine- Seemed slightly effective, but made me incredibly tired at higher doses. Haven't tried it out during period of extreme stress.
NAC-
Other-My psychopharm put me on guanfacine once. It seemed to help me reduce a lot of brain clutter that would come about with overwhelming tasks and stress. But insurance doesn't cover it for adult ADHD and the generic Tenex didn't help as much, it only made me feel incredibly tired.
Choosing which targets to address:
My trial and error and assessment over the past has maybe been ineffective and i would be helpful if there were any clarity on parsing out my symptoms and which biol. mechanism to target.