I will start out by mentioning that 6 weeks ago I cold turkey'd from 120-150mg of oxycodone a day, and while it was a challenge, the combination of Gabapentin/Clonidine and a variety of other supplements helped me 'recover' relatively quickly. Returning to a daily regime of weight training, proper sleep, and healthy dieting certainly helped. With that said, I was also on a relatively stable dose of dexadrine XR during my opiod use as well, ranging from 45mg - 60mg daily. On my last day of opiod use i dropped my dexadrine to 20mg of XR daily, and have recently (~2weeks ago) titrated down to 15mg daily, with a plan to decrease by 5mg every 3 weeks.
While I have used a variety of nootropics, vitamins, supplements in the past, I have elected to minimize my current daily stacks to simple multi-vitamins, with magnesium/b6/vitC & melatonin prior to bed. This way I figured I could add ONE thing at a time and properly assess what each of these was doing for me, rather than creating yet another 'stack' to try and get me through what I am sure are very normal symptoms of my recovery process.
THAT BEING SAID, there are certain symptoms I would like to try and determine what are the potential causes for and then attempt mitigate these in order to maintain the most stable emotional balance I can in order to minimize any significantly low periods that could trigger a relapse - while of course utilizing other tools such as group/individual counselling, etc. Symptoms such as a depressive mood, or even a period of low motivation, I can certainly handle now without any need to self medicate, however there is one pattern than I am seeing that could potentially cause me issues in my long term goals to be off of all medications (for at least a year to determine if I have any chronic issues outside of addiction) - that one is Morning Agitation.
Upon waking, about 30-45 minutes afterwards, I experience flows of extreme agitation (almost like an agitation adrenaline rush). This is obviously no issue when I go to the gym in the AM, however even afterwards there are a few periods where the 'almost physical' and instant feeling of anger is boarderline debilitating. The only other time I have felt this outside of say the first 2-3hrs in my day is about 30mins after a dose of Aniracetam (2 weeks ago), which caused me to not take this any longer.
I am wondering if this is simply a amphetamine withdrawal (as I do not take my dexadrine dose until about 3hrs post wake, after my workout), in which case I would welcome any suggestions to this, OR is it blood sugar related, a cortisol issue, etc.
My goal is to identify the probable causes, determine if there is a solution, and if there is not, use other tools to ride it out until it subsides.
With a history of opiod, amps, SSRI and steroid use/abuse over the past 4 years, I recognize that 6 weeks is a tiny period of time to expect a return to "normal" state, however with a consistent (acute) symptom like this, I'd like to think there are some ways to figure out WHY, and HOW perhaps I could help reduce this.
Thank you in advance for any advice etc.