I need some advice. I'm 27, in good shape and 170 lbs. One of my parents died 7 years ago and life hasn't been the same since. I have been on Lexapro for about 6 months now. I started on 10mg for about 2 months then the doctor wanted me to try 20mg. It worked for about 3 weeks then I started feeling very sick, dizzy and medicated so I he dropped me back to 10mg. Since then I have not felt the same happiness or relaxation I did before. He also prescribed a series of benzos (prescribed at different times and never overlapped) for social events when I would be nervous, all of which gave me headaches or put me to sleep quickly.
About a year before this I took Wellbutrin which was pretty useless and the side effect of memory loss was so great I had to drop it before I lost my job.
About 3 years before this, I took about 1600mg of Piracetam a day with 250mg of AlphaGPC. This worked great. The only reason I stopped taking it is because the supplier I bought Piracetam from stopped selling it, and that specific supplier posted purity tests of the Piracetam which made it a much more trustworthy source in my opinion. I have not trusted other sources since then and that is why I tried prescriptions. I am also concerned with Piracetam because the mechanism of action is not fully understood and seems to have as good of a chance at causing future health problems as the prescriptions I'm currently taking. One other thing I noticed is since taking Lexapro, I do feel calmer but I also don't care about getting a lot of neccessary priorities finished. I also used to feel motivated to workout but have no desire to at all since taking Lexapro.
My questions are: Should I ask my doctor to slowly take me off Lexapro so I can start taking Piracetam again? If so, what is a trusted pure supplier? Is there anything I can take to help me be calm before social events? I know from previously taking Vicodin for a week for pain that my body repsonds extremely well to opiates, but also understand it can't be taken regularly or my body will become too used to the syntheitc alkaloids and not produce its own. I'm looking for any advice right now. Thanks.